JOAN :D

2008-06-08T23:53:00.003+08:00

five minutes t midnight.(:
turning nocturnal nowsadays, can't seem t sleep early.
very moodless now :/
I know I haven't been updating these days, sorry.
ugh, just that I don't feel like, cos;
I don't see why I need t blog, when I can't write what I want.
its either I get picked upon, labelled, or commented.
I just don't get it.
so I blog less now ohkay, sorry. ):
promise t update asap ohkay :D
reply t tags will be done tmrw/soon.(:
and everything I owe will be done. promise [:
but happy holidays t all. :D enjoy people.

sorry, but I'm rejecting all calls tonight.
I'm really moodless, sorry.

watching Hana Yori Dango.♥
its my newest addiction. :D
I love panda bears.(: hahaha.

and you'll never know how it feels, ♥

2008-06-02T22:24:00.003+08:00

NAHNAHNAH.(:
ohkay that was so random, didn't know how t start th blog post :/
was friendstering th whole night, kinda lazy now,
so I shall blog. (:

today was quite ohkay laa,
at least didn't stay at home th whole day and rot [:
supposed t go t school today ones,
but overslept then in th end never go, parents super angry :/
cos I slept at like 4+ yesterday, thens my phone alarm never wake me up.
thens never go school lohr, its maths again anw,
I know most of it le, and I'm gna study loads tmrw, cos I want t improve, heh.(:
and I'm going t collect homework from th teacher tmrw, so ohkay [:
elizabeth called and smsed me, ask me go westmall meet her,
with weiling, shaoxiang, and junjie, I think, if I remember their names correctly.
left house at about 1+, went t meet elizabeth & th rest at siyuan's house th condo there,
dno why she wna go there, but anw we didn't even meet siyuan, heh.
anw, reached there, gave elizabeth her shirt,
then she started comparing her skin color t mine, insisting that I'm super black,
when I'm not, and I wna get tanner actually :/
oh well, then we started playing tictactoe with our hands and leg,
was super funny cos of th color contrast and all, hahahaha [:
weiling say we very lame lohr, tsktsk, no sense of joy ones she, hahah.
she only ♥ hamtaro* lor, I gave that person a nickname, cos that person looks like that.(:
anw, slacked at th playground, then elizabeth took out a pink spray thing.
wrong move :/ I got tempted and sprayed it at weiling, hahah :D
th thing smells kinda weird laa, and that's when th whole commotion started. [:
then got spray fight, thenns th boys also join in, they use they're big can of
deoderant (?), super funny laa, luckily I th most never get sprayed one. :D
bwahahah, was kinda wuliao laas.
then th boys went off after awhile, go school play badminton I thinks.
slacked awhile more with elizabeth & weiling and playground,
talked, crapped, called peepo, talked more :/
heh, th calls we made were all very funny laa, convinced someone [: hurhur.
elizabeth woke nicholas up, then he ask us go jurong west pei him go cut hair
and put extentions, then we sian maa, so just go for awhile los.
bused there, met nicholas at bus-stop then walkwalk t th salon which was kinda
far away? 0o. oh well, then waited for him longlong before his turn,
pei-ed him in th salon and talked t him, while elizabeth & weiling wandered ard,
dno they go where, thenns after that they go playground sleep ._.
nicholas put blue extentions, nicenice uh. [:
he's super happy about it ohkay, keep on asking us, super funny cans.
thenns after that went up t his house cos he wna bathe maa,
when go up, his brother open door, stare like he see ghost like that 0o.
his brother super cute can, and nicholas kept bullying him,
th whole thing was super funny laa. laughed and crapped like siao.
(disturbing fact; his brother doesn't wear underwear, he admit siol, :/)
so after awhiles, watched some tv, then went home le.
something funny happened today, only me, elizabeth & nicholas knows,
well not exactly funny, but yeah, :D
hurhur, I'm bored agains, reply tags. [:

reply t tags,

t joan (:, hahah yes she did :D it grows super fast and long can, I hate my fringe :/
goondu club! hahahah, perhaps soon, I will, I hate hate hate my fringe :/
aww manzx, yoos don't miss me? ): well, I miss yoos.

t \ben|, hellos there [: ooh, some random person laa, heh. was bored.
hahaha thanks for tagging thenns.(: oh thanks, yoo hve fun in yoor cca toos.

t ♥(h3ryl♥, hellos, thanks, linked yoos already [:

t megAN:D, hellos junior, thanks [: will tag back, hurhur.
ooh thanks uh, but I know my blog sucks uh ): yoors rocks.

t Renee, hellos dodowhale.(:

t GUAIKIA, who wants their maids t go home ne, unless the suck laa :/
hahahah, maybe/maybe not? who knows. [: but she has t go back one day.

t weiling, pretty mei, I miss yoo toos! :D
yoo're loved loads toos ♥ heh, hamtaro!

t christine, hellos SEXAYE [:

t weqin, hahahah th quarrel is on again 0o. heh.
both of yoos rock my socks, can.? :D

t ALINA, hellos hawteh, hahaha of cos I did! [:
no lohrs, I suck at netball, loadsloads uh ):

t tifannie, hellos TIFANNIE :D
ooh, thanks uh, linked yoos too, longlong ago. [:

t carvedboii, yup have,
- its on my blog up there, and anw, thanks for adding.(:

t JOAN, hello GIRL :D
lady sounds very old ley, like some high-class idiot :/

t scribblleR, hahah my holidays are crapped up manzxz,
hope yoo're doing well in yours yeah :D
hahah, I won't be, yoo toos, same t yoos.

t khairunnisa, hellos [:
- LOL, yoo don't laa, both of yoos don't suck ohkay.
people, we want peace here yo.(:

t salwa, ohkay I will, as soon as I have th time and I'm not lazy too :/
when yoo read this, hope yoo're having fun in london :D.

t bEH{, oohooh.(: at least yoo're going abroad ley,
I'm stuck in singapore :/ rotting at home, bored t tears can, I rather live without com.

t etien, hellos junior, thanks for tagging,
- ohkay will link yoos. [:

t JOEMIN♥, heyhey backs.
ohkays, will link yoos, nps [:

t weiling, chiobu sexy hawteh mei :D I'm not chio/hawt, heh.
will relink yoos, nps, love yoos.(:

t wendy lim, hello wendy, ohmygawd, I missed yoo alot! (:
hahahah its alright, now onwards yoos shall tag more thenns. :D

t ANDIIE, hey, oh ohkay alrights,
will do when I'm free [: I owe alot of people uh, heh.

t ji x.x ji, sorry destroyed your name, cos can't put th bracket, ;x
anw, will tag & link yoos.(:

t hweepeng, hellos dear hweepeng :D
- ee, don't spell my name wrongly please, jian looks and sounds wrong :/
hahah its ohkay laa.(:

t JUNYI, thanks mei.(: love yoos uh. ILY & IMY! ♥
ohs, its alrights laa, its not a bother, don't worry. [:

t elizabeth.{3, hahahah no lohrs, is yoo pigpig. [:
heh, love yoos darhlinq ♥

finally replied all,
and I still supposed t do alot of quizzes and all,
I'm kinda lazy uh, I shall do tmrw, promise, I hope.
tmrw shall be quiz day? 0o. hahahah :D
ohkay, I shall end my post here, its like only 12.23am :/
I can't sleep anm, gah, I'm nocturnal :D
and super bored can, wonder how I'm gna sleep tonight.
gotta go charge ipod, relinks & links, and reply friendster comments,
I'm gna study tmrw.(:

th last goodnight, ♥

2008-06-01T20:42:00.002+08:00

hello JUNE! :D
I shall post, cos I haven't been posting like since idk when,
but whatever laa, I also not enough sleep these few days,
zomg, got panda eyes ley 0o.

wednesday, 2805 :D,
I can't remember anything that happened today laa,
stupid stm, I kinda hate my brain can. ):
I try remember laa hohr, but most likely I'll probably can't remember anything -.-
ohoh,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNTY.(:
although you're already in like uh, phillipines,
happy birthday uh. :D old peepo.

went t school as usual uh, bused there.
maths lesson again, I forgot t do homework, heh x:
but thanks christine for printing out th homework for me.(:
super loves uh, and I WANT TH CLASS TEES CAN.
it's not coming laa, suppose t get one lohrzx.
I'm not happy laa. ):
th only thing that makes me happy is netball training. :D
which always rocks laaa.(;
learnt umpiring today cos it was like kinda raining maa,
although didn't do much of like uhm, real training, still super nice laa :D
ILOVENETBALL ;D

see, there's nothing more I can remember about today le, this sucks alot can.
but I know was kinda moodless that day ._.
actually, thinking of it, I'm moodless, like uhm everyday.(:
cos its either I dread going t school for maths, or I'm just plain bored t tears.
let's just move on t th next day, this is going nowhere X:

I know I don't mean a thing t you, ♥

thursday, 2905 :D,
don't expect me t remember anything that happened today,
rawrs.(: I used t use this word alot, LOL, so random.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY T; MOMMY, ANDREAmai & MANY OTHERS, whom I forgot ;x
sorrysorry, I can't remember, I have stm. ):
but happy birthday peepo, you're all old.(:

went t school about 12 noon, waited for teacher t come.
everyday's maths, it's driving me crazy, please save me. ):
algebra is CRAZY -.- maths sucks, big time.
was high-ing with christine in class, super funny can :D
then after that dno what we do laa, just like super high lohrzx.
hahahahah.(: ♥
after that went t meet eli & weiling at lot1 there :D
went t B1, slacked around beside th ronald macdonald bench laa,
after awhile ashley came with her friend, forgot his name X:
we slacked alot uh, talktalk about getting jobs and all those,
elizabeth is like super despo can ._. wahahahs.
then after thats, when we sitting on th floor, then suddenly out of nowhere,
th machine behind us started talking say,
`can yoo all don't sit on th floor,' woah, damn scary lohrs.
tio shocked abit, then after that laugh like siaosiao, lols.
nothing much le, go westmall awhiles, went t siyuan's house.
and he's super mean, I don't wna talk about him laa, mean, ):
lawls, then bused home, then went t westmall again at night,
t celebrate mother's birthday, went t eat at bali thai. :D
th food there quite nice, ate then went home le,
slacked, cannot remember anm le. ):

I wish I could rewind time t th time when we never met, ♥

friday, 3005 :D,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATIQAH & MANY OTHERS! :D
you're an old lady.(:
and th rest are all old peepo :D hahah. I'm super boliao cans.

I don't think I can remember anything that happened today,
just that got maths, and highed alot.
doodled alot on foolscape, super kewt ohkay.(:
christine's doodles are super funny and nice cans, super jealous.
trying t like make one like hers, lawls.(:
got short post there, about me not sleeping :D

do you know how it feels like,♥

ohkay, I shan't post and rant about saturday & sunday.
cos I'm too lazy t, perhaps next time, but I don't think I will laa, hahaha.(:
anw, didn't sleep much these few days,
everyday talk on phone, lawls. :D
thanks nicholas for pei-ing me yesterday on th phone uh,
until 7.30am this morning, :D
hahah, I woke up at 10.30am laa -.- I just can't sleep lohrzx.
got panda eyes liao 0o.
then th pig wake up at 4pm, LOL.(:
hahahha, nothing much t say le, tags will be replied another day.(:
on th phone with nicholas 7 elizabeth now,
now's uhm 12.28am, hahah,
going t watch naruto with nicholas later I thinks.(:
ohmyfuck, elizabeth fell asleep -.- noobcake laa she.
._. oh well, she everytime also like that one, noooob.
she needs her beauty sleep, hehs.(:
I lazy type liao,
cos I'm also smsing -.-

perhaps, ♥

2008-05-31T05:36:00.002+08:00

I'm damn lazy t update can D:
promise promise t update asap, which is most probably today later/tomorrow.(:
it's 5.47am now, I can't sleep uh.
I think I'm suffering from insomia (?) can, always cannot sleep dehrs,
although I think I sleep very little.
yesterday I slept at 4+ then wake up at like 8 lohrs, hahah. :D

was talking t nicholas on th phone,
he's supersuper funny & cute cans, forever making me laugh ones.
suppose t talk with me till morning dehr, but his house phone bo batt,
then in th end auto kupp. ):
actually we were talking t elizabeth also, conference,
then me and nicholas disiao her like siao, until she keep quiet then after that,
she fell alseep again I think -.- she always sleep on th phone one lohrzx.
nicholas is like super th despo cans, make me go crazy siol,
although he's super funny :D hope your arm gets better soon ohkay.(:
heh, thanks for pei-ing me so long, from like 1am onwards :D
you're super loved by meeee ♥
ohoh before this, was talking t siyuan on th phone, he tired then go sleep le,
he's also super funny laa, horny peepo laa, tsktsk ;D

lazy post le,
loves.

2008-05-30T02:07:00.004+08:00

it's like 2.16am now 0o.
and I can't sleep :D

I'm thinking too much.
I can't seem t cheer up.

on th phone with gerald & clinton now,
elizabeth slept like super earlier ago, cos she fell asleep on th phone -.-
gerald, clinton & me were playing audition and I'm super noobcake can.(:
talking t samlun on msn,
somehow, she always seems high can ._. weird, hahaha, she's super funny.
ahh I'm just adding a short post here :D
moodless t post. {;
gawd dammit, tmrw have school in th morning, and I'm not sleeping.(:
this is rather meaningless,
LOL.(:

and you made me realise everything was a lie, ♥

[edit]
still not sleeping yet ohkay, amazingly.
3.21am le, I'm like super wide awake can,
clinton kupped phone like supersuper long ago, cos he wanted t go play random games,
so talked t gerald for like th rest of th time,
doodled on msn (make him jealous :D), he's eating ice cream, at this time, super cute laa.
just kupped phone with gerald, he say want go sleep le.(:
stupid laa he, say I must sleep also,
mean right. D:
maybe I'll sleep, maybe I won't :D heh.
listening t random songs now, hope it'll help me sleep.
3.30am just striked. wow.

I shall reply tags & update tomorrow/whenever,
my mind's kinda blank now. ):
[/edit]

sometimes there's too much for time t heal, ♥

2008-05-27T20:39:00.004+08:00

hello peepo :D (kimberly, this is meant t annoy you, hah.)
I haven't been updating, have I? D:
getting lazier & I suffer from serious case of STM, so don't expect th posts long.
although I try t post long laa, cos I'm always super bored.
lets see how much I can actually remember ._.

tuesday, 2605 :D,
HOLIDAYS, *screams*
*stops screaming and thinks for awhile*
oh dang, school everyday still, more homework than usual.
conclusion, having holidays are like having no holidays, hahah, what a perfect holiday -.-
ohmygawd, its like so crap can.
I have t go back school everyday, like normal school day, zomg can.
oh what th hell, like I have anything better t do at home.
but, I wna go out D: ugh, I keep contradicting myself can, I'm stupid.

uh, lets see what happened on monday.
monday usually sucks, but this monday was kinda ohkay? 0o.
went t school, slacked around, was kinda early as mother fetched me.
teacher came late, which was good laa, but some people even come later ._.
anw, it was maths. maths. maths.
ohmygawd laa, I have maths everyday for this whole week ohkay.
murder me can, maths is like, confusing for th mind. 0o.
then after finished, waited for alina outside her class,
cos she needed t `escape', super funny laa, like some criminal siol.
went t th foyer, actually supposed t meet th other netballers then go for lunch,
but no one was there 0o.
where did they all go? stupid library, then when we go find them,
they ask us go macdonalds help them buy food siol, so mean can.
being natually nice people (so ego, tsktsk.), we bused t tanglin mall.
reach liao, then th traffic light veh long bo turn green so I just walk across th road laa.
then alina at th back shouting at me, damn funny can.(:
I left her like stranded there, then she see me opposite liao, run across.
she kept whining, `see laa joooooan! now I feel guilty can! D:'
and she just kept whining about how guilty she was, HAHAHAHAH.
anws, bought mc nuggets and fries for everyone, then headed back.
alina was like barbarically chomping down an apple pie :D heh.
bused back, ate th macs at canteen.
with my science teacher staring at me 0o. freaky.
ohkay, lets not talk about all these crap anm :D

NETBALL TRAINING.(:
was super fun and rocked alot ohkay, everyone does actually :D
went for warm up again, 2+km, had stitch laa, sibei painful siol,
but heck care, then kept on talking with sexy christine,
although everyone was kinda dead laa,
timing was kinda bad, but wasnt as bad as th last time round,
netball C'div o8 jiayous jiayous, all th way, fight :D
then coach came today, finally.
she wasn't well th last week, so yeah.
then learned a number of new passes and trained like damn hard ohkay.
was like pushing myself t do harder laa.
although I know I suck, alot.
I have t train super hard, cos I suck more than everyone else can ):
ohohoh, I finaaaaalllyyyyy can throw ball over th court uh :D
super happy can, thanks for all those that helped me :D
&, stalking coco on th netball court is fun, LOL,
cos I just love t catch her throws can, super nice ._.
oh well, I just talk loads of crap laa, heh.
went home and slacked uh.(:

its so hard watching you walk away, ♥

today :D,
fucking bitch, I hate you fucking alot ohkay.
stop interferring in my life -'-
FUCKER, you think you know me so well, can stop it anot, veh irritating ohkay.
didn't wna wake up in th morning can, dno why super sleepy.
I'm always super sleepy anw -.-
went t school, got th cyber awareness thing.
kinda ohkay laa, th teacher talk until super interesting lo, LOL.
was kinda crapping anw.(: hahahah.
went for break after that, thanks weqin boyfriend for buying me chocolates laa :D
hersheys cookies & cream plus, m&m :D she's super nice ohkay.
loooooooveeeee heerrrr alotalot, :D
then after that had maths, again, zomg can.
only for some of us though, I don't even know whether I have t stay back anot laa.
fina said I must stay back, but I don't think so, but nehmind laa.
improving maths is good ;D so its like staying back for extra class anw.

stayed back until quite late, then elizabeth call, ask me meet her at lot1.
since on th way home, then go meet her lohr.(:
she has t tell me `stories' anw :D
met weiling toooooo ♥ missed her super much can.
she looks as chio as usual, with elizabeth, all so chio, heh.
they super funny laa, after tell me stories all those, say want go change.
then after change here, change there, change like three times each somemore,
in th end, both change back t uniform -.- lmao laa.
then weiling need go make ezlink card, pei her :D
thanks for sending me super loads of nice pics babe ;D loooove you.
then slacked awhile at macs, they drinking bubble tea & eating waffle maa.
then I let th weiling and elizabeth here something super funny laa,
they laugh until like siao wohrs ;x
mrt-ed t westmall, wanted t prankcall someone, but never answer ._.
nehmind, then walked ard westmall, nothing better t do can.
so weiling went t do th little kid thing, th gluey thing 0o. art thing laa,
dno what th hell is that, x;
she super cute laa, do here do there do dno how many times then got a pretty heart.(:
went t toilet, elizabeth help me cut fringe :D
cos it was SUPER long again, she wonders why my hair grow so fast 0o.
then three of us (me, eli, weiling) were like laughing in th toilet.
we were being horny 0o. you wouldnt wna know.(:
then after that they wanted t eat nice icecream,
then go t preferé, or smth like that, elizabeth was damn obsessed with th mini chairs.
0o. I think th guy there likes chiobux weiling,
cos he was super nice t her ohkay :d HAHAHAHA, super funny laa.
then we saw someone. *suspense*
we saw.. that day th girl on th bus that one lohr, gen wo men you chou de ren ;x
LOL. then she look at me I look at her, wondering. `why so familiar?'
then after awhile remember le, hahahah.(:
nothing much, then we go walkwalk, found ashley outside koufu there :D
then th girl we saw just now at ice cream shop call people down -.-
she say see us buaysong or smth laa, say I diao her or smth, but anw,
nothing much after that laa, settle.(:
in th end, make friends siol, :D LOL, she's quite nice actually laa, heh.
smsed abit, bought dinner, then went home.

super moodless now laa D:
dno why, must be moodswings. heh.

reply t tags :D

t salwa :D, hahah, I was awake till 4am :D
heh, was chatting on msn with m&m, LOL.(:

t Andreas, ooh thanks :D

t JUNYI, meimei.(: ooh, ohkay, relinked le babe.
no problems, ILY ♥

t eden ; ♥!, ohkay I will, when I'm bored and all th other crap :D
perhaps later baa, but I will do cos I'm so nice :D
ohoh, MINDHUNTERS! ;D super nice right. heh.

t GUAIKIA, you paikia lohr. ohkay, maybe not.
heh, thanks for tagging uh.(:
- ya lohr, since ONE ley, super sad can ):
hahahs but one day she has t go uh, so must prepare 0o. LOL.

t joan ;D, ohoh, th oh-so smart joan has taught joan a new word.
SMEXY.(: it sounds rather sexy, somehow, heh.
hahahah, that time was like super funny ohkay,
I went around telling people that I chopped off my hair, reaction all same :D
can't wait t see you too smexy :D missed you like woah. :D

t FAITH., aiis zhuzhu, don't le wohr ):
I don't hate him, nor angry with him, so you shouldn't too ohkay. :D
anw, he loves someone else now, all I can do is pretend and move along.(:

t weqin, heh. both of you rock ohkay :D
hahahas, ILY boyfriend.(:

t GUAIKIA, woah, you're like SUPER guai can.(:

t \ben|, hahaha, happy holidays t you too.(:
but my holidays are like normal school days, packed, oh well.
its like still th same old thing, hahahah :D

t hweepeng, LOL.(: heh you so cute siol. hahahaha.
smiles t you too :D

t JUNYI, ahhh thanks, ily mei ;D

t ALINA, hello my dear HAWTEH friend.(:
heh, netball is shexaye and oh-so hawt please. (literally, its hot ;x)

t GUAIKIA, woahwoahwoah.
chao guaikia laa, wo pei fu ni :D

t Renee, DODOwhale.(: that's what xtine calls you eh? :D
ohhhh, nps, happy being thridteen babe.
hahahhas, sorry for being late agains ;x heh. :D

replied.(:
and I'm still super bored.
sian of typing le, probably if I'm really on th verge of tears (thanks for boredom),
I shall post/do quizzes/dedicate posts.
I still owe alot laa can ;x

kor,
please cheer up. please, I beg you.
it really pains me t see you like this,
although I know I mean no significance t you.
I just want you t know that many others love you,
please stay strong and don't give up ohkay.
it's not th end of th world yet, please don't make it seem like it is.
I don't know how t comfort you, I'm so useless.
but really, although you may not believe me,
watching you like this makes me cry ohkay.
there are some things that you shouldn't know,
and all I want you t do now is smile.
cheerup, don't feel hurt anm, cos I will too,
with all those else that love you.

and it cut me like a knife, when you walked out of my life, ♥

2008-05-25T00:16:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MONIQUE :D
stay hawt & sexy, netball rocks our socks.(:

ALYSSA!
HAVE A SAFE TRIP T PARIS BABY.(:
bon voyage, take loads of pics for me ohkay, I'll take pics for you too.(:
I'll miss you! ♥ heh.

hahahs, I havent been posting for a few days, have I?
didn't go online much these few days, no mood.
just watched finished `mindhunters', that show gives eden heart attack.(:
she was like sms-ing me while watching, hahah.
now sitting in brother's room watching tv, don't feel like watching outside.
got some stupid chinese show on? 0o, heh.
I shall like post about random stuff, cos they're really nothing much t post about.
actually, I just can't remember now uh, cos its like 12.30am :D
oh and btw, my handphone I think have some slight problem, sometimes cannot receive sms.
so please pardon me if I don't reply your sms uh. ):

friday, 23 May.
morning came t school like kinda sleepy ley, dno why.
had mass run, was like no mood run, suppose t run with alyssa, but half way lost her 0o.
anw, was like quite ohkay laa, cos after that need t go for house camp.
heh :D was kinda retarded as fry was like nowhere t be found, oh well.
after awhile, most people gathered le, most perspiring like siao cos just finished mass run,
then nothing much le, sat with sexy christine, :D
then when most people came, everyone headed t th MPH, which I never knew exsisted.
its like a miniture (?) version of th hall laa, quite cute, LOL.(:
everyone managed t squeeze in which was like quite surprising lo.
cos got alot of people.(:
then talked abit t th seniors then had t write names on th masking tape, and all other crap.
DM came, briefed us about leadership things (ohmygawd can, boring.) and yeah.
wasn't really paying attention laa, but it was ohkay.
cos th DM speak very funny one.(:
then got some people super spastic can? put th official picture as neoprint, tio scolded, HAH.
anw, after that went down t canteen for like, tea break?
everyone had t cheer first laa, WE ALL KNOW FRY ROCKS TH MOST.(:
heh, they gave us uhm, curry puff, ondeh ondeh (?), and a packet of milo.
after most people eat liao, most of us went t start playing games le uh.

first was at th field, then everyone was like kinda quiet.
after awhile, I was like screaming and shouting, then everyone hyper :D
whee, th games was quite fun laa, under th super hawt sun.
th seniors were funny too uh, cracked many stupid jokes.(:
th game about th spider web one was fun, cos has t carry people and all.
then th game where I had t be blindfolded, one of th other house seniors tickled me.
LOL CAN. cos I was like, `wth wth', and laughing like crazy :D
then was like lunch time after that I think, wasn't hungry.
they say must eat, cos they don't want unconscious bodies lying on th floor, LMAO.
ate abit, was like super thirsty ._. never bring wallet down laa.
thanks everyone who let me drink :D
I love th super cold water cooler can, th one that no one goes t, dno why.
they don't even know there's one there I think, heh.
anw, then after that went back from more briefing, more games, :D
supersuper fun can.(: I'm plain lazy t elaborate.
although our house didn't win top, I think we still did super well.(:
other houses did well too, and th teachers were like begging us not t scream anm.
scream and shout :D is super funnnnn.
enjoyed myself loads ohkay, hope get selected t go for house comm.(:
good luck t everyone toos yeah :D

then went home, washed up, was super dirty ohkay.
waited for brother, then had t go airport send my maid off ): was super sad laa.
promised myself I won't cry, and I didn't laa, although was very sad.
cos she's not coming back anm. ):
she take care of me since I was one year old, until now.
super thankful t her, I'll miss her loadsloads. ):
had dinner at airport at swensens, ate black pepper pasta.(: yumyum, :D
ate late dinner, so finished at about 10pm uh.
th flight was supposed t be at 12.20am, but delayed one hour t 1.20am.
so slacked around, drinkdrink, smsed siyuan.(: he's super loooved.
until about 11.30pm, then she had t go le )':
it's really very sad laa, hope she'll come back D:
after she left, went back home at about 12.30pm then slept about 1+.
was like super tired can, cos of th camp & all laa.
slept alone, felt lonely in th room, but I guess I'd get used t it, after awhile.
supposed t call elizabeth & siyuan, but fell asleep, sorry ):

sometimes goodbye's th only way, ♥

today,
nothing much ley, saturdays for me are always boring.
I want netball training on saturday laa. ): hope self-training starts soon.
woke up late today, nothing better t do anw.
watched tv th whole morning, watched `th avatar' & `spongebob' :D
ohoh, watched `tom & jerry' toos, then had t send brother t school for competition.
after drop him off, went with mother t ntuc, nothing better t do laa.
wanted t buy new tumbler, but cannot find ley ._.
netballers! where you all buy your tumblers laaa D:
anw, drank soyabean with pearl, its just super nice ohkay. looove it.(:
bought toberlone (?) chocolate, fave uh.(:
went home, played gameboy, dno how long never play liao ohkay.
was like randomly doing stuff then found th dusty gameboy, HAHAHAS.
played uhm, random games, spongebob & sonic :D
hahah, then went t grandma house,
all my relatives were back from everywhere laaa,
france, paris, usa, austrailia. all come back liao, yay, can play with cousins :D
little cousins managed t go t see th effiel (?) tower ohkay, not fair.
but it's ohkay laa, they bought me & my brother a keychain.(:
super thoughtful, thanks uh. :D
then played with them, they tortured me ohkay. ):
celebrated mother's birthday early, had a chocolate lana cake, which wasn't really nice.
heh, although everyone else liked it.
anw, hypered more with cousins and then watched `mindhunters'.
watched awhile, came home, watched more.(:
and then smsed monique t wish her happy birthday. :D
she says she's always hawt, lol.
eden says watching th show gives her heart attack, then she cannot sleep siol.
but anw, I think she sleep le, bo reply my sms 0o.
heh :D and now I'm blogging.
with a stupid chinese oldie show playing, wonder why I'm watching it.
maybe I go back my room soon, sleep. hahah.(:
nothing much t say le, will blog more if I have mood tmrw.(:
and may add on if I rmb more stuff tmrw :D

reply tags, reply tags.(:
t eden ; ♥!, noobcake, I'm lazy t post laa :D heh.
oh whatever laa, I know you dont love me, lmao.

t hweepeng, AHH I'm so scared X: hahah, I'm boliao.
you smiles too alrights, looove.

t GUAIKIA, woah you relaly guaikia ley.(:
don't pout laa, tagging is good for health ohkay :D

t salwa :D, hahah, ohkay thanks uh.(:
- it's already damn boring laa, was never interesting in th first place uh.

t \ben|, hellos.(: hah, raffles stress ah?
holidays are here already, enjoy yourself then. :D

t CHRISTINEE,, oh thanks laaa.(:
of cos, impact is looved ohkay ♥ but some people in class finished my whole box.):
HAH, oh yaa, just realised it, lmao {: danity kane rocks uh.

t ♥BEh{, I read yours too.(:

t joan (:, smexy? what's that word babe 0o. hahah.(:
I longlonglong t see you too, meet ups? :D heh. maybe? ;x

t eden ; ♥!, chickenass, good for you lohr.(:
I go see & tag :D heh. harharhars ._.

t weqin, ILY BOYFRIEND ♥ hahahah seems like you're happier now.(:
perhaps I will, but thanks anw babe.

t khairunnisa, heh she was always nice. mushy? I don't know man.
hahahas, perhaps it is? :D

t CHRISTINEE,, boo I see you.(:
if your blog dead, then mine is like extinct liao lo, hahah. :D

t GUAIKIA, you really super guai sia.
don't sound so gloomy everytime you tag ley, so anti-climax lohr.

t ♥BEh{, uh not true lohr, your blog is super alive.(:
more alive then mine, and I love your skins super much can.

t hweepeng, hellohello babe :D
nahh, you were better than me, by alotalot.(: hahaha, smiles.

t megAN:D, hellos, I haven't? ohmygawd, so sorry!
will relink you asap yeah, :D

t Z-H-I-Y-U-N, hello junior :D heh, thanks alot.(:
yeah, relinked quite a number of times, thinking of relinking again, thanks again :D

t # Fangrong, JIEJIE! ;D oh thanks! will link you ♥

t GUAIKIA, aiyoh, its ohkay laa.(: I was joking uh.
smile guaikia (paikia). :D rofl.

t joan ;D, SEXY.(: heh, ohkayohkay. jio me outs.(:
imy super loads uhs.

t FAITH., ZHUZHU ♥

t RIBENA:D, hello biantai.(: I lazy type chinese uh.
- hahahas, I can read :D falalaaaaa ~

t christine, I got play siol, you play? PLAY WITH ME LEY.
although I'm noobcake.(:
- yo babe :D

t khairunnisa, hello. thanks :D she is?
HAH, yes I did.(: it was fun ohkay, you could have thrown at me too uh. haha.

{bEH♥, hahahhas that christine not our class christine laa.(:
but yes, perhaps she has lived under a rock. :D or stone, or pebble.
anw, ohkay, will go see.(:
- hitler? oh wow, that's kinda mean. hahah.
oh yeah, ): butbut, sometimes, he's OHKAY laa ;x right? 0o.

replied.(:
and I'm super bored again.
not much people online now, talking t m&m :D
she ask me join, HATEFISH & HATEKOFFEE club. heh.
ohkay, I go relink and stuff. bored.
its 2.26am ._. bored t death.

your love is th sweetest sin, ♥

2008-05-22T20:49:00.002+08:00

you don't know how fucked up I feel right now.
t hell with everything.

what's with th weather these week man.
so effing hawt can, its like sit there do nothing also perspire.):
can you imagine playing netball in that sexy sun?
*imagines like for one minute* woah.(:

before I go on typing about other random crap,
lets talk about an unimportant fact that actually happened in th world.
you can choose not t read it, unless if you're like bored or smth.(:
david cook won american idol, can you believe it.
personally, I wanted david archuleta (?) t win laa, cos he's super kewt & young :D
and that cook had t win.): by 12 million votes somemore.
so sad for archuleta can, but nevermind laa, both gna be as popular, I think.(:
although I still find that american idol is a total crapped up waste moneh show.
its still ohkay t comment about it right.(:
but anw, why did cook win D: why am I even whining about this uh.
heh. whoever win/lose also won't change my life, will it.(:
BUT JUST T RESTATE, I WAS HOPING ARCHULETA T WIN :D

school was like, as usual, just that alot of shouting and all uh.
whole morning stayed in class and did PE poster, which ohmygawd, I haven't uploaded yet.
upload tmrwtmrw, I'm damn lazy t on tablet now X:
anw then was like crapping and camera-ing alot of people.(:
took pictures with supersuper nice geog teacher.(: maybe will upload.
I know I say I'll upload pics but all not on com laaa D: stupid me.
anw, then cam-ed victoria & xtine being all funny and stuff.
they watch too much things on th internet. heh.
oh and fish gave us eleven gotchas, which is super surprising.
I don't hate him laa, just dislike him. (heh, he's not that bad, it he? X:)
mother tongue no teacher come in D: wanted t watch th show finish laa.
although alot of people say its boring and stuff, its nice ohkay.(:
did th dare/double dare cards for class outing, whee.
it was rather spastic as alot of things were crap. :D
made a bigbig mess :X thanks fina for helping clean up.
some person say sick then run away playplay ._.
anw, went t miniforum t get report book, don't remind me.
I don't even wna talk about it, I know I suck. thankyouverymuch.
I'm gna mug effing hard. somehow X:

netball training.(:
coach never come again today, sad laa, self training again.
supposed t train with seniors, then in th end we didnt, except for warm up.
then did passes and all, under th super hawt sun ):
but I love th sun. :D
anw, played half-court game, I played for three quaters. heh.
I love center ohkay ♥ cos can run everywhere, hahahahas.(:
CHRISTINE IS SEXY BAYBEH, then alyssa starts freaking out.(:
that was random, so anwanw, th most fun part was crocodile :D
coco has become strong, whoo.
I can throw over already.(: YAY.
hah, I'm so crap.

I'm sick again, whattheffinghell can.
I'm always getting sick, ALWAYS, ohmygawd laa.
but I don't really care anw.(:
my eyes are bloody red & itchy now 0.o
I blame th stupid hot weather for this ):

tmrw's house comm camp :D
I hope its gna be super funfunfun!
sorry t people who jio me out and I can't go, ): so sorry.
will go out with you guys in th holidays ohkay, :D looves.

I don't know what else t say.
I'm rather lazy, actually.

I need t get my revenge on,
SITINURATIQAH.(: heh.
she knows why.

tags shall be replied on another day, tmrw/tmrwtmrw.
sorry ah, I'm super moodless now.

because tonight will be th night I will fall for you, ♥

2008-05-21T09:07:00.004+08:00

super bored in school now ._.
was actually doing filing, and end up, alot of things missing,
so must go home and find uhs D:

actually, I've got nothing t blog about.
I'm just super bored, :D
th english reps are ranting their ass off now, kinda poor thing,
and I'm listening t damaged, by danity kane.(:
I'm lazy t listen t them, although I know they're like working veh hard.
ugh, three more days before th holidays come.(:
but still have netball training, and supplementary and all other crap.
like normal school day, and yes, tons of homework -.-
seriously, school and everything else is boring me out,
and getting on my nerves too.

I'm eating loads of impact now, blackcurrent flavour.(:
and th box is like a super sexy color can, PURPLE :D
which reminds me, this morning, FRY (th sexiest house, heh.) won mascot dance.
all th houses mascot was damn cute can.
then th dances all quite nice also.(:

This post is so random, stupid.
I feel like ranting on more, just rant and bitch about stuff.
I decided not t, cos later people will think its them,
and then other people will say I'm th bitch,
and then everyone's unhappy.
so I shall make this blog like th most boring one ever :D
no one even reads anw -.-
but seriously laa,
its like I said already, my blog, my say.
don't like what you're seeing then don't read, no one force you uh.
what's a blog for, when you can't write what you want.
nobody said I was perfect, but you ain't either.
perhaps I have more flaws then you, but it doesn't mean that..
I don't know how t say it, but nevermind.
you won't understand anw, its already like all crapped up in your head.
all I can say is, sorry if I offended you/annoyed you in any way.
it wasn't intentional, but I fucking hate myself, really, if it makes you happier somehow.
I'm sorry, for whatever I did.
and I'm willing t change, cos you mean alot t me.
but I don't know where t start or how, life sucks.

even if it breaks my heart, ♥

2008-05-20T21:17:00.007+08:00

ohkay, posting posting.(:
I'm like always bored, and I'm super lazy t do my files laa.
I have like 918237189273 things t file in, and my file is awesomely empty.(:
not that I'm proud of it or anything, just trying t comfort myself ._.

anw, school was ohkay I guess, nothing much.
someone didnt come t school today,
did like tons of science corrections, write until hand pain lo.
watched th penguin video, was like a lullaby for everyone t sleep can,
but ohkay laa, reasonably cute, I mean th penguins.(:
oh and th principal gave a super boring talk this morning, and what's her main aim.
cos she just started blabbering, and oh! we found out her motive,
MONEY, so irritating laa, like we're all rich ass kids who burn money.
I couldnt be bothered with that, was like dozing off.
went through geog paper as well, its like ohkay, not that boring. heh.
cme teacher bo come up, played SM.
talking about SM, I love th 450bpm & 600 bpm song ohkayohkay.(:
makes me so high laa, cos its so damn effing sexy, th keys all so fast.
random facts of SM, if you decide that you wna go play it. hahah.
chatted on msn with faith too.(:
she got dno what e-learning crap laa, then online lo. heh. I'm online like, always.
I miss zhuzhu laa D:

after school, netball.(:
coach never come, sick lo ): get well soon coach, netball misses you.
hah, so random, so anw, had t do warm up, 2km, and I'm damn effing lazy t do laa.
most of us got stitch cos we ate lunch, whoops.
reminder, never eat lunch before netball, just starve.
& if you werent hiding under a hole today, you would know how bloody hot th sun was today.
supersuper hot, like burning lo.
but nehmind, sun is good as it tans you :D (I wna get tan.)
ashley & elizabeth say if I get so tan, they're gna run away from me, tsktsk.
anw, random notes ._.
back t training, it was quite ohkay laa, fun, self-training.(:
finished quite early though, cos we did like everything already.
then debrief then walkwalk t mrt station buy soyabean with pearl, which is damn nice.
I don't understand why alyssa doesn't like it laa, stupid.
:D bused home with her, chatted on th bus with her.
she's super crap ohkay, you must see her phone contacts, LMAO :D
I shall keep you innocent little darlings in suspense.(:

I'm like super moodless now ohkay.
mood got ruined totally somehow, and whatever.
BOYFRIEND, cheerup ohkay. ♥
she's kinda upset now ): so must cheerups, looove.
wait, I wna say something, now that I remember :D
my rants and crap are just something I do when I'm pissed off ohkay.
and its STRICTLY about people I really dislike,
thinking logically, if I dislike you, I won't say I like you and talk t you everyday, won't I?
so PLEASE, don't assume ANYTHING.):
you'll end up thinking about th wrong thing and th whole world goes haywire.
got it? thankyouverymuch.

reply t tags.(:
t Rachel, oops, spelling error.): I'm too lazy t go change it, heh.
hahahahs, why! its plain & ugly D: you're like super pro at photoshop laa, I'm jealous.):

t GUAIKIA, really meh? alot of people blog laa, heh.
you guaikia meh? your name so easy t guess siol.(:

t ♥BEh{, yeah you do.(:

t megAN:D, hellos there. yeah, long time no see lo, heh.
ohkay, will relink.(:

t ♥BEh{, hello, hahahas, you laa, pon school D:
if you never pon school, not bored.(:

t eden ; ♥!, heh spastic faces :D look at them and laugh. lmao.
ya laa, fun t go out with you ohkay.(: heh, noobcake.
- finally lohr, after idk how long ley, stupid chickenass.
- eden is noobcake :D
- eden is chickenass :D

t weqin, heh ohkayohkay.(:
you rock my socks, and I love you. cheerups m'dear ♥

t GUAIKIA, heh, paikia is back {;
yadayada, sounds so ahma ley ;x

t CHRISTINEE,, ohmygawd yes! finally someone agrees with me.(:
of course, production also waste money, I can't believe people worship that show. gawd.
what has th world becomed? what has th world becomed? ;x
heh, you know.(: rantrantrant.

Th heart never lies, Mcfly
this song is like super nice laa, although kinda old,
felt like putting up th lyrics cos I'm super bored ._.

Some people laugh, some people cry
Some people live, some people die
Some people run, right into the fire
Some people hide their every desire
But we are the lovers

If you don't believe me
Then just look into my eyes
'cause the heart never lies

Some people fight, some people fall
Others pretend they don't care at all
If you wanna fight I'll stand right beside you
The day that you fall I'll be right behind you
To pick up the pieces

If you don't believe me
Just look into my eyes
'cause the heart never lies

Woah

Woah

Another year over, and we're still together
It's not always easy, but I'm here forever
We are the lovers

I know you believe me
When you look into my eyes
'cause the heart never lies
Hey

And we are the lovers
I know you believe me
When you look into my eyes
'cause the heart never lies

Oh-oh-woah
Woah

Another year over, and we're still together
It's not always easy, but I'm here forever

Yeah we are the lovers, I know you believe me
When you look into my eyes
'cause the heart never lies

'cause the heart never lies

Because the heart never lies

random things {.
I can't change th stupid font back, ahhh, what th hell.
irritates me, I need AM classes.(:

I just received this 0.o
hey pls switch off ur hp tonight as according to metro tv, there will b a BIG RADIATION WAVE circulating through the handphone towers at 11pm tonight which is very DANGEROUS to humans.
Pls inform your friends NOT to keep their phones with them. Thanks.

I don't know what are hoax/not anm laa ): stupid.
christine just proved t me, its a hoax, so sorry for spreading th wrong word X:
http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2008/5/19/nation/21294753&sec=nation
go here, if you don't believe :D

tell me how I'm suppose t breathe with no air, ♥

2008-05-19T11:57:00.009+08:00

HAPPYVESAKDAY, :D

my 300th post, heh :D
I'm like bored t deathdeathdeath.
enjoy yourself, ruizong & th rest, have fun.(:

ohoh, still need t do loads of homework, and a compo.
gawd laa, after exams still need t do homework, I don't wna do laa ):
do later. procrasination D:
seriously laa, what's wrong with life.
I don't even know why I'm posting now, when I have nothing t post about.
life irritates me ): alot,

somehow, I knew.
its glad that now, I really know th truth.
instead of guessing what it was all about, I guess it was th perfect timing, wasnt it?
was I stupid enough t believe your lies?
why am I feeling this way?
sometimes, I really wished I could turn back time,
turn back t th time where you & I never meant,
turn back t th time where everything was simply happiness.

cause inside I realise I'm th one confused,♥

[edit]
went out with eden chickenass today :D
I shall update more tmrw.(: and perhaps post up pictures if I feel nice.
I love eden, cos she pei-ed me whole day today,
when I was bored t tears :D
& she gave me this super cute lilo & stitch bottle, super loved.
camwhored with her, doing all sorts of spastic faces ;D (just imagine, LMAO.)
eden, its th thought that counts. laughs.(:
heh, noobcake eden.(:
[/edit]

scream out loud like never before, let it all out, ♥

2008-05-18T22:11:00.005+08:00

attention all people.(:
please put a rainbow infront of your msn name in commeration of th earthquake in china.
please & thankyou people :D
in case some blurblocks don't know, rainbow is (R), ohkay.(:
ITS A SCAM ):

eating mcflurry now, be very jealous {;
mcdelivery is super nice can, ice cream also deliver :D
got th sudden urge t have a mcflurry so call, and its 24/7 somemore, sexy.

geeeeeoneeee;
those going for council and house com, good luck yo.(:
and seriously alyssa, JOAN WILL NEVER BE COUNSELLOR :D
hahahah, keep dreaming laa.(:
I know you're just pissed cos I'm laughing at you being selected, heh.
but anw, :D smiles.

today sucks can D:
so boring, zomg laa, one of th like most boring days of my life.
and some more, its sunday.
sundays are suppose t be filled with fun ley ):
parents overseas, korkor ignores me, life sucks.
actually, suppose t go out today ley, but in th end, all dont want, stupid.
wanted t go watch ironman, then korkor say tired, don't want, hais.
dont blame him laa, he go training whole day.
then ruizong actually wanted t go out celebrate his birthday today but no one can make it ):
MAKE YOUR SUNDAYS FREE PEOPLE. D:
then eden say wna go out, in th end dont want, ._.
suppose t meet salwa at library with someone de, but thought going out maa.
should have gone jurong uhs, D:
but I didnt wna see her anw, and she was bloody happy I didn't go anw.
if one day I die, th first person you suspect is her.(: I sound so mean, but, heh.
ANW, I will complain alot later, all about different people :D

ohkay. what was I going t say.
oh yes, th "biggest" news now, american idol.
I dont fancy that show, really. ):
find it a complete waste of time and uhm, money, for those stupid people calling t vote.
anw, can you believe I was so bored today I watch american idol for th WHOLE day.
zomg laa, from morning t night, watched until eyeball drop ._.
cos now finale, then they replaying th whole season.
and guess what? I'm still watching now.
ohoh, david archuleta (?)'s singing now, heh.(:
he's kinda cute, if you look, he's only seventeen, cute boy.(:
he's singing chris brown's with you :D not bad I must say, but yeah.
th french guy's still hawter, JEAN-BAPTISTE MAUNIER, or probably they're on par.
but yeah, they all foreign people, and it would be a dream for me t meet them.
why am I crapping so much today ):
let me tell you a inside scoop;
I know who's gna win american idol :D
*drumroll* (you don't know how bored I am now, I could go like, idk whatever ._.)
david's gna win.(: HAH, I'm so lame right.
cos th two finalists are both davids. I can't believe I'm so damn bloody bored can.
oh whatever, I don't really care.
I'll probably just see th face of who won th next day on newspaper.
or maybe not, just need t go t school and then th whole of geeone's gna scream.
and scream like idk what, *screams*
whatever joan, whatever.
nobody cares are your craps, zomg.

I shall rant my complains here.(:
firstly, my life is terribly boring D:
secondly, please DONT assume this is you, unless, uhm, ITS YOU,
which is highly impossible is you, cos, I don't know why.
but, and, so, PLEASE DONT ASSUME ITS YOU, ):
cos I've been seeing some stuff that has something related t my post today,
so please, don't assume its you ohkay ): I'll feel so bad.
perhaps I shouldnt complain so much x:

that was so crap please.
I shall rant about someone now, :D
although I know I have no rights t, I just feel like ranting.
but anw, whatever said now, you don't have t give a damn about it.(:
cos its just my opinion, and none of your concern, heh.

#1, I don't like you, alot.
ohkay, maybe not don't like, just find you reallyreally irritating D:
cos you're always over-reacting, and always super extra ohkay.
I know I'm no better, probably I'm worst, but yeah, I just wna say it yeah.
anw, backback, heh. got a little far off there.(:
you just LOVE t copy people leh ): it's like exactly th same ohkay.
its like one day I do it, th next you're doing it.
and you think its so fucking cool on you, but its not, ohkay.
wow, oh fuck, you think you're so great.
you can cry your ass off, really, I don't give a fucking damn.
you can show all your thanks and gratitude t all those other blind fuckers, I don't give a damn either.(: cos you mean nothing t me.
I know you think that I love and adore you.
you think I can't live without you.
yes, once again I say, I don't hate you, I just find you supersuper irritating.
maybe you're so nice it gives people th creeps?
but its just bloody irritating.
th things you say, you do, everything, COPIED.
no part of you is original, NONE, I repeat, none.
perhaps only th irritating part.(: heh.
sometimes I wished you disappeared, but I have no right.
your face somehow or another, pisses me off.
kan bu shun yan {;
anw, I just wna tell you, if you know I'm talking about you,
please don't be a little bitch t me, and think you're so good ohkay.
call me a bitch one more time, I'll show you one.
._. irritating piece of something I don't even know how t say.

#2, hello there, fucking asshole.(:
please don't be so thick-skinned and think whatever is there, is meant for you, stupid.
I say sorry, you think for you? ._.
stupid ley you, so thick-skin siol.
people say sorry is for other people who I have let down, not you, clj.(:
you still have th cheek come tell me, don't need say sorry t me? ._.
tmd, whoever said th sorry was for you?
I got do anything wrong t you meh? dont have right? then why must say sorry.
sickening bastard. you think I you're super nice somemore, knn ley.
maybe you're nicer than me, but, you still suck.
IHY little fucker.(:
somehow I know that you know ihy, just that you refuse t admit it.
I somehow just hate you like that, call me a bitch.
I just hate you.
I sound like some spoilt brat, but yeah, I just wna say my piece.
I don't wna ever hear your name, ever again.

#3, its tiring ranting on people laa. ):
but I have t rant last one, her :D
ohkay, maybe not rant, but yeah, just simple short worst.
you may not know but ALOT of people actually hate you.(:
and you think you're like super loved.
she says you're feeling insecure, but I think you somehow deserve it.
cos you treat everyone like your slave, someone with lower authority than you.
heh, stupid bitch.(:
I bet even like th person next t you hates you, which is true actually :D
you just don't know.(:
I know you hate me laa please, its like so bloody obvious.
even others know man, and you think I'm some dumb fuck who doesnt know anything ._.
what th hell can.
oh and did anyone tell you, you're so damn fucking fake.
everything about you is FAKE.(:
anw, that's all I have t say about you.
but actually there's alot I have t say, but I'm just too lazy t go on, heh.

reply t tags now.(:
t nicole (:, hellos there, nicole :D

t Renee, I thought you would forget me, heh :D
I know you toooooooo.(:

t KIM, sorry laopo ): don't divorce me pretty please, x:
heh, I'm super sorry. I shall go spam your tagbox now.(:
IMY too laopo ♥ looves.
- hees, ILY.(: imyimy like alot cans.
- :D YAY, I don't care, must meet up, ohkay.(: loooves.

t `Lina ;D, heh ohkay. :D
omg laa, I do alot of times liao uh, ohkayohkay.(: I shall when I feel like it.

t weqin, ILYILY BOYFRIEND.(:
and I can't believe you're taken ohkay. ): make me so sad.

t FAITH., heh :D sorry zhuzhu.
imyimyimy like madness ohkay.(: super much looves.
hahah, he's not an ass laaa ): cannot be so mean ohkay, heh. ILY ZHUZHU. ♥

t yuting, ohkay will link you up. :D
- heh ohkays.(: funny, yuitingggg. :D

replied.
and I'm still bored.
what th hell is wrong with life man.
WHAT TH HELL.
stupid.

& perhaps I'm gna change blogskin soon?
this one boring.
and I'm lazy t go make one.
probably go blogskins.com and get one.(:

pull th trigger, bite th bullet, break th silence, ♥

2008-05-16T21:48:00.004+08:00

HAPPYBIRTHDAY LAOPO KIMBERLY ♥
heh, I know I'm a super mean laogong ohkay,
but congrats on being thirdteen pretty babe :D
ILY & I supersuper miss you ):

I'm still down with th stupid runny nose & bad cough,
which is supersupersuper irritating can ):
I wna get well laaa, so I can fully concentrate on training & stuff.
today whole day got effing pain headache, knn ley.
I think I'm gna cough away my life laa, its damn irritating ):

short post about school today, nothing much t say laa hohr.
school was like normal laa, mass run cancelled today :D
so dua heng can, cos I forgot t being my PE shirt, heh.
then went t arts conservatory and slacked in aircon for super long,
didn't feel like doing compo, so handing up on tues.(:
then had chinese, and th teacher didn't come up, so did some photoshop-ing.
which is like super fun ohkay, played SM for whole day since morning le.
slacked and crapped th whole day, blasted music in class :D
ate chocolate & candy, heh.
thanks jieling for th packet of gummies, it really made my day uhs,
thanks salwa for th chocolate.(:
anw, then went t music room watch movie, The Choir.
OMG LAAA, although th movie's in french, its like super nice ohkay.
damndamndamn nice, although never got t finish it.
not enough time, so teacher say watch next week, heh.
I never knew french boys were so hawt & kewt ohkay :D
I shall go find out more info about them, omg, super hawt.(:
cuteness level super high, th whole class's damn obsessed with them laa :D
then went back up for science, went through science paper.
kinda boring, and saddening ._.
oh well, I almost slept, but yeah, pulled through.
ohoh, gave th science teacher invite t class party, and then I said it was a love letter from fina.(:
I almost got killed for that but yeah, its super nice.
:D
slacked loads, then went t jurong.
details there nothing much really, slacked loads.(:

I miss them.
I miss tonning with them.
I miss going out with them.
I miss slacking with them.
I miss laughing like crazy maniacs with them.
I miss them, so, so much.
for fuck's sake, I'm grounded and I'm missing them alot ):
seriously laa, I want my old life back.
I will study hard still, I just want t be able t go out latelate with them ):
I don't feel right going home early, rahhs.
somebody, save me, please ):

Nicholas refuses t change back battery with me, boo ley.
his one runs out damn fast laa, I miss my sexy battery D:
cos mine lasts longer than his, hah.(:
although its like th same anw, oh well.
I'm just being lame and stating down crap here t waste time.(:

oh yes, I'm suppose t reply tags right. (I hate it, cos its damn long laa.)
but if I keep dragging, its just gna get longer right, might as well reply now ._.

t -aLy-, hellos there.(: heh, no prob laa, its natural anw.
uhm, I don't know who laa, must be some weird person from outerspace who's jealous of you :D

t eden ; ♥!, what I do again laa ):
you super random one lohr, heh.

t salwa:D, yeah I know, wasnt that what I said? 0.o ah nevermind about it.
- uhm, ohkay, good for you yeah, high more -.-

t weqin, HEH ): ily too laaa :D

t FAITH., damaged - danity kane.
I thought I told you before, heh :D zhupengyou, imy can ):

t salwa:D, congrats for? ._.

t CHRISTINEE,, left :b

t ♥BEh{, why ley, you scored higher than me for like, everthing else can.
I'm a failure seh, you pro kia. *stabs fish, and laughs.* :D

t JUEYIN爱我❤, hellohello.(: longlong time bo see liao wohrs.
you jiayous too, thanks uhs :D of cos I remember you, m'dear.

t LLAALLAA, happy spamming little hyper dude.
:D heh, who you btw? if you wna reveal your name.

t rachel, hellos there junior.(:
ohs ohkay, thanks for telling, linked already.

t JUNYI, MEIMEI :D heh, imyimyimy supermuch toos ohkay! D:
must meet up ohkayohkay, promise me hohr.(: loves.

t ♥BEh{, heh, canadian pizza people :P

t weqin, BOYFRIEND.(: I love this song super much toos ohkay.
anwanw, you can do it for your 2.4, I don't care, I will drag you if I miss lo.
I don't care, you know you can do it, loves babe.(:

t 3{Kharunnisa, hello, I was there :D

t Natasha, hellos, got blog t link?

t simin baobeii, BAOBEII, I miss you super duper much can.
ILY & IMY, must meet up more ley. ):

t carita, thanks.(:

finally replied all, which yes, is full of crap :D
don't bother reading cos its all crap.

dammit laa, I'm feeling super sleepy now cos of th medicine ):
I hate medicine can, always make me feel so sleepy ._.
next time I'm sick, I'm so not taking medicine can ):

random stuff, random post.
seriously, life is boring.
I know I've been saying it like a billion times, but life really is boring laa.
and it just got boring-er cos, I've been grounded like forever.
I don't know when I can be ungrounded laaa.
and somehow I like listening t music in which are super peaceful can.
oh no, scally I become like some old auntie.
*blast heavy metal music*
ohkay, I think I'm officially damn boliao and retarded :D

seriously, I really miss them.
and everything we used t do,
oh please,
let me go out with them again ):

I'm still very sorry,
and I know sometimes sorry just aint enough.

I really don't know what t do anm.
closing my eyes, pretending th world stopped.
why won't time stand still, just like I hoped it would.
counting th stars in th midnight sky,
there's just too many t count, is there?
what should I do,
I'm so lost in this very little world.
I know it has no significance in anything,
but really, I hoped it did.
I don't even know what I'm saying anm,
why am I even typing this.
tears just keep rolling down as I think about th past,
listening t sad songs, oh what th effing hell is wrong with me.
there's really nothing else t say anm.
I wished I closed my eyes, and I never had t open it again.
I wished time would stand still whenever I wanted it t,
I wished,
I knew what I wanted.

and sorrowful tears filled her bloodshot eyes, ♥

2008-05-15T21:02:00.006+08:00

I'm getting lazy t update my blog,
everything's so screwed up laa D:
life now is, screwed up, annoying & still boring.
and I'm still coughing like damn bad can ):
can't even breathe properly, annoying D:

yesterday,
what happened yesterday, I can't seem t remember ._.
ohoh, had mass run in th morning, after idk how long laa,
th feeling was good, heh, running makes me happy.(:
supposingly, we're suppose t be ordering classtee, which I know will rock :D
heh, hope it comes soon or something yeah,
anw, morning went t d&t room, slack like idk what laaa.
I got so bored I started meddling with photoshop and edited a pic of alvin & th chipmunks.
so wuliao right, but I'm a noob photoshopper anw :D
was smsing people, nothing really much t do anw.
got back some results, actually only english,
and I really don't wna talk about ANY results or what so ever,
cos they suck, and I know they suck, and I wna improve ):
this june holidays I'm gna mug like, I don't know how effing hard, but I will ;x
then it started t rainrainrain, which made th sky pretty th mood I was in.
it was really cool & grey though, :D
wonder why I'm talking about crap but yeah, who cares.
ran abit in th rain, back t class & then got back chinese,
WHICH I will not comment on.
then slacked for th rest of th day and stayed back awhile in school, t do project.
but in th end, only I stay back, so talked with fina & alyssa laa.
realised that alyssa can't tell stories as well as anyone, HAH.
was like crapping loads in th library then headed for mrt,
ate chocolate & drank soyabean with pearl cos I didn't eat whole day ;x
then mrt-ed home with amanda, then bus.
I was so sleepy that was like half-dead on th bus, dno why,
just kept singing lyrics of songs,
really, life's that boring, that you could just drop dead there.

D:

today,
I really don't wna talk about today,
everything was sad.
got back most of results today, I think, if I'm not wrong.
it was just really sad laa, I dno how t say it.
there was tears and everything, but its all part of life yeah.
I tried t like laugh my sorrows out, but I guess it wasnt enough.
don't know how t study anymore ):
its just sad, when you think about it,
cos no one believes you're crying, no one believes you study.
everyone thinks, "Joan doesnt study, and she's not crying, she's just acting."
I don't really wna care about it, but it hurts. even though you think it doesnt.
it hurts much more than you'll ever know.
I just wished you knew, I wished someone knew.
I'm not so free t go act, even if I wanted t.
so yeah, I hate today.
I'm sorry for not being able t comfort anyone,
I'm useless, and I'm sorry for bring that way.
I just... nevermind.
I can't find a way t put it in words, but no one really cares.(:
I guess I was in a sad state as well.
I swear, I will study like damn hard ohkay, I don't care.
even if I go into a mental state of I don't know what, I'm gna study.
not that I want t, its really all I can do now,
thanks everyone for th comforts and all, you guys are th loove.
GEEONE IS TH LOOVE ♥
:D free hugs, they really meant alot.
and suddenly everyone got into a singsing mood, heh.
took camera and went around snapping candid and random pics, cos I was damn bored.
yeah, talking in my shirt is hilarious, :D
some people would understand, hahahahs.
I cant believe whatever that thing is actually said my name out loud in class,
andand sounded like some really nice person, somehow.
HAHS, I was laughing ;x
anw, doodled loads on th whiteboard :D
cheerups everyone, we will strive t th end, lets hold th faith yeah :D
need t vent anger, punch th smiley face, it works.(:
teachers still gave out holiday homework, zomg laa.

netball training :D
you don't know how much I love netball ohkay.
rushed down for netball and then trained my guts out.(:
it was really fun laa, played half-court games, centre/center, dno how t spell.
center is loove ohkay ♥ damn fun laa.
anw, then trained abit more, then watched seniors play full court game,
then after that joined with them and played too,
at first abit nervous laa, but after awhile ohkay liao,
cos all you gotta do is focus and run around.(:
finished training late, but its ohkay, cos I love training :D
maybe have self-training this saturday, I WANT GO,
perhaps I'll go watch th matches too, friday and saturday.
lets see how things go,

& life's still boring.
andandand, song lyrics are nice t type and meddle around with :D
I love photoshop, that's so random, but I love it.(:
when I'm with you, I'll make every second count,
cos I miss you, whenever you're not around.
I'm sorry for who I am.

quiz, on weqin's blog :D
saw my name there cos she wanted me t do it, so I'm gna do it,(:

Name 20 people you can think of right now.
Dont read the questions till you've named the 20 people. (Otherwise not fun!)
At the end of this, choose 3 people to do this.
01. weqin :D
02. elizabeth :D
03. ashley :D
04. fina :D
05. alyssa :D
06. namirah :D
07. nicholas :D
08. melissa :D
09. xtine :D
10. jianyuan :D
11. jianwei :D
12. m&m :D
13. salwa :D
14. sumedha :D
15. tifannie :D
16. lorraine :D
17. christine :D
18. ruizong :D
19. faith :D
20. samlun :D

How did you meet #14?
SUMEDHA,
secondary school classmate.(:

What would you do if you hadn't met #1?
WEQIN,
I would have been VERY lonely.):
cos she's my boyfriend, and I love her, heh.

What if #9 and #20 dated?
XTINE & SAMLUN,
highly unlikely unless they're not straight,
but if we're saying if, I'll immediately burst out laughing.(:

What if #6 and #17 dated?
NAMIRAH & CHRISTINE,
seriously? I don't even think they know each other.
but yeah, once again, I'll laugh.(:

Describe #3.
ASHLEY,
she's very pretty & nice, and I love her more than words can ever say :D
but yes, there are far too many words t describe her, but she's unique, and super cute.

Is number #8 attractive?
MELISSA,
super, heh.

Describe #7.
NICHOLAS,
super funny, hah :D
I'm lazy t describe people ley ):

Do you know any of #12's family members?
M&M,
uh no, unless you consider school family, then yes :D

What will you do if #18 confesses that he likes you?
RUIZONG,
I'll laugh :D HAHS, cos it'll never happen, heh.

What language does #15 speak?
TIFANNIE,
english & chinese?
eh, th rest I don't know ._.

Who is #9 going out with?
XTINE,
me! joking, she's currently single, if I'm not wrong :D

How old is #16?
LORRAINE,
uhm, fourteen, I think.

When was the last time you spoke to #13?
SALWA,
today in school,
I talk t her like everyday man -.-

Who's #2's favourite band/singer?
ELIZABETH,
DJ boonie? she has alot of her songs,
but really, I don't know. never really bothered thinking about it, hah.

Have you ever dated #4?
FINA,
yes, cos of some stupid school play :D
heh, she's super funny ohkay, FUNNYFINA.(:

Would you ever date #1?
WEQIN,
I'm already dating her.(:
be jealous, LOL.

Is #19 single?
FAITH,
yes, if I'm not wrong.

What's #10 last name?
JIANYUAN,
tan, I suppose.

Would you ever be in a relationship with #11?
JIANWEI,
LMAO, probably no, heh.

What's the school of #3?
ASHLEY,
school of ashleys.(:

Where does #6 live?
NAMIRAH,
somewhere near somewhere, can't remember ;x

What's your favourtie thing about #7?
NICHOLAS,
his ACTCUTE face :D super cute.

Have you ever seen #2 naked?
ELIZABETH,
no ._.

Three people: EH, I don't know, whoever wna do this just do.(:

I'm like damn lazy t reply tags can D:
I reply tmrw laaaaa, heh.
sorry ah, but will relink & link.(:

sometimes,
things just don't go th way you want it t.
and why won't yesterday come back.
can we, turn yesterday back around?
don't leave me hanging on.
will it all get better in time?
no one understands how much it really hurts,
behind my every smile, lies a million sorrows,
with tears flowing down,
there's really nothing more I can say.
I just HATE everything, alot.

FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK.
I dont wna say anm.

2008-05-13T20:54:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,
RACHELTEO & SHIYA :D
I don't have th mod t post nowsaday laa D:
getting sick of blogging, maybe I'll go mia again, heh.
seriously laa, this is BORING,

reply tags first :D
t salwa&sumedha, LOL uhm ohkay? [: heh.
ily toos laa, and please dont be so high, scary ley x: miss you too.

t salwa:D, hahahs ohkay.

t megAN:D, hahahas megan! yeah I did, hees.
ohkay, will tag you back [:

t jac, yupyup, I know laa :D
yeah, he didnt come luh, sad laa.

t salwa:D, LOL you're still high yeah, can tell.
no smilies are gooood :D :D :D seriously, you can spam without any ugly things popping out :D

t CHRISTINEE,, why ask me! D: spamspam, heh.
I'm still jealous of your photoshop skills ohkay, make me so jealous D:

t 3{Khairunnisa, hellos there :D

t daniel, ohkay nehmind. will relink [:

t FAITH., heh ohkay, be nice zhuzhu and do th freaking quiz :D
IMY ALSO LAH, meetup meetup meetup please ):
- heh, I copy for you le :D

t ellie., HELLOS! :D hahahas yeah sure, I don't mind, :D
ohohs, yeah sure, [:

t scribblleR, hellos, yeah I know. oh, thanks, you too yeah [:
hahahas, its one month late ley boyboy D: HAHS, nehmind, thanks loads anw :D
- ohkay, will relink :D

t CHRISTINEE,, heh I cant lohr, you can do like a gazillion times better than me ):
you know I'm jealous laa, spamspam.
- ohkay, :D when I have time, spam you backs {;
- uh, no need liao le. heh.

t salwa:D, hellos there :D
- heh, thanks.(:

t CHRISTINEE,, I'm damn lazy t spam you back can, hahs.

t FAITH., HELLOHELLO, uh, I don't really get it,
I'm confused x: and spastic, heh.

replied :D
although it all doesnt make much sense.

im suffering from a bad cough & flu laa.
coughcough, sniffsniff, its pissing me off ._.

school was great today & yesterday :D
cos no teachers came in class, free day everyday is totally sexy.(:
wait, today have, one teacher, for like, only 45 min, and all we had t do was like, slack :D
played SM & nitendoDSlite whole day in school today laa :D
andand, played around with photoshop toos, although I'm noobcake.
unlike some people, *hinthint* :D

oh yeah, had mass run today.
stamina like drop ley, so long bo run liao, but still can laa {;
never die can liao, heh.
then afternoon had netball training uhs, I MISSED NETBALL SO MUCH ♥
& finally its back, :D
training was ohkay laa, some recap and stuff,
made coach kind of angry, somehow x:
heh.

I hope th class tees come soon laaa ):
taking so long ley ):
COME QUICKLY.

I know sorry's not enough,
thanks for everything, really.
.gnihtyreve rof sknaht ,shtnomruof ♥

life's boring me out,
as th days goes by.
everyday bo mood laa. ):

2008-05-12T22:17:00.001+08:00

FOURTH MONTH,
I'm still waiting for your sms,

DOING D&T,
heh.

reply t tags shall be done another day,
EVERYONE CHEERUPS, :D

2008-05-11T15:02:00.005+08:00

HAPPYMOTHER'SDAY,
sorry for not updating lo,
miss me uhs :D
wasn't home these two days, so didn't update, hahs,
I'm kinda lazy too anw, sue me for that uhs,
I shall only post about parts of these two days, I like :D
those I don't like, ..see first,

Friday/Saturday,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY REBECCA :D
my biantaikuang, heh.

went t school as usual in th morning,
then th secondary ones got th 21-legged race finals (which sadly my team didn't qualify),
but nevermind yeah, we did our best :D
anw, th 21-legged thing was damn nice t watch can,
my house people were like cheering like mad laa, cos we were, bored :D
was like screaming and shouting like some insane people from IMH,
but it's damn fun ohkay, (:
in th end, pankhurst won first, :D
congrats uhs, also t bronte & keller, I support all of them laa,
and th winners had t keep th equipment :D
bwahahas, teacher said its a form of good sportmenship, HAHAHS :D
so crap right :D but at least we didnt have t, HAHS.

then went back t class for PET Rocket, make rocket :D
was damn fun laa,
I used th spare masking tape t 'kidnap' my elmo :D
will upload th pics if I got time :D, its damn cute laaaa, (:
everyone says I'm mean but its cute anyway,
I even wanted t blast it off with th rocket ohkay, I never lo, :D
then after make th rocket, went t th field and try out,
was damn fun laaaaaaaa :D
handmade rockets flying all over, all th sec one classes in th field,
over like 100 rockets flying, damn fun laa :D
and cos we used air and water t make th thingy blast off,
when you press th button, alotalot of water will splash on you, make you super wet,
damn funny laa :D
was like high-ing on th field cos stayed there for quite awhile,
then we play BOMB :D which was rather unsuccessful as many classes dont wna play,
but at least got play (:
then we were like competing other classes for cheers and songs :D
its like so damn fun :D
then screamed ALOT with zhihan & samlun,
FRY VS KELLER, :D

then went t hall, INVASION [:
98.7fm people come our school, was super nice can,
one of th FM dj, soo, was like intro-ing and all those, we sang birthday song for her :D
th 'crescent-style', was like super funny laa,
then she played with us a game, like music quiz lo, play th song we guess, hahs.
then got two bands performed, west grand boulevard & allura.
first was allura, ohkay laa :D
just that couldnt really hear from th back laa, cos th music was too loud, mic too soft,
but it was kinda cool yeah, took some pics uhs,
th lead singer hyper, th girl, was like flinging her hair everywhere, jumping up & down [:
thenthen WGB ♥
super loved can, must be like th best local band ever :D
Your smile keeps me up for days,
SUPER NICE, we asked for encore :D
and they did, which was like super cool & nice ohkay,
th lead singer for th bang, bryan, has supersuper cool sexy hair :D
he makes his hair fling according t th music, heh.
all boys band, super hawt :D
and at that time I realised that we had an extra portion of th stage built for crez awards,
hahahahas [:
then alsogot this nokia bus in our school, a place t dl songs,
andand see th WGB people lo,
was kinda cool laa, didn't really bother t go up th bus, too crowded uhs,

after school, slacked around :D
had t go back after that for CrezAwards ma,
everyone wanted me t go jurong library pei them,
but ashley & elizabeth ask me pei them, then I pei lo,
got some crap happened laa, waste time ley ._.
that's for me t know, and you t try and find out, but never know :D
I'm just getting lazy t blog nowsadays ):

then went back t school for crez awards, no need queue :D
coscos, kimberly, wanjing they all help me queue le, in front somemore :D
so lucky right, hehs.
CREZAWARDS WAS SUPER NICE & SEXY OHKAY,
I don't care if some people didn't like it, but it was damn sexy,
be jealous that I was there, and you werent :D
congrats t alyssa & namirah, for winning third :D
they dance very hawt ley, heh :D
screamed & cheered alotalot of them for them, and others :D
all th dances & singers were damn nice laa, like professional,
those who didn't win, YOU GUYS DID GREAT STILL [:
th thing ended damn late laa, like, 10.30 then end D: was like half dead, with no voice :D
I learnt something, th MRT at night, after 10pm, is like DAMN crowded D:
I thought it would be like empty laa, hahahas,
I had t miss one train cos it was way too crowded ):

was kinda quiet th rest of th night,
not tired or anything,
I just dno why ):
th rest of th night and th next, I'm lazy t type out le,
once again,
happy finding out, but no one will ever know, except those who were there :D
shan't continue and rant about saturday, cos its like friday,
cos I didn't go home maa,
;D

Although I wish t be alone,
Please don't give up on me,
Cos' I really don't know what t do,

I'm suppose t do th quiz :D
Tagged by uhm, several people, heh.
I'm bored, so, oh-well [:

~~1. At what age do you want to get married?~~
~~idk, don't wish t think that far yet :D~~
1. State th first thing that comes t your mind after reading this.
I'M BORED :D

2. Who is more important to you? Friends/Boyfriend
friends (: they're forever there,

3. Who is the person you trust the most?
idk, it's hard trusting someone ;x

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
maybe? maybe not?

5. If you can have a dream come true, what is it?
everything I wished for came true :D
I want a fairy godparent, hehs.

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
of course, I've seen it loads :D
Rainbows are shexaye,(:

7. What is your goal for this year?
do well in netball, :D
netball is looove ♥

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
idk,

9. What do you wish would disappear?
myself,

10. What feeling do you love the most?
being loved :D

11. Do you believe in true love?
I'm not sure,
I wish I could,

12. What feeling do you hate most?
I hate being jealous D:

13. Do you cherish every friendship of yours?
of course :D

14. Do you believe in GOD?
yup :D

15. What do you think is the most important thing in life?
seriously, idk, everything?

16. Who do you hope to be always there for you?
anyone that loves me as much as I would love them :D

17. Whose your best friends?
those who never fail t make me smile,

18. What have you done to please yourself?
uh, idk.

19. What would you want to do now?
sort out myself, and get t go out ):

20. Do you deserve love?
no, but I wished I did.

Instructions: remove one question from above, and add in your own personal question. Make it a total of 20 questions and tag 8 people. List them out at the end of the post. Notify them in their cbox that they have been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all I've tagged:
- those people that I want them t do, mostly has no blog/already done it ):
so those who wna do,
just do :D
I love everyone, [:

Reply t tags,
t ASHLEY :D, yes I know what it means, but it's a stupid coin ):
ohohs, sorry, I'm a dumbass, heh, loves pokpok, ♥

t weiling, hahahas, looves t you too! {3

t daniel, relinked :D
- ohs, did you do well uhs? I bet you did right, jiayous.

t +([-{SakuraCindy}-])+, hellohello, CINDYlamYIyan :D
I wonder why we always call each other by full name sia, hahahas,
ohkay, linked :D don't kill me.(:
- you're like super evil can ): hehs.

t salwa, LOL, why would I do that t my dear elmo laa ):
you think too much liao lo,

t /&nikki*```, hellos, ohkay, tagged :D

t FAITH., hellooooooooooo, hehs.
you will get it laa, now no time ):
hahahhas, ILY & IMY zhuzhu d:

t weqin, YES YOU ARE, :D

t CHRISTINEE,, hehs, I disappeared into nowhere :D
no laa, wasn't at home, (: but now I update liao, spamspam.

t JOAN, done it :D loooves, hehs.

perhaps I shall post later again, (:

[edit]
I'm like so bored,
Found this on some random blog,

A-You are easy to fall in love with.
B- Good all around person
C- You're a hypocrite
D- You have one of the best personalities ever.
E-you are unfaithful
F- People totally adore you.
G- You never let people tell you what to do.
H- You have a very good personality and looks.
I- You get hyper, wild and insane easily.
J- Everyone loves you.
K- You like to try new things.
L- You live to have fun.
M- Success comes easily to you.
N- You have a nice ass.
O- You're an awesome person.
P- You are popular with all types of people.
Q- Damn good kisser.
R- You're a little too hard to find.
S- You're an idiot.
T- You're sexy.
U- You really like to chill.
V- You are not judgemental.
W- You are very broad minded.
X- You never let people tell you what to do.
Y- One of the best bfs/gfs anyone could ask for.
Z- You're loyal to those you love.

My name :D,
L- You live to have fun.
I- You get hyper, wild and insane easily.
M- Success comes easily to you.
Z- You're loyal to those you love.
H- You have a very good personality and looks.
I- You get hyper, wild and insane easily.
B- Good all around person.
I- You get hyper, wild and insane easily.
N- You have a nice ass.
G- You never let people tell you what to do.
J- Everyone loves you.
O- You're an awesome person.
A-You are easy to fall in love with.
N- You have a nice ass.

I'm damn bored can,
D:
you make me go so high,
but th next minute,
you tear me down like never before,

[/edit]

2008-05-08T19:22:00.002+08:00

Hello hello people :D
I'm not used t being back t blogging ley,
So long bo blog liao (12 days is long t me ohkay X:),
And after every sentence I got habit put comma,
Don't mind it, hahahs,

Yesterday,
I've actually been going t jurong like everyday since, idk when,
Everyday, without fail :D
And stay from morning, until night time, slack alot ley,
I love everyone there can, slack with them vehveh fun ohkay [:
Thanks everyone for pei-ing me, :D
Although we're always there slacking at th same old place,
Jurong entertainment &, library is love ♥
Next time you near there, call me, pei me ohkay :D
Make new cute friends also, hahahahas, I'm damn boliao ohkay,
Go jurong make alot of friends ley, damn cute cans.
Lol, nothing t say ley, just that I love them alotalot :D

Yesterday, went jurong agains uhs,
No more exam, of cos don't wna go home laa [:
At first I alone lo, elizabeth don't wna come with me laa, th cheryl also,
Then talk on th phone longlong then she finally pangseh her friend come pei me,
With cheryl :D I loveeeee them, like alot,
Before that saw jianwei, jianyuan, nicholas, liyang, then talk t them awhile,
Saw rongfong toos, with others idk uhs,
Then walkwalkwalk, wait for th elizabeth & cheryl come lo,
Slack outside JEC awhile, then got one damn kpkb auntie laa, sibei funny X:
Then go library slackslack, waited for cheryl and elizabeth come,
Saw simin baobeii laaaaa, missed her supersuper much cans D:
But she only say hello then byebye le, follow her friends,
Ashley bo come, sick uhs ):
Then after that about evening le, th jianyuan look veh sick ley ):
Anw, me, elizabeth, cheryl, liyang, nicholas & jianyuan go outside JEC there sit cos cold X:
Then th rest idk go where lehrs,
I started t feel damn cold, elizabeth say I got fever );
Ais, then th elizabeth & cheryl go walkwalk, left me with th boys ._.
I was freaking not feeling that good, so I just like quiet X;
Nicholas made me laugh laa, he's damn nice and funny laa, do th cute face, LOL.
Anw, then after that we played truth/dare, quite fun laa,
Then cheryl go library study and practise shuffle, hahahas,
We continued played laa,
Four of us, jianyuan sick then early go home,
Two boys/two girl, then sian, so decided t play dare & dare, ♥
It's super duper fun ley, all th dare all damn funny and stupid can,
Laughed and highed like super much laa, think fever gone also, hahahs.
Sabo-ed *ahem* & *ahem* laaa, sibei funny,
:D

Today,
73 people online :D, LOL.
School was damn boring can, sit in th bloody hall whole day,
Leg sibei numb laaaa ._.
But got aircon, hahahas, then smsed all th way in th hall lo,
Cos alot of boring talks, after exam liao, more boring ley,
But better than studying :D
Then after that, go jurong again :D
And I'm all alone ohkay, damn sad can,
Elizabeth & cheryl go bugis, then eden go tiong, all pangseh me, damn mean laa,
Saw jingnoi, but she with her friends uhs D: then she talk t me awhile then run away,
Stupid ley,
Saw netball senior, :D said hi only laaaaa,
Then was talking t elizabeth on th phone, my phone bill sure bao ones X:
She shop with th cheryl damn long laa, stupid,
Then walkwalk around arcade there, saw jieying!
I miss her damn alotalot lo, hehs, she with her friends also though, then go liao,
Then saw wuqun :D
He pei me talk awhile, then jianyuan ask me go library, then go lo,
Saw rongfong, jianyuan & jianwei, they eat th nicenice honey thingy,
They gave me one stick, thanks :D
Slacked, was super bored, played with handphone for like idk how long,
Then follow jianwei around until th elizabeth & cheryl finally came,
Went t mrt walk with them back, really too sian liao,
Walkwalk, go back library there, slack awhile lo,
Got alotalot of people there, just that I dno who nia, lol,
Damn funny laa, we were like making fun of th stupid ahneh guard, cos he looks like osama,
Then we went t find th osama book X:
Got pic lo, look th same :D
Everyone was laughing their ass off laaa,
Then went t kobayashi, eat, then wuqun came, talk and laugh :D
Cheryl waiting for th yangyang lo,
Then called siyuan t come :D we were like guessing what color he was gna wear,
And obviously I guess correctly, LOL,
Anw, listened t wuqun phone th songs, techno nice ley ♥
Hahahs, then walkwalk around, go wuqun house around there th pasamalam, walkwalk,
Elizabeth bought elmo, same as me,
Then go walk more, then go home liao lo,
Wuqun went home sleep X:

So elizabeth, siyuan & me crapped and slacked, bus t elizabeth house there,
On th bus, sibei buaysong can,
Opposite us sit three girl, keep on diao us, glj ley, knn,
We stare back laa, knn, who scared them, they younger somemore,
Bukit timah primary ley, pcb -.-
Then we get off th bus, they go window shout fuck, GLJ laaaaaa,
Heck laa, noobcake :D
Then elizabeth & siyuan pei me walkwalk t bus stop, wait bus,
I love both of you uhs,

I hope tomorrow can ton ):
I really really want t, pleaseeeeeeeeee D:

Sian laa, everyone's sick lo X:
NEHNEH, nicholas & liyang,
all get well uhs :D
I'm also slightly sick anw ._.

Reply t tags,
t weiling, LINKED :D and I tagged you too,
loves uhs, meet up loads ohkay :D

t megAN:D, hellos junior, I'm back already, [:

t FAITH., ZHUPENGYOU AHH, I never mia liao le :D
I know I owe you laa, I no time dedicate cans ):

t desiree, hellos junior :D how's track uhs?
hahahas, don't miss me laa, I come back already [: lol,
- SA1 bad ahr? why ley? jiayous uhs [:
- hahahas, its ohkay laa :D

t BeForU, hellos dear :D woaini tooooos ♥

t weqin, yup I just did [: my finger's fine lo, I'm not that dumb go and press so hard lo,
only you will do that right, :D

t CHRISTINEE, it's back already :D hahahs,
- luncheon meat? that's so damn random please, [:

t KIM, laopo ♥ seesee, th elmo gone liao laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa D:
oh ohkays, thanks uhs,
- IMY LOADS TOO :D

t Samantha(:, hellohello :D
- LOL, you bo tell me maa, I relinked you liao laaaa [:

t Qori, relinked :D

t Cheryl, linked, :D

t desiree, hello junior :D hahahas, will visit soon, if I can,
miss you all loads too,

t 陈心儿❥, hellos preety babe ;D
hahahahas, nps laa, loves & miss you toos uhs! LOOOOVE :D

t salwa, HELLOS, hahahas, nps uhs, hees,
- you see me in school ley, lol, hah,

t megAN:D, hahahahahs, I back liao [:
- yupyup, :D miss me ah?

t CHRISTINEE,, of cos laaa :D
- elmo has been removed, due t some people X:

t ♥ruoning, hellos, :D hahahahhas, yay.

t ♥BEHLATTD, ! WHEE,

t samuel, kor! :D imyimyimy like super muchs too ohkay,
you too, jiayous uhs [:

Finally replied all,
:D

I KNOW I OWE POSTS ):
& suppose t do quiz right,
Will do asap laa,
And elmo's eyeballs are gone, due t stupid IE users,
USE FF CAN, IE SUCKS D:

SEEEEEE, IM SO NICE,

2008-05-07T21:55:00.004+08:00

Missed me? :D
I'm back, :D
You've only missed 12 days of my life,
It's not that bad, isnt it?

Exams are OVER, sexy not :D

Will update, reply tags, tomorrow, kinda sleepy now.
&, remove plastic elmo's eyes cos' no one likes it ):
i love dare & dare ♥,

NEHNEH, mai sad/angry liao hohr ):
Cheer up loadsloads uhs, I'll always love you dehrs, whether you girl/boy :D
LOL, woaini laa ♥
Dont worry me ohkay hohr,

I know I owe dedications & posts t people,
1) FAITH,
2) NEHNEH ASHLEY,
3) SALWA,
& some other people I can't remember X:

IDK LAH,
JOAN IS STUPID, D:

2008-04-25T13:57:00.002+08:00

Short post, in school now ._.
Didn't update yesterday lo, nothing much happened anyway.
Stayed back in school, made th class super clean [:
Arranged tables, until super straight,
Swept th floor too, PLAYED WITH COOKIEMONSTER [:
Took some pictures, will upload if have time.

Now having geography thing, just got back test :D
Didnt't fail lo [: Fina & Salwa owes me two LMT each! [:
But yes, I have four more LMT, if they actually wna buy me.
Well, they promised, if they don't, I'll smack their ass :D

Wad-devil, wad-evil.
Peekaboo, I see you [:
IM SO RANDOM (:

IM GOING MIA,
really soon [:

2008-04-23T19:46:00.004+08:00

Alot of tags t reply t D:
Reply now, post later [:

t salwa, its alrights yeah, chill about it girl.
just work hard for MYE, everything's gna be fine [:

t megAN:D, hellos [: yeah, I did.
ohohs, thanks loads :D

t elizabeth.{3, yups we shall oks [:
anyways, we see each other like everyday now lo, take bus home tgt everyday ok.
my darhling, bus buddy [; hahahas.

t FAITH., you build th time machine, I'll watch you build it [: I super slack uhs.
of cos, I'll find your money laaa, don't worry de :D
hahahs, you try rob me laa [: see what happen next t you, falalalas.
I'm a little poor girl, I have nothing valuable ]: wahahahas.

t salwa, nehmind laa, its like half th class failed, its th paper's fault.
oh well, life must go on right? [:
thanks loads yeah, hahahas, fina is a bad person laaa ._. LOL.
- and you don't die hohr.
- yeah I know, I'm studying hard now, although its damn last minute.
its better than not sutdying rights, rahhs. you jiayous loads uhs [:

t sumedha, hahahs you rock laa, little ducky [; hees.
yeah, its all gna over soon :D lets all work hard, yeah?

t shiya, hellos shiya. thanks yeah, linked you up already :D

t (h3ryl..., LOL. uhm sorry then? ;x
linked you already [:

t ASHLEY :D, wahahahas, you need new contacts my dear [:
and it shows, how good this box can camoufalge :D be jealous, LOL.
hahahas, thanks loads uh ;D limegreen is indeed, sexy {3
I'm super duper sorry, haven't got th time, I know I owe you ]:
I will do it, asap alrights. SORRY, and you can keep th bear until I meet up with you again [:
don't teach my bear horny stuff hohr, if not.. [:
- WHEE, ILY toooooooooooooooooo ♥

t RIBENA:D, helloo pigghey :D
hannahrs, you soooo good lo [: ego lil' thing laa you, pervert! D:
don't horny with me hohr, I'm super guai one [:

t 3{Khairunnisa, relinked (:

t \ben|, hellos benben :D
hahahas, is it hard t find? ._. LOL. ooh thanksthanks uhs [:
rock on too yeah, jiayous.

t FAITH., ZHUPENGYOU, I shall not let you, obviously.
and I won't be so ee, and pee on my pants, but I know you will [:
&, hell no, you still won't get my valuables :D bwahahahas.

t tiffanie, HELLO ;D

t helper, hello there [: you little helpful helper yeah.
hahahs, yes, CRESCENT IS TH LOOVE :D
gogo, get t every blog yeahs [; hehs, secret little identity person.

t salwa, idk ley, but I'm sure its some sweet lil' girl laa.
- It's a she dude, CRESENTIAN? o_o we have boys in our school?

t Lisa, hellos mei. thanks uh [:

t ♥Curtains, hellos CHAIRMANNNNN [:
hahahas, thanks loads uhs, do you have a blog? :D

t Harriel{3, hahahas hellos :D
Damaged - Danity Kane [:
you jiayous too uhs, loves.

t samuel, hellos kor [: !
hees, thanks laaa :D MEI LOVES KOR supersuper much [:
whee, you jiayous too uhs. IMY :D

t Kim, LAOPO [: peifu you laa, post all so long ;x
hees, IMY & ILY laaaaaa ♥

t NING, hellos there! {3
ohohs, will link you up yeahs, :D
takecares too, loves.

t JOAN, JOAN, th yellow banana? [:
I miss you badly uhs.

t salwa, lol you just saw me in school today? ._.
LOL, whining aint fun & nice, seriously lo.

t FAITH., piggggggggggggggg ♥
at least I replied right D:

t elizabeth.{3, DARHLING loooove {3
hahahs, yeah, but at least got abit rights :D
they're funny &, cute siol, they always make me smile laa [:
of cos, they're distracting, but super funnnnn [:
i LOVE you too ♥

I replied :D
And I have lost th inspiration t post laaa ):
But I shall, cos I'm nice :D
But shortshort one, wahahas.

School was like th same laa, boring.
Had t go on stage today t get medal & trophey lo, sports day de [:
Wahahas, honoured :D Seriously, I'm getting damn ego laa.
Then had D&T, was doodling on fina's paper, bored maa ._.
Had english, replied elizabeth's note lo, since I didn't have much corrections t do ;D
Hees, then got chinese, slackslack and HIGHED.
Jiayi's letter is super funny laa, laughed like crap [:
Rebecca's also :D Rebecca is biantai one lo, everytime say me ._.
Then had science, th teacher also high one.
Everyone so high today lo.
And omfg, he go say that I excited over that fishtard, knn laaaa D:
I screamed like shyt oks, stupid laa he.
D: ruin my reputation, tsk.
Ohohs, thanks mindy for pictures & songs ♥
You're much loved, hees.
() despo laaa, fish also :D
Will upload icons soon [: love.

Then after school, mrt-ed t jurong with sumedha & kimberly [:
They're both super funny, and su is DUCKY :D
Hahahas, so random laa.
Kimberly says I'm always calling people on th MRT, or talking on th phone.
Which now that I see, is true ley ;x
I told her got better reception on mrt, LOLLLL ._.
Then went t macs & kfc, waited for elizabeth darhling laa, she always so long.
Th nicholas, rongfong & jianyuan dno where liao, then we heck.
We studied longlong at macs, until they came lo.
I did science notes [: and darhling did.. uhm, several maths questions, HAHS.
Then called jianyuan, he say he dno at what garden o_o
He talk until super funny laa [:
Then finally, nich & rongfong came, they skipped th garden, whatever that is ;x
They just love t poke and tickle us laa.
Hai wo men, cannot study lo ):
At least we studied, before they came :D
But they're damn fun t talk and slack with laa.
Then slack & crapped alot, until jianyuan came, with his twin.
REAL TWIN SEH, both of them super cute cans [:
Hahahahahahahahs, and I never knew :D
Then after that slack awhile and playplay, studied abit more.
Helped darhling do her stupid english summary, boring laa ._.
Then th boys whinewhine, want go library find ppl and slack.
Then ok lo, they bought waffles [:, then we went lo.
After awhile, slack, went t popular buy stuff :D
Ohohs` went t buy cookie monster, small de toos [: Sibei cute cans.
One for me, one for darhling ♥
Then mrt-ed & bus-ed home with darhling :D
Th mrt is super packed ):
Falalalas,
I love them super much, I can't live without them D:

Omg, I hope its not true ):
Don't go laaaaa, and its not cool lo, LOL.
Praypray its fake D:
I'm sorry, for neglecting you, so sorry.
We're drifting, and its my fault, I'm sorry {/3
Don't be emo anymores, smile [:
Cheerups, I love you :D
And a million teardrops ]:
Cheer up korkor, SMILEEEEE, then you cute siol (:

Maybe I'll go MIA soon.
MIA MIA MIA, soon [:
No one bothers anyway :D

2008-04-22T20:34:00.003+08:00

Hahs, I think I won't update daily anymore :D
No one will miss me anyway, falalas.
Getting real lazy t update siol, when have time then update baa.
MYEs are here liao laa, irritating laa ):
I don't wna study, but I cannot fail leyy D:
Dammit laa, I got a bad temper sia ):
I must change laa, stupid laa me, must change D:
Elizabeth says I angry scary, LOL.
Sian, update yesterday &, today first (:

Yesterday,
Nothing much ley, that's why never update.
I can't remember actually :D
I'm drifting away from you guys, but its not you care.
Hahs, damn slack laa, th whole time ;D
Highed in com class with fina, purposely sit infront, make teacher laugh :D
She's damn nice laa, I got a smiley face badge from her!
Be jealous, be very jealous. (I'm lame, yes I know :D)
I pinned th badge on my bag, next time seesee, LOL.
It's super cute laa, got heart on th face one :D
It's like th first time I pay attention in com class maa (:
Th rest of th day slackslack like crap, sleepy.
Stayed back after school t do th pamphlet thing laa, suppose t hand up de :x
Then haven't finish, then stay back do lo :D
Weqin boyfriend, thanks laaa, wait for me {3
But in th end bo go home with you, sorry my love );
Anyway, did th thingy with jieling, salwa was like whining her ass off, emo dude, hahs.
Then highed with comclass teacher laa, she was like singing?
LOL, falalalas, so random laa.
Then met elizabeth darhling at wm, then bus home with her (;
I'm always going home with her [:
I love her laaa ♥
Hees (:

Today,
Morning had t sing th national anthem like, I dno how many time siol.
Cos' th dm say dno what laaa, then just do lo ._.
Then got science, teacher damn funny laa, as usual, LOL.
I just realised how saddistic my maths teacher is ok, fish dude :D
He today call people do thing on board, get wrong, must sing &, dance.
Cos' our class immune t his scoldings liao, hahahhas.
Then damn funny laa, everyone was screaming, then th cher laugh his ass off.
Knn, he perspire so much, say what humid 0_o
Its' only him lo, pigpig [:
(Go read his friendster th blog, SIBEI FUNNY :D)
Then got geog, was dozing off laa.
Was chatting with christine on com, hahaha, I love school chat system :D Heucampus.
Then CME, crapped alot laa.
Shout in class (; damn fun lo, doodled all over my foolscape & CME file [:
Then was assembly, th forum thing.
Damn funny laa, all th questions asked and requested sibei entertaining.
DM still rocks with her jokes, Tan Bobo (;
Only crescentians will know what I mean :D Whee.
Falalals, everything's so random nowsadays ._.

Then after school, suppose t meet gandear dehrs.
Suddenly so many people want meet me today o_o
On th train, nicholas call me, say want meet, ok lo (:
They damn fun t hang out with anyway, although we slack all th time.
Gandear came ;D then was with amalina slackingggg.
Then talktalk awhile, amalina go le, then wait for siyuan didi maa, cos he on th way home.
Siyuan didi came :D
He's super pornstarzxz, super horny laa he ;D
I shall elaborate later (:
Then walkwalk around westmall, keep making siyuan didi (;
Crapped and laughed loadsloads.
Then went t KFC, met with nicholas, rongfeng, jianyuan.
So sibei dulan laa, five boys, one girl, stupid elizabeth take damn long come siol.
Then gave nicholas $10, (Idk for what, I'm spastic.) he go spend and eat lo.
Siyuan horny laa, phone so much porn, tsktsk.
Somemore talk with nicholas, double horny ._.
I sit there, buaytahan, everyone so horny, except my gandear :D
Then finally, after idk how long, elizabeth came :D
Tsktsk, make people tahan horny people so long );
Then after go out th playground nearby ♥ I love playground oks D:
So what if I'm childish, face it ;D
Then we "fight" alot laaa.
Stupid boys, keep on tickling me &, elizabeth, knn laaa ._.
Then we have waterfight :D Sibei funny laaa.
Then I bluff nicholas gimme water t drink (;
Then he spray in my mouth, I spit out at him :D Wheeeeee.
It's like sibei funny laaaaaaaaa.
Had supersupersuper loads of fun oks {3
Then stupid rongfong & siyuan laa, bully elizabeth until she hit th pole.
Then now her poorpoor face tio cut by her specs.
Hahs, guilty consicious people (;
Then helped elizabeth for her wound lo, she also got blueblack, poor thing.
Get better soon hohr :D
Luckily her mama and papa believe her.
Th lies I tell people t say, always works :D Hahahas, I so ego.
Had super much fun today,
Slacking is like th best ever :D
Siyuan is HORNEH, tsk.
With th other three boys, all so HORNYYY :D
Sometimes I'm horny laa, but not as bad as them ;D
Hees, I love them all ♥
So so so much :D
Be jealous, be very jealous (:

Lazy reply tags,
Reply tmrw :D

Love is just a lie.
You can look into my eyes & pretend all you want,
But I know, your love is just a lie, nothing but a lie.
You're nothing but a lie,
You love is just a lie.
And you all think you know me,
But somehow, I know you don't.
You all don't, its so obvious, perhaps it wasn't meant t be?
So much for friends, right, my loves.
My loved.
We're all just simple people,
Trying t get on with life.

Break my heart,
Tear it apart.
I don't need it anymore (:

2008-04-20T20:47:00.002+08:00

I got bored and decided t post.
After going around friendster and blog-hopping, everything's boring me laaa.
There's nothing much t do.
Except for th exceptions of homework.
And audition, which I rarely play nowsadays.

I wonder why everyone's getting so emo.
Is it like a .. super infectious disease? ._.
Really laa, I mean suddenly th whole world is in black & white.
But I prefer grey :D
So random right me, ugh.

Jie, cheer up alrights.
He's not worth your tears nor your blood.
Don't do stupid things le laa, really, he's just some playboy.
You're not stupid oks, if you are, then I'm like a billion times worst then you.
Don't make yourself so tired cos' of that guy.
He's really not worth it.
Although you feel that you can't forget him, you can laa.
I know its my fault, most of it D:
I'm sorry, blame & hate me oks, if it would make you feel any better.
Cheer up cans, I beg you.
You can return t normal de, I believe in you :D
When MYE over, we go out everyday oks :D If can laa.
With th rest, cos' I know when you with them, you hyper de.
They super cute right :D Me also lo.
Hahahs, joking laa, but smile loads alrights.
I see you like that will xintong ones uh D:
So cheerups.
Take care hohr, mai do stupid things.
Loves ♥

Honey, idk what t say about you.
I don't even think you would be reading this, but what th hell.
You told me not t bother, so I won't ok.
Just know that, its really not much of a big deal and all.
Just chill about th whole thing, its not worth you worrying.
Cos' I swear, just say no, and you'll be fine.
Don't need t "plan things" & "explain everything", cos there's nothing much t say.
Get over your emo state, return t normal please.
I don't need fixing alright.
I just need hiding, I'm fine :D
Take care, loves.

Salwa, its ok.
Get over with it, I know you studied dear.
So did I, but I guess it just ain't enough yeah.
Work hard for MYE alrights, don't feel so sad about it anymore.
It's just one test, I'm sure you can pull yourself together.
Don't sad liao uhs, you can do it.
I believe in you, you can do it.
Trust yourself, self-confidence girl.
Loves, take care.

Hahs, I sound so emo laaaa D:
But I'm not lo.
I just feel, uhm, inspirational? ;D
I like crapping and all, so somehow looks emo? ._.
Ugh, so crap laa, life sucks.
I hate school life lo, so disgustingly suckish.
I'm gna fail MYE ):

So much for promises,
So much for th trust.
Although I knew this was gna happen,
It hurts.
Really, don't say those three words,
When you don't even mean it.
Make it come from your heart,
And I'll believe you.

Sometimes, things remind me of you.
And I wonder,
Was I stupid t believe you, for that moment.
It has been so long, too long for anyone t remember.
Except me.
I guess its just life yeah.
You get on with yours, and I stay at that one point.
I've learnt t let go,
But I'm not sure at times.
I blame th philosophy of love,
Cos' it aint real, is it?

I'm th monster under your bed :D

2008-04-20T12:32:00.006+08:00

Suddenly, I love grey alot.
Hahs, I'm so random :D

Changed th skin already :D
T th one I made lo, I dont care le ):
Everyone want t read my blog, use Mozilla FF ♥
Cos it looks screwed in IE D:
So please, use FF alrights.
Cos really, it looks hundred times better than IE.
In IE, there's no background laaa, as according t my com D:
I swear, it looks nicer in FF D;
Oh well, I'm still a bad blogskinner, wahahahas.
But I'm not exactly done with th skin yet, may have some minor changes soon :D
Oh well, it just sucks looking at it on IE D:

Rahh, I'm sibei dulan laa, now.
So is Rebekah & perhaps all th others who already seen th MLG.
That guy, monster, failed like more than half th class for science laa ):
He damn.. UGH laaa.
We studied like damn hard for th test ok, did everything, then still fail.
Then you say on MLG, you're so disappointed, say we never prepare.
You think we super or what huh, we got study ok, then you just keep failing.
I bet you raised th passing mark, AGAIN.
Knn, make me retake two times last time, just cos you raised th standards.
For like th first time in, idk how long, I studied :D
Then you fail me, knn laa.
I bet you're gna praise Sumedha again D:
So what if we're not as smart as her ley, not our fault right, she just rocks laa.
You, make people feel so demoralized oks ):
Teachers suck, suck like hell.
D':

Reply t tags,
t FAITH., I fxcking miss peihwa too ):
let's build a time machine and go back together, shall we (:
- hahahs, no matter where you put it, I'll find it :D wahahahas.
heh, you rob me also no use, I'm a poor pathetic little girl D;

t megAN:D, hellohello there :D

t salwa, hahahs, accident actually, wasnt meant t be black ;D
- yay, glad you do (:
- omg, you serious :D I sweared I studied laa, can ask anyone in my family ):
you even can go ask fina, she saw me studying, and i studied with her on msn too.
I'm sorry if I still fail tests D:

t Kim, dearest laopo laaaa {3 you ahrr, smack you laa D:
why dont go ley. hahahas, alrights then, thanks laa laopo, loves.
ILY & IMY LOADS LAAA! D:
- tagged you back already ;D

t FAITH., zhupengyou ;D
IMY alotalot also luhhh D: I got update ley, is you lazy zhuzhu never see );

t \`taymin, hellos minmin ;D
hahhas, you jiayous too uhs.

t salwa, YEAH I DID (:
at like 4.45, hahahahas, hilarious laa :D super late lunch.

t zhihan, hello mama! hahahas. thanks looo ;D
- DEATHNOTE ROCKS MY SOCKS (:

And with my last breaths,
I apologise for wasting your time on me.
For th last time,
I'll keep those sorrows inside.
It'll never be shown,
You'll never get t see.
As much as I would like t just let go,
It's just so hard.
Don't say you love me,
When you know you don't mean it.

2008-04-19T11:54:00.006+08:00

Listening t those old songs,
Made me remember how much it actually meant t me.
I'm not sure if I'm over it yet,
I just hope I am.
Somehow I knew this was gna happen.
It just doesn't go th right way, does it.
There's only one reason for th idks.
Cos I knew this was gna happen.
Please don't ignore me for this, I just can't.
I somehow can't just, let go, yeah.
I'm just scared of it, you just won't understand.
All of th memories so close t me,
Just fade away.
All these time you were pretending,
So much for my happy ending.
Don't say ily,
When you don't mean it.
Cos when someone thinks you mean it,
It's when you hurt her so bad.
So much for happy endings yeah.
It's nice t know that it exsisted in my heart,
It hurts t find out you never knew how I felt.
Maybe it's better this way,
Hide all my emotions,
Stay numb.

I'm gna change my blogskin laa,
Can't take this one anymore ):

[edit]
Omfg laaa, stupid IE can't show my blogskin background -'-
Which makes it look completely fxcked up D:
I'm super pissed laa, why can't it show whatever is shown on FF laa ._.
Make me sibei dulan can.
I spend alotalot time doing it laaa ):
Now maybe I won't change, cos of that.
Or I make another skin D:
Fxck it laaa, stupid IE D:
It's 0421pm, and I haven't eaten lunch :D
Not hungry, sian laaa.
This blogskin thing makes me angry laaa ):
And another thing, sorry about th black cbox.
Got something wrong, sorrysorry D:
Still tag, alrights.
I know yesterday won't come back,
[/edit]

2008-04-18T22:59:00.002+08:00

I'm high now :D
I shall tell you guys later, why :D
I love techno oks {3
Sudden addiction, I blame th boys D:

Dammit laa, I'm damn despo t change skin laa.
I make new one le, but everyone keeps saying this current one more pretty ):
Mean right, hahs.
No laa, I'm still gna change t that one laa :D
It's what I like right, no actually, this skin's just plain boring already D;
I'm a sucky skin maker laaa.

Didn't update yesterday rights, cos nothing happened yesterday :D
See, save time typing all th unnecessary crap laa, who reads all this anyway :D
So crap right me, I know :D
So I update about today lo, more nice than boring yesterday.
Th only day I never go out, cos' I was busying studying, zomg laa.
It's rare, so yeah, I studied like fxck and made notes somemore, siao liao me D:
I suddenly got th inspiration that I dont wna fail test liao.
Must be guaikia, HAHS, like that will ever happen laa.
But yeah lo, I studied ok, and everyone's gna give th 'omg, joan you studied?' attitude.
As usual laa. So sad right, I've been labelled D:

Lets talk about happier stuff today :D
Actually school aint happy laa, I so contradicting oks D; stupid.
Anw, had aircon again in th morning, was like doing friendster and blogging th whole time :D
But was like laughing like shyt laa, then teacher suspect abit.
Nehmind, she bo catch me :D She loves me laa, LOL.
Then after class, when going out, she do spotcheck, then never catch me, but catch everyone else, damn funny laa.
Actually I just ran away laa :D She always let me go anw.
Then got chinese, do some stupid letter writing, I finished on time ley :D
Which reminds me, I didn't hand up my zuowen, tmd, diedie lo (:
Music had t do presentation, knn, we so not prepared laa :D
Nehmind, we do for fun de, then everyone kept laughing laa.
Had science test after that, can die one leh, so hard laa.
Cfm fail de, sian laa. I dont wna fail leh ):
Then got geog test, quite ok laa :D
I studied ;D Hahs.
So sibei dulan right, I so lame.

Anw, then after that suppose t go out with elizabeth one, then dno where she go.
Phone bo batt laa, that girl ._.
Then slacked at LJS with phoebe & salwa lo, I stared at them eating :D
They force me eat laa, I ate french fries ):
I wasn't hungry lo, even though I never eat, hahs.
Then finally after like, 9871283618 hours later, elizabeth called me D:
Stupif girl laa she, then ask me go JEC, then I go laa.
So guai right, then go liao, cannot contact her ._. sibei dulan laaa.
Call nicholas, he kupp me.
Ahh, then I walkwalkwalk until find her & simin baobeii lo :D
Then saw nicholas, rongfong & jianyuan also.
Walkwalk lo, sprayed glitter on rongfeng and simin :D
Woah fun laaa, who ask them spray me first (:
Went t take neoprints with baobeii & elizabeth, I looked retarded in all la D:
Then th boys were like sibei funny laa, imitating what we do ._.
Nicholas do th cute & funny face, sibei cute laaaaaaa.
LOL, then th machine sotsot, we bang here bang there (;
All of us were like fighting t decorate laa, especially that nicholas, so retarded.
Hees (: Then slack lo.
Then they go eateat lo, I pay for th elizabeth and baobeii laa, all so broke one.
Luckily I starve this week laa, if not I also no money lo.
They eat, I watch.
Baobeii force me eat D: I dont want, hahahaha.
Then walkwalk around lo, go staircase there.
Emo abit there laaa, idk why lo ):
Then suddenly everyone seemed t disappear, somebody went t find th boys.
Slacked with simin & elizabeth lo, they eateat, I pay ._.
While waiting for th boys, we walkwalkwalk around lo, dont disturb them.
Then buaytahan sian lo, go macs eat fries, I pay again.
Waaaa, today I sibei broke laa, thanks t those two guniang :D
Hahs, then we slacked and wait for them lo.
Then after awhile they finally came laa, look so blurblur laa.
Crapped alot and slacked alot there laa, they sibei funny.
Tickled nicholas and rf and crap laa, poke here poke there.
Who ask them do me lo, they super funny one laaa.
Play penknife also ._. Knn, they lost mine laa, idk where is it ):
Then we were like playing and hiding simin's phone until she angry :x
Slack alotalot until mama came lo ._.
I hate home laa, but also cannot ton laaa.
Simin go ton laa, not fair lo.
Ohoh, she camwhored with Ronald Macdonald, sibei funny.
I love you guys.

Falalas, im still not sleeping yet laa :D
Its like 1139 now, elizabeth wna go sleep le, leave me all alone D:
Was highing with ashley on msn laa, damn funny she.
Ok, I always high with them laa.
That's why I'm high, cos everyone made me high :D
Hahahs, I so crap laa.
Stupid nich, promise online, until now havent yet ._.
Nb laa he, stupid boyboy :D

Reply t tags,
t salwa, she's not laa, t me.
yeah, i studied laa, i know stupid alyssa wont believe one, as usual.
i maybe will fail ley, idk how do laa.
- hees, no prob laa :D i will still post regularly ok.
- hahs, yeah alrights, i will one.

t &il0vey0ul0ser, lol and you are?
- hahs, taggie encore? weird laa you ._.

t BeForU, oohs. hahahs, no wonder laa.
- yeah can tell, can tell :D
- hahahs, its alrights laa, all your friends super boliao cans.

t K1LL34z, hellos :D uhm, ian ahr? sorry if i remembered wrongly.
- hahah, thanks then (:

t BeForU, i think its gna go on right (x
- its alright laa, let him spam lo.

t &il0vey0ul0ser, you get th joy spamming eh ._.
- i lazy reply you like thousands of reply lehs. (claps back for you? -.-)
- lalalals, all th way until you stop :D

t BeForU, hahahs. its alrights :D

t &il0vey0ul0ser, have fun le maa? ._.
- make me so sibei dulan laa you.
- spam must spam nicer maa, LOL :D hahs, can tell lo.

t K1LL34z, ryan you say eh?
LOL, he must be really boliao uhs.

t BeForU, LOL.
- damn lazy reply leee.
- dont care your bloody friends laa :D

t K1LL34z, yeahyeah i know laa.

t `Lina ;D, HELLO :D lol.

t minyi, hellos.
yes, will relink you dehrs :D no probs laa.

t {3, uhm alrights?
i love them too anyways.

t d.e.n.i.s.e.♥, hellos, alrights will link you :D

t FAITH., woahwoah, rich girl seh lo.
(sneaky smile xD) thinking of robbing you siol, LOL.
hahahhahas, thanks laa zhupengyouu, but really no need if cannot lo (:

t megAN:D, HELLO.
yesyes, i will (: alrights.

t FAITH., you zhuzhu laaa, ZHUPENGYOU! :D
whywhywhy laa, make me so sad cans );

Ugh, finally replied all laa.
Cos of th spam :D
1202am now le, I'm suppose t be watching Smosh on youtube.
Ashley says so, hahs.
GET WELL SOON, MY LOVE ASHLEY ♥
Must meet up laa you, pangseh-ed us today.
Although I just went out with you on wed, IMY CAN.
Hahahs, jkjk, andand I know I'm still suppose dedicate a post t you,
and faith, HAHS.
I'm getting so lazy cans ):

All th broken dreams,
Take it all away.
Just take it away,
Like it never happened yesterday.
& I know no matter what,
Yesterday nor th past,
would ever come back {/3

2008-04-16T21:52:00.002+08:00

Today sibei funny laa, song laa :D
Mai che taiji liao laa :D

Slacked in school whole day laa.
No fair lo, laogong school only start at 11am, me so early ):
Knn laa, then today was super sleepy D:
Anw, morning got d&t, ask my friend do some for me, I lazy laa.
Then cher keep on kaobei laa, tuck in my shirt ._.
I fold in then skip around th room, LOL, I so wuliao lo.
Then had literature, cher bring us aircon again :D
Shuang laaa (: I love lit & english, forever aircon ones, cos th cher cannot stand heat, hahs.
Then got chinese, sibei sleepy lehrs );
I got try stay awake hohrs, but failed terribly ):
I slept awhile laa, awhile only D: stupid alyssa from window shout me, wake me up ._.
Tmd laa she.
Anw, got back zuowen, I suck laaa, but never fail :D
Then got maths, laughed loads laa.
Always crap alot in maths one, foreverzxz deh, cos our class crap alot :D
Made fun of darshini laaa, she super cute cans.
Lmao laa she ;D
Then needed t stay back after school, sian laa.
Sat with alyssa, then we crap alot at th back :D
She types super slow please, like ahmah liddat (: Whee.
I love disiao-ing & suanning her laa, she super loser one ;D lol.
If she's reading this, I better run now ;D

After school, met with elizabeth, ash, nich, rongfong, simin and few other people :D
Want t settle taiji with th pig de, then make us wait so long, tmd can.
Stupid eden laa, I so guai wait for her so long, she pangseh me ._.
Tmdtmdtmd.
Anw, back t funny part (:
Th superchio & power girl shall be called: Princess ;D (I so boliao laa.)
Bo lan th boy is: Pig lo.
Eh I lazy elaborate story sia, maybe you go simin blog have write :D
It's sibei funny laa, even have video sehs (:
Pig che taiji with Princess, and obviously he lose laaa ._.
Then he had t lick and kiss Princess th shoe in koufu sia, DAMN FUNNY LAA.
And th shoe is covered with soil cos she go make in th plant there first.
Sibei funny laaa, who ask Pig che taiji lo.
Serve him right :D
Then everyone stare at us, sibei attention sia (:
Got one woman I think want call police sia, so boliao lo.
Not like we got do anything wrong lohr, knnb ccb.
Super entertaining today seh ;D
Hees, mai che taiji with Princess uhs (;

Reply t tags :D
t salwa, hahahs andrea's bodoh laa.
she won't hurt you, she dare, she's dead :D
ily too laaa, and yes im studying ._. can you believe it.
i even posted laaa, make you happy laaa D:
i will jiayous dehr, you too ;D

t FAITH., zhupengyou laaa! {3
aiyo, if liddat then nehmind lo, no zhu plushie for me laaa D:
dont sacrifice for me laaa, go buy your cube :D
cubes are fun t meddle & play with, but you pig, can play not? ;D
hahahs, ILY {3

t simin, BAOBEII laaaaa :D
hahahas, alright take your time hohr (:
i have th code, you want? i memorize liao ;D

I replied,
How nice am I? (Vomits blood.)
Tmrw maths test laaa D:
Hope I don't fail ):

Congrats t THEM :D
Mei & Him ♥
Last long yeah.
You two together cutecute laaaa (:

Maybe you mean it, maybe you don't.
But th feeling is there, somehow right.
But idk, but I dont wna lose you {/3

2008-04-15T20:53:00.003+08:00

See laa, I'm so nice lo, come and post for some people.
Tsktsk (I sound so aunty laa, but nevermind :D)
I need post alot of crap right, owe people so much, sian laa.
I just post what I feel like alrights, cos I have stm &, I'm lazy ;D
You people shall not whine cos I already posted.
Although its gna be filled with crap & all other crap, yay for joan (:

Details of my brithday all crap laaa D:
Idk how t say lo, those who never go, too bad hohr.
Bwahahas, then now you'll whine your ass off.
But just t let you guys know I didn't eat/sleep during those three days :D
Hahs, its so fun being so sleepy and retardedly hungry sometimes.
So yes, thanks t all who wished me happy birthday,
&, gave me presents :D
&, came t my party.
I will write a post dedicated t everyone oks (:
When I finally feel not lazy, which reminds me.
I still owe ashley & faith`zhupengyou a post dedicated t them rights D:
Must remind me hohr, if not I oldold stm will forget one.
Whee, I damn sian write longlong post laaa D;

I write today easier, I can remember everything, well most of it.
Morning wake up sibei sleepy laa, cos I was so guai and revise for geog :D
I rarely study laa, so must praise me when I do (: Ee, I'm so ego laa.
Don't mind me, I'm damn retarded cos I'm like super sleepy oks D:
Go school sleep awhile in th morning (;

Suddenly I lost th inspiration t go for mass run, then so lucky, tio cancelled :D
But then need go hall for lecture ._. Sibei sian laaa.
Principal dno talk what shit laa, I dont really care ;D
Then go back t class, cher check homework, I never do laaa ):
But he never scold leh, he always never scold me one, LOL.
Nehmind, then i skip recess study for geog in class, zomg can.
I can't believe I actually did it,
But I ate th chocolate bar Christine gave me :D ILH.
Then was maths, boring as usual, I don't bother listening t maths cher laa.
He super annoying one, lessons all bo fun (:
Only fun t make fun of him :D
Then got geog, suppose t have test de.
But cher forget tell us study for other chapters, then postpone t Friday ):
Wasted my time studying laa, but nehmind, now got more time :D
Hees, falalas.
Got CME, slacked a tons loads, but cher keep asking me stuff laa.
Then ask me talk about family, brother, then th whole class sibei funny laa ;D
Then got boringboring assembly.
About drugs de, slept throughout :D
Whees (: Until people started screaming for some unparticular reason ._.
Disturb my sleep in aircon, tmd.
Hahah I so random laa.
Thanks for th presents today people :D
Got th same bear as what elizabeth jie gave me, whee :D
Now I have two (:
OK STOP, so random laa me D:

After school, MRT-ed back with fina & kimberly.
Bought pearly soyabean, its super nice oks :D
Then crapped alot on th MRT laa, reached th station super early.
Didn't wna go home D:
So I called elizabeth jie, ask her where she lo.
Then she force me go t jurong west meet her & nick & rongfong & shawn & some other guy & ashley. So mean right.
Then walkwalk bus there lo, thanks rongfong help me carry my stuff ;D
Waited longlong for ash at bus stop but she bo lai, then we go th HDB around there slackslack.
Talked and slacked lo.
Nothing much laaa.
Then they take my ezlink card laaaa D: tmd, make me runrunrun.
Whacked (:
Finally ashley come lo, then she take bearbear hug.
She scold that fxcking melvin kwok laaa, tmrw maybe got free show lo (:
Lent her th bear one week, whees.
Then nothing much lo.
Don't feel like saying much more, but I enjoy their company :D
& cos I'm lazy t go on =x

Idk what you're really feeling, I'm scared. You say this and that, Your kisses may be sweet, Your hugs may be warm, But really, idk what t do. Cos sooner or later, it will wear off right. I'm sorry, Blame me, do whatever you want with me. It's my fault.
Idk about you, I'm sorry, There's nothing more I can say.

Reply t tags :D
t FAITH., yesyes my dear I will one laaaaa ;D
you take care too alrights.
no laa, its not, must relax lo, mai crycry le! that one is maybe they lucky nia laa :D

t fullest., hellos :D ohh oks.
- will relink you asap (;

t salwa, dont sorry! its ok laaa, i just suffer from stupid moodswings D:
relax my dear, ITS OK (:
- yeah, quite i suppose. and quite dark skinned too.

t stickerz, HAHS, dont angry at her laaa.
i ask her tell me one de anyway, your name so obvious laaaa.

t -aLy-, you ahhh. make people tag you then bo tag back D:
sheesh, hahs. thanksthanks! :D you're late though D; hees.
BE JEALOUS OF ME! (:

t salwa, andrea's so retarded lo.

t Harriel{3, go my credits there, th link is there :D
i get from there deh, got others also, you go slowly see lo.

t desiree, hahahs i will :D soon.
OHOH, yes i miss you guys super much! tell me when you guys have training and where,
i'll try t visit oks! ;D

t ♥ellennn:D, ohoh hellos :D
ah hahs, its alrights, thanks loadsloads ;D

t Lisa meii, oh thanks loads mei (:
will relink you de, jie loves {3

t ♥Curtains, ohoh`sorrysorry i didnt know D:
paisehs, now i know le (; hees, thanks loads!

t sumedha;D, hellos sumedhaaaaa :D
i will study hard de, but sure cannot win you laaa, you so pro lo! D:
no, its impossible, its like a DREAM that i dont even dare DREAM.
LOL, thanks su! you jiayous too {3

t ASHLEY :D, hello th humble one.
i will de laa, just once in awhile alrights. im sorry, please dont emo D:
loves & tc my dear {3

t elizabeth.{3, yes jie, i wont de :x
i just emo once in awhile cans D: sorry jie.
i will cheerup dehrs, ily {3

t FAITH., ZHUPENGYOUUU :D
I MISS YOU LOADSLOADS ALSO CANS ): STUPID ZHU LAAA YOU.
of cos want meet laaa, YOU ZHU! {/3
woah really ahhhhhhh, I WANT, wheeeee :D
ily zhupengyou! :D

Replied,
Enough said.

2008-04-14T21:07:00.003+08:00

Fxck laa, I really don't have time t post ok.
I'm studying idiots, stop thinking I don't and I'm so free t post everyday.
So don't think I'm not working hard t pass all my tests.
I am oks, just that I just keep failing, its not my fault.
So shut th fxck up if you don't know anything.
Don't give me your attitude cos' you know I won't give a fxck :D

Sorry guys.
I'm hiding all my emotions from now on,
I'm gna hide from everyone (:
I'll be th hyper girl everyone see from th outside,
You'll just never know what's on th inside {/3

Reply t tags :D
t ShiiYiing//*, I think this reply abit too late le, sorry ahr D:
I super slow dehs, paisehs.

t xCHOCO♥-FADE-, All my replys are super late sorry D:
I was hoping you could come though (:
But nevermind laaa, thanks for trying anyways :D

t daniel, Didi :D alrights.
-relinked le (:

t \ben|, Hellos ben (: hahahs its alrights laa.
I also busybusy, never reply tags D:
You jiayous too uhs ;D

t Rachel teo., Hees, thanks ahs :D
You super good at photoshop laa, I'm jealous oks ):

t FAITH., Ohoh my dear ZHUPENGYOU ;D
Ya laa, I'm a super busy pig oks, hahahhas :D
Mai scared laa, jiayous can liao (: Silver not bad laa! Don't crycry lo.
Yes my dear, I will de ;D

t CHRISTINE(:, Whee whee, no probs laaa ;D
Thanks lo my dear {3 yes! BBQ & dino shall reign, wahahas.
GO CHRISTINE :D

t salwa, Hahahs yeah. kinda :D
ILY too, and thanks (: its alrights laa, don't neglect your sleep girl.
- Hahahs, its alrights.

t mich, Yes he is ;D whoops so sorry!
Hahahs, thanks loads laaa (:
Its alrights ;D

t M-EGAN, Ohohs! THANKS junior (x

t zhihan, MAMA {3 whee thanks luh mama, for th present toos :D
My super zilian mama laaa (:

t ojasvi, Hello ojo ;D Thanks alot alrights! {3
- Oh, sorrysorry, my bad D;

t \`t a y m i n, Hello taymin! :D thanks lo MINMIN.
It's your birthday soon dear! HAPPY EARLY ONE T YOU, in case I forget :x

t ALINA, My crazy netballer :D
I will (: Remind me once in awhile in case I forget ;x

t Harriel x3, Mei, sorry sorry.
I've already relinked you already (:
You jiayous too, LOVES {3

t Curtains, Sorry you are? I'm abit crazy and i can't remember.
Anw, thanks loads laaa :D I don't rock, you do ;D whee.
Oh, it's alrights laaa. Hahahs, alrights :D
- Ooh, my reply is late D:
But its really alrights laaa (: Thanks loadsloads anyway.

t saddenboii, Elloello didi ;D
Thanks loads {3 love.

t Qori, Hey girl, hahahs.
Yeah I'll link you asap :D
- Oh okays, thanks.

t Clarice, !!! LOL.

t Atiqah, Ohoh thanks loads alrights! :D
Yes, I will get my revenge. (Evil laugh xD)

t salwa, Uh. who?
I know a Joy Lim, idk whether got th xin anot ;x

t ruth, HELLO RUTH! ;D
Ohoh yeah loooo D: Hahahs, thanks loads alrights! ;D
Its ok laaaa ;D Hees.

t CINDY ;D, CINDY AHHRXZXZ.
I'm perfectly sane lo, unlike you man le, tsktsk laa.
Hahs, I shall refuse cos I still haven't got your present LaoAhMa ;D
Whee, you're retarded :D

t hweepeng, THANKS! ;D

t samuel, Hellos dear kor ;D
Hahahs, glad (: It's alrights laaa, I still blame ruizong though, HAHS.
I love th present, super cute laa!
THANKS KOR, ily {3

t salwa, Some people are busy oks.
Tsktsk salwa D:
- Actually you are! D: boozxz.

t stickerz, ANDREA LA.
& what th fish in name is with this name laaa ._. bodoh.

t daniel, RELINKED ;D

t Lisa, Hello meimei ;D
Thanks loads (:

t salwa, Yeah I know.
Sheesh.

OHMYTIAN.
Finally replied all, I promise I will update, soon D:
Mini updates? LOL.
1204, Birthday {3, Third Month (:
1404, Emil Birthday ;D HAPPYBDAEEE.
I studied like fxck today, oh my.
Go my friendster too oks, I've revamped it ;D
Laogong can finally sms {3
And I know,
whatever it takes,
yesterday won't come back anymore.

2008-04-13T16:44:00.002+08:00

i know i promised t post after my birthday right.
well, I LIED (:
i no mood post now laaa, but i will post dehrs.
whee :D
thanks all who gave me present and wished me happy birthday {3
i'll give details later alright :D

i lost th mood.

2008-04-10T21:29:00.002+08:00

Faith's bugging me t reply my tags, sheesh la you.
Salwa's begging me t post, and i refuse.
Ashley's asking me t post too, and i have t dedicate a post t her :D
Everyone's asking me t post, RAHHS ):
I shall promise you a picture post (if i manage t take pictures),
after my birthday oks :D
I love you guys.
But I shall only reply tags now, zomg, so many ):

Reply t tags {3
BeForU: hellos :D hahhaas, thanks (: whee.
- ah hahas, nvmnvm {3

ASHLEY :D: there is a such thing my dear,
you just dont know it (;

CHRISTINE(:: stupid laa, fisherman!
must ask again and beg like crap oks, FOR TH TWISTER ):

su!medha: hellos :D ahahas alrights, thanks then.
its alrights laaa, can understand your situation (:

mich: no laaa, ask my brother bring. my brother is nice, he'll bring you.
unless he decides t be mean of cos. hahs!
uhm, a chalet, like condo like that i think, im not sure! D: sorry.

ShiiYiing//*: yo hellos there :D
- no laaa, mine sucks lo, yours nicenice. i like plain, hees.
- ohhhs, sad laaa.
- woah so stress. just try t make it lo, if you can (:

eden ; ♥!: hahahs, pon-er laaa you, TOO BAD MEAN ASS :D yesyes, had fun with you too! {3 whees.
- what stars. im confused 0_o

coco{333: coco! :D
- LOOOL.
- thanks lo (:

FAITH: hello pig :D IM NOT LO, IS YOU LAHHH, bodoh.
you made me cry oks, you mean ass zhupengyou! {3
- ya laaa, you attack human (me, duh), and you're super mean. hmph!

zhihan: mama, hahahs thanks :D whees.

ALINA: HELLOS CRAZYNETBALLER (:
hahahs suppose t go on sat :D come alrights! {3 yay.

salwa: i wont, hahas. too bad :D
thanks lo, you better come.

JaGGLuBoB:EEE, stupid msg laa, dont call me that lo. kay lahhh, i will dehr, LOOOL. ily loads toos (:

SHARON-: uh idk cant remember D: paisehs.
tell you on msn (:

Lisa: hellos mei, okoks. thanks :D
ok, i will dehrs, sorry ahrzxz.

daniel: ok i will.
- but what link? ;x

megAN:D: oh hellos :D thanks.
oks, i will (: nps {3

FAITH.: sorry laaa, myzhuzhu D:
- zomg laaaa, you siao already isit. i dont lo! CRAZY ZHUPENGYOU.
- crazy laaa you, dingdong! :D LOL.

SEE FAITH, I REPLIED, YOU ZHUZHU ):
i will still dedicate my posts t you ashley, dont worry.
ILY & IMY , th world (:

2008-04-06T13:41:00.005+08:00

HELLO WORLD :D
here's th invitation t me & honey's birthday next week.
all is welcome, just tell me if you're coming alrights.
sms me uhs {3

DETAILS :D

Place: 60 Pasir Ris Drive 3, The Aranda (its like super near Escape Theme Park :D)

Date & Time: 11, 12 & 13 April - two nights sleepover.
11th (friday) - only can check in after 3pm, those who can make it today tell me oks!
most likely we'll be slacking and planning and preparing all th stuff today :D
12th (saturday) - those people who coming today, come anytime you want. just tell me first oks D: don't suddenly pop up and ask me entertain you (: LOL.
we'll probably be at escape? or wherever, planning not done yet D:
at night, have BBQ :D eat ahhhrs!
and then we'll probably be slacking our day away lahr oks :D
13th (sunday) - need t check out before noon ._.
those who sleepy wna go home or got something on can go.
if not can stay and then go out slack? ;D

What To Bring: uh, lets see.
1) CLOTHES :D (if you're staying over, if you're not just bring extra in case.)
2) MONEY :D (maybe for food if we're eating out, and escape toos!)
3) GAMES :D (to last us through th night, board games, poker cards? anything!)
4) FOOD :D (like chips and crap, there'll be loads there, just in case you want more?)
5) HOMEWORK :D (this sounds so crap lahrs. but in case you scared cannot do finish on sunday, just bring lo ._.)
6) SWIMMING STUFF :D (im not sure lahrs, just bring in case. if don't want then nvm lo.)
7) OTHER CRAP :D (idk, whatever you wna bring lo. water gun also can, wet some ppl :D hahs!)
8) LAPTOPS :D (this is like so optional oks. im not sure whether there's internet there anot. SORRY PEOPLE, but if you wna bring, you can :D)

Transport: for those people who can come on th 11th, i may be able t fetch you guys there :D
OTHER DAYS: mrt? if you have transport probs, tell me (: call me.

OK IM DONE (:
any more things you need t know: CALL ME/SMS ME!
you know my number rights.
if you don't i'll slap you :D

&. please tell me via msn, sms, call whether you can come oks :D
tell me ASAP! {3
thanks loads,
with truckloads of love ❤

2008-04-04T20:42:00.004+08:00

~~what hurts th most,~~
~~is being so close.~~
~~& having so much t say,~~
~~and watching you walk away.~~

didnt post yesterday right, im getting lazy t blog, ugh.
but i shall, cos.. im always bored once in awhile, lols.
oh well, here goes.

Yesterday :D
morning was th collection of money uh, my card was empty ._.
& i panicked so i just took out my mama's $50 and gave t th teacher.
ugh, when she finds out, there goes my head D:
oh well, im bound t die like sooner or later, so who cares yeah.
then had PE, th other half on th class had t do th napfa thing, so th first half went t do exercise.
th teacher gave me a list of things, ask me ask them do.
was like simple things like, ten round & all th crap ass stuff.
i rather go run 2.4 lahrs ._.
and somebody wanted t starve during recess.
then had maths, ugh.
then teacher came today ._. he's like super hated please.
but today he was extra nice cos we were bring video-ed for like th whole lesson.
and this other teacher at th back evaluating dno what crap lahrs.
couldnt bother t give a damn, downright slack.
then had chinese, teacher lost my tingxie.
sibei dulan, how could she lahrs.
hack lahrs, confirm is she donte like me, lols! ;D

after school had PBL, super slack agains.
quarelled with her.
hey, if you really wna starve yourself t death just t lose weight,
i cante just stare and do nothing oks.
aneroxic bitch, wake up already.
you told me not t care, cos this had nothing t do with me.
now i know, you never treated me, as your friend.
then went for netball, my love.
today was combined training with th seniors, super fun.
we were like introducing ourselves lahrs, then th coach also super funny (:
warm up was like 2.2km around th kennel, was super high after that.
running longlong makes me high, not tired ._.
everyone says im abnormal, oh well. coach ran with us. (its rare she runs with any of us.)
she doesnt even run with th seniors, so she said we must be honoured :D
then after that strtching, then introducing thing lo.
we were damn annoyed with th NPCC & NCC people, shouting their ass off.
and we were downstairs purposely making fun of them, lols.
anyways, then we were training then rain T_T
ughugh, stupid rain.
then we had t train indoors, which was like damn little space lahrs.
badminton was using th hall so we used all th space we had.
we had t do highest point &, all other passes plus some others, im just lazy t say =x
then after training saw weqin boyfriend {3
she took mrt home ): ugh, mama said i cante, cos she was on her way.
then was super sleepy in th car and slept uhs.

came back home, slack :D
talked on msn with loadloads of people, how i miss them like fxck, please.
super emo & quiet at home.

i cante take it anymore ;x
its too much for me, too much.
im sorry.
i think its too much already, not only me but others.
too much at one go D:

Today :D
hello world.
joan is not in a good mood today ):

had road run in th morning, 1.6km +
i love running {3 whoo.

th whole day in school was crap lahrs.
nothing really nice t talk about, really.
shall skip t after school where it gets uhm, not so boring? ._.

went t old folks home, peacehaven.
lols, i love bus trips, always hyper like crap one.
i changed on th bus, from PE attire t uniform, sibei hot uhs (:
its not like i stripped on th bus when everyone was looking oks ._. donte think sick.
AH WHY AM I TALKING ABOUT THIS.
crapped loads on th bus then finally reached.
suay uhs, spilt into groups then go into different rooms.
& our group got th all male room ._. hahs.
alyssa & namirah did hiphop dance, then we sing song uhs.
then high pitch part suddenly dno why only i sing sia :x sibei weird hohr.
lalalas, then crapped & laughed loads, then went t give biscuits and chatted with them.
then this uncle talk about th past so sad until cry.
aww man, i felt super bad can, cos i was th one talking t him ;x
then talked t a few more, laughed like crap (:
whoots, then we sang more songs and laugggggh! ;D
we sang barney th ILOVEYOU (: we were being nice oks.
then crapped more on th way home, but alyssa was being all moody ._. dulan.
blah, crapped.
& im super pissed today, thanks t billions of ppl.

MSN, make me love everyone (:
gandear & laogong, imy uhs! D:

2008-04-02T22:25:00.001+08:00

~~everything's wrong.~~
i have decided t give away all my love,
cos i donte think i deserve any.

im gonna cause pain on myself if anyone if you do it t yourself.
its like 10 ppl hurting, and me, one person helping.
its too much.

2008-04-02T18:30:00.006+08:00

hello fellow earthings :D (this sounds so weird.)
i know i've been mean &, not posting, well t some of you.
FINE I SHALL POST, ever since i stopped from whatever date (:
hahs, if my tiny brain can even remember anything.
joan suffers from stm D: feel sad for her.
lols, i sound so retarded today cans :x'
ok, th post looks formal, cos i typed it in microsoft word D:
SEE PEOPLE, I HAVE POSTED.
faith, im no longer a pig :D

270308, Thursday :D
I was too sleepy to post yesterday, so I shall post today ;D
due t stm, I think I completely forgot everything that happened yesterday oks.
so, its gna be a super boring post! Yay D:
blahblahblah, th days goes by with me damn hard trying not t dose off in class.
many thanks t andrea for warheads :D hahs, that helped me stay awake, for awhile.
andand my sweets I bought yesterday ;D I finished th whole bar oks, zomg.
but donte worry, I wasn’t insane and finished everything, I SHARED!.
with other people who was dozing off in class, especially Chinese, hahahahas.
so yeah, sweets helps you keep awake for awhile, then you feel more sleepy, hahs.
ohohs, YES, I finally remember what I had today (:
NAPFA UHS ;D I love napfa cans.
actually I love everything related t sports ._. which in fact, includes napfa.
&, while im here typing crap, you readers are reading crap toos :D yays.
ok, that was boliao -.- back t my day.
ah hahs, I love everything th most oks, andand I got gold, I think.
all that’s left is 2.4km, and I donte think I will fail lahrs, borderline pass? ;x
so yes, I love shutterrun th most oks :D i got faster than my fastest for my netball senior, HAHS! ;D
oks, I sound so proud, I shall not be proud D; be HUMBLE ._.
gawd, im full of crap oks D:
those who do not wish t tolerate more crap can stop reading already (:
back t napfa, I cante believe I actually could jump for standing broad jump, I thought I would fail.
I got A/B I thinks, cante remember, and my sit and reach too!
IM PROUD OF MYSELF {3
im so ego now right, oks, no more bragging.
anyways, th one thing I donte like is, im THIRTEEN ._.
somehow, im always one year older than th rest, sheesh man, and my birthday haven’t even come yet oks! D:
I protest uhs! D: not my fault im born IN april rights! D:
sheesh sheesh.
I sound like some spoilt brat, lols ._.

then I forgot what happened for like, th whole day D:
only remembered got netball training after that ;D which is totally loved.
coach never come uhs, so we trained with seniors.
seniors today super nice lahrs, never scold :D everytime train with seniors they scoldscold dehrs.
but today never scold, somemore super nice (:
but had t do PT, and it wasn’t tiring ;D surprisingly. Hahahs, but I tio cut on arm -.- minor nias.
sarah couldn’t do her pushups, was super funny lahrs ;D th whole team do with her.
including seniors, NETBALL TEAMWORK {3
lols, then went t court & played netball, th real game :D
I played every position oks, except GS, cos I cante shoot at all :D its true.
im blind or something, hahahahas, but everything was super fun lahrs.
then th seniors say each stepping we do, 10 starjumps, cos we keep on stepping :x
in th end, total we did 16 steppings :x whole team lahrs, nvm, we must have teamwork dehrs!
omg, 160 starjumps :x
after we did, we were like blurblur uhs, damn funny lahrs, we keep laughing although tired :D
funny cos Christine need go toilet, then she damn tired suddenly do sibei fast &, run t toilet, hahahahahs.
must see her, damn funny oks!
then after that seniors talk with us abit then dismiss lehrs.
but then we wanted t do more, so we play crocodile :D seniors allow uhs.
loser team must treat winner team 100plus, hahahas my team lose, nehmind uhs, th fun is all that matters :D
netball is like super fun lahrs.
ohs, thanks weqin boyfriend for waiting for me one hour :D ILY loads! {3
hahhas, I bet band was super fun ._. blow your heavy tuba! :D
oks, that was plain crap. Anyways, mama was at foyer waiting for me already.
then fetched weqin home toos, on th way mahrs (:
smsed weqin in th car &, crapped talked loads on th car :D
&, she said i stinked. Blame my pe shirt, blame it ;x
I had t use it for napfa &, netball oks, perspire like crap lahrs! :D
hahahas, was non-stop smsing in th car t weehao gandear, lorraine senior, weqin boyfriend ;D

im full of crap (:
love me for that.

280308, Friday :D
everything I cante remember again ._.
im pissed with my brain, it cante store things I wna remember, hahahas.
well, I’ll try though (:
had t bring loads of stuff t school oks, cos got play today.
then in th morning got MASSRUN :D yay, I love mass run, like idk what, cos it rocks my socks :D
im one of th rare people who love mass run apparently ._. oh well, im special, hahahahahs.
then runrunrun, then sweat like crap agains lahrs! D:
have t use th same pe shirt for netball training again later, dulan uhs.

went back up t class, then had t bring all our play props down again t MPR, t perform.
everyone was fighting for th most aircon place, cos we were all sweating like crap =x
then cher come down lehrs, ask us draw lots see who go first.
so suay, number two ._. hahahas, but luckily not number one.
but th number one group is our class th best lahrs :D in my opinion.
anyways, before that, we had t change lo, then everyone was fighting for toilet, hahahas.
then I go handicap one, no need queue :D
then after I come out, fina &, salwa said they would date me, if they were boys -.-
hahahas, I bet I looked ugly & fugly, HAHS.
so anyways, then our turn lehrs, then act lo, then we go play around with th cher, damn funny siahs.
cher say if next week whole week I pay attention in class, she give me honour point :D
so nice rights, so I must pay full attention next week! ;D hahahahahhaas.
after that went for recess, saw weqin boyfriend ;D she’s so super loved lahrs.
then went back t class for Chinese :D
I haven’t hand in my file, diedie lehrs! Luckily teacher never scold :x
then Chinese let off late, had t rushrush for music lahrs; aircon agains.
tio scolded abit by teacher, then went through powerpoint, she didn’t really like our group one, lols.
heck uhs, then went for science lahrs.
science is forever super funny lahrs, cos th cher always damn funny :D
but he also got scold abit lahrs, but he’s nice (:
suppose t take my test today for science, but th cher let me off, ask me study more, Monday than take :x
he’s super nice &, funny, lols. I used t donte like him ._. HAHAHHAS, im a retard.
whoots, suppose t school end dehrs, then had t go for th tablet pc update dno what crap lahrs-.-

didn’t eat lunch.
that time I already emo, dno why, I think cos I was super sleepy ;x
then was in a daze in th com lab, cos I was sleepy &, I had t go for my compo test.
ugh, I was like super only one pressurized lahrs, cos I was kinda late liaos D:
then I had netball also ._. omg, I have a lot of stuff lahrs, and its only me oks!
after awhile, I ask my friend take care my tablet I go rush off t library for test.
I so rush I forgot bring foolscape, then had t run back, on th way saw yanying, ask her lend me.
thanks loads alrights! :D ily yanying! ;D hahahahas.
thenthen, rush back t library, totally no mood t write compo lahrs D: sibei dulan cans.
so anyhow write, confirm fail ones, I didn’t even write according t th topic lo.
heck lehrs, no mood no mood!
then had t rush for netball training, was VERYVERYVERY larte D:
Alyssa didn’t take all my stuff so had t run back t com lab and get and then run down again ._.
I today run everywhere around school uhs, sian.

anyways, then run down go netball court, they start training lehrs.
then I did my own warm up &, stretching, thanks guys for cheering me on :D
lols, everyone cheers everyone anyways.
then some seniors came &, help us train (:
since I was late, one of seniors do with me one on one th passes, she super nice ;D
then after that done liaos, we play captains ball & then real netball :D
quite tired around th end lahrs, but super fun! :D
then most of us felt hungry then went t buy snacks (:
then Monique wanted t jog, then me &, Alyssa pei her lohrs, five rounds.
after that, really hungry lehrs :D
wanted t go home, slack.

was super sleepy D:
but got a lot of stuff t carry home, so called mama come fetch me.
then she say cannot, ask me go her office first, take taxi.
I was like, huh oks lohrs, cos I dno where, scared lost, LOLS! Im a little spoilt girl ._.
Alyssa was crapping t me about taxi drivers, cos I was gna take alone mahrs.
she say must look for those oldold man, then must look out whether I going t secluded place anot, she’s super funny lahrs.
then th taxi I got th guy young dehrs, then my mama office in secluded place.
HAHAHAHAS, cracked me &, Alyssa up lahrs, then we smsed while I was in th taxi.
th taxi fare ex. uhs, $9.70, nehmind, my mama pay :D whee thanks.
then slack at her office awhile, type type crap uhs, no internet cos company ones ._.
luckily only got few people there, no one stare :D
except this guy, stare like crap, siao ehs, hahahahahas :D
then after awhile, go back home lo, buy dinner on th way home, KFC ;D
but I didn’t eat it, my bro did :D LOLS.
then slacked a lot, smsed lots, msned lots &, I cante rmb th rest ._.
blahblahblah, time goes by.

290308, Saturday :D
I totally cannot remember what happened today lahrs D:
except some stuff, lols.
I think I practically slacked th whole day manzxz.
I wonder why I didn’t post lahrs! D: what’s wrong with me siahs.
ugh, today has nothing t talk about.
I was like practically home alone th whole day, and in a rather sleepy mode, LOLS.
ohohs` I was quiet at my ahma house ._. super sleepy lahrs, tio scolded abit also :x
anyways, then went downstairs & played monopoly with my cousins (:
its damn fun lahrs, really! ;D
then was smsing like alotalotalot t gandear, ILY, loadsloadsloads.
he always pei me no matter what dehrs, super love.
hahahhas, I owned my cousins & uncle at monopoly :D was super fun oks.
I know I sounds super childish, but that’s me yeah (;
face th fact, hahs! ;D
nothing much, slept super late, was smsing gandear &, others ;D
weqin boyfriend’s superpig :D

300308, Sunday :D
went t buy FBT shorts for th team today (:
fbts are super sexy & love.
hahahhas, although its like super short lahrs, that’s why its nice with our school shirt.
our school shorts sucks like.. ugh :x
its like super baggy please, even coach agrees, hahs :D
then was like spam smsing people in th early morning (: gandear toos ;D
ok, then bought th shorts lehrs, went home, SLACK (:
&, I was guai and did homework oks, donte say I didn’t.
I DID :D
and nothing really happened today ._.
slacked & smsed th whole day.
I have 2000 free smses this month {3 im super happy cans!
nothing happened on Sunday, dull luhs ._.
life so boring, sibei dulannnn.

sorry t th whole world {/3
sorry.
sorry sorry.

310308, monday :D
(hahs, no more microsoft already :D
&, i shall cut away all th sad parts, yay no more sad posts!)
IM DAMN LAZY T TYPE ALREADY LAHRS, zomg.
hand breaking liaos ._.
yes, im a spoilt brat, live with it manzxz.
went back t school, papa fetch in th morning. mama went, overseas. lols.
morning had literature, last group t perform.
damn funny lahrs th skit, super cool :D
then i was super PAYING ATTENTION (: yays, i love th aircon shes.
today is super early recess day, lols. hahahhahas, im random.
then had com class, everyone was like not paying attention.
well, including me.
i have no clue what was going on man. was chatting like siao :D
ohohs` cos our school has this system.
its exactly like msn :D but only for crescent ppl, BUT ITS COOL ENOUGH OKS.
can chat like msn in class, im so so so so so, loving that thing :D
cmon, be jealous of me (: i sound so mean -.-
so yes, had science! YAY FUNNY CLASS (: lols.
got geog, super funny also.
some sort of animation thing done by cher, super cute :D
then i forgot what i did after school D: damn it.
omg, i really forgot.
oh well, wait tell i remember then edit lo ._.

010408, tuesday :D
APRIL'S HERE PEOPLE, HAPPY APRILS' FOOL :D
im damn high today manzx, played like 9012836928176 pranks of people.
hahahahhas, especially in th morning.
cos im like one of th earliest in school, then can prank like th whole world.
super fun cans ;D
i know im evil, face it, falalalalalas.
morning had science, FUNNY CLASS (: im damn hyper today uhs.
science teacher, man, also know how crack april fool joke.
tell us today got science test ._. hahahas, then i from th back shout aprils fool.
th whole class laugh :x
HYPER BAYBEH (:
so everything would be high! ;D
lols, then had maths, CHER BO COME, super nice lahr today (:
stupid MSG never come, whole class rejoice lo!
then we did th class tees, DINO BAYBEH {3
hahahs credits t me for finding th pic, eeyerhs, im so ego please -.-
anyways, dino is love; gawdzilla.
blah im crap.
th class was like fighting over like every single thing ._. sibei mafun uhs.
then got geog again, PAID ATTENTION AND TOOK NOTES.
omfg, i thought i lost my notes ._. scared th shyt outta me.
then CME, cher was super nice!
he let us copy book for test, LOLS (:
bwahahahas, maybe he loves our class too much sehs.
no assembly today, got prefect investiger(?).
then is class interaction.
then we do th class tee again, i was at th back smsing and spamming like siao :D
and crapping of cos (:

then went for netball training! ;D
coach came (: whee, but didnt do much training today lahrs.
coach was teaching all th rules &, all, quite boring :x
but at least got learn lahrs! ;D
then stand until leg super suan uhs D: hahahhaas.
after awhile then finally play one round netball, yays!
saw ximian senior walking around with BOYS, lols other prefects lahrs.
wishy washyyy :D hahahas, only alyssa should understand.xD
super funny lahrs, today (:
ohohs` then th seniors bib with us, then we donte have th key :x
then th seniors ask us t stuff in th cage =x IMPOSSIBLE OKS.
but nothing is impossible, its like damn.. hard lahrs! funny also :D
stuff like siao uhs.
FIFI SENIOR SUPER NICE! ;D
she gave us free food, hahahahhas, cos got leftover from th prefect thing.
hahahs then she from second floor throw down, we catch :D
super funny (:
APRILS FOOL ;D
11 more days t my bdae! ;D

020408, TODAY :D
finally reach today ._.
AND IM LAZY T GO ON (:
hahahahhas, today was hyper lahrs oks, TH END.
lols, MSG never come again today! shiokk {3
class tee looks great, thanks t squisheeeh :D
okoks, no more, im damn lazy t go on lehrs ._.
SORRY LAHHHRS :x
okoks, i post after school dehrs, more interesting.
went t hall for fun, aircon on! :D
hahahas sharlene always on it for her team dehrs (: i like, lols.
then was like hypering, and rehearsing th dance with alyssa they all.
in th end they put me in th dance ._. &, i cante dance people.
HELLO? JOAN CANTE DANCE.
even one step, hahs.
then was like shouting & running, wheeeees {3
hyperhyper! :D
I LOVE TODAY ;D
020408 x3

playground love,
sealed with a kiss ♥

~~thanks for everything today.~~
~~twice, i'll never forget :D~~
~~i hate love, its so confusing :x~~

2008-03-31T21:39:00.004+08:00

i know i havent been posting D:
sorry faithful reader (like there's any :x)
i promise, i will post tmrw! :D
cos th draft is in my other tablet, hahahas.
so yes, I PROMISE.
i love you guys {3

&, im sorry.
i was wrong, please forgive me.
i just couldnt help it.

tomorrow's april.
first of april, april's fool my dears.
;D

thanks lisa mei.
its' really sweet! :D and cutecute.
thanks!

wo shi da sha gua ;
gandear, ILY <3

2008-03-28T22:12:00.003+08:00

hyper mood: im down in th dumps down ._.
suppose t post about yesterday, today rights, and i just lost th mood ._.
&, i did a draft in my tablet, so i shall post tmrw alrights, sorry D:
im just really, confused &, emo now.
hahahs, im always emo & confused rights ._.
&, i feel super sick now.
i think i look super pale & i keep vomitting ._.

jie cheer up oks :D
all your problems will go away ones.
donte need t care about me, im siaosiao ;D
di, have confidence (:
you can dehrs, jie support you all th way alrights!
donte give up uhs {3
laogong, ily ♥

idk what t do ):
im crazy, siao, my mind's always in a whirl.
i cante make up my mind for simple things, simple decisions.
its getting into my life, im losing focus in class, everything.
i only somehow can concentrate in training cos im venting everything i got into there.
i know looking back into th past is useless, but sometimes i just do.
cos looking at th present now just makes me.. idk.
i donte see anything nice happening now, except that i love netball.
netball is all im loving now, in school.
i hate everything else.
idk who t confide in, who t talk t. myself? i think its th only companion i have for now.
why am i labelled as in this group/in that group.
why do people label people.
idk really, how t feel now.
sad? confused? angry? happy? emo? idk.
if i had one wish, it would be never t be here, in this world.
i donte find a meaning ._. i mean eveything sucks.
no one comforts, maybe not in right way, maybe im just over sensitive.
history keeps repeating itself over & over again.
im scared :x
idk what t do, no one can help me.
everyone keep saying, joan's so cheerful, she's trouble free :D
that's great right, i mean everyone thinks im so happy.
faking smiles are hard, yeahs.
maybe one day i wonte.
actually i have started not t, and i think people have noticed.
i've been labelled emo by countless of people, idk why.
maybe i am emo, and maybe im not.
im doing all i can, just t make myself smile everyday.
th hurt never fades away, really it never.
i donte even know what others are thinking.
they just seem t be this way one day & another on some other day.
i think i should stop being so hyper anymore.
it really isnt worth it, th drop so low.
i mean, you high for once & then something breaks you down twice as hard.
i've grown so numb t all th hurt, too much already.
no one understands me. no one can.
if i cante even understand myself, how can you.
how can you know th tears i hide;
how would you know how much it hurts.

cross my heart out,
i donte want it anymore.

2008-03-27T21:04:00.002+08:00

hyper mood : on, on & on! {3
SUPER SHORT NOTE ;D
hahahs, cos i decided t be guai today & do homework oks.
ugh, but i'll post about today either later/tomorrow :D
okoks, donte miss me too much ._.
72 people online :D hahahas.

laogong, cheerups alrights :D
EVERYONE CHEER UP ALRIGHTS!
th only person that can be sad in th world is me, hahs.
so everyone else, BIGBIG SMILES oks.
spam sms is love {3

2008-03-26T21:41:00.004+08:00

hyper mood: ON ;D for awhile, at least.
finally, hyper mood on, at least it lasted for few hours.
thanks t laogong, elizabeth jie, siyuan di, weehao di & weqin boyfriend ♥
they're all super loved ;D
idk what i'll be without them (:
& of cos, everyone else, I SUDDENLY LOVE TH WORLD (;
(im posting cos people told me t, MY FANS :D
hahahahahahhahahahahs!)

in school, wasnt high, at all.
as usual, hahs, im never high in school at all, i rarely talk actually.
im still sick, phlegm in throat & flu ._.
coughing & wheezing like siao cans.
but i feel much better today :D much better than yesterday.
lessons was kinda oks today, didnt fall asleep (:
although i slept in class in th morning before assembly.
& i need sweets t keep myself awake in class oks, and i ran out today.
but still never sleep :D
morning was d&t, chers all missing, so got relief, and he had no voice ._.
donte ask me, hahs.
then slack then rush back t class for literature, slack uhs.
whole day was rather spastic, blurblur everywhere i go ones.
& im a ditcher ;D cos i donte like talking in school ;x
anyways, then got higher chinese, shit lahrs, alot of stuff need t do!
but i dno how do, tmrw sure die liaos, comfirm DIE, cos i think left some stuff in school.
idk lahrs! D: fxck manzxz.
tmrw i prepare death bed lo, diediedie ._.
oh well, die then die bahrs, i want t anyways, hahahas ;D
then got some maths & science, school end lo!
shiok sehhs ;D

rush t mrt station uhs (:
meet weehao di for first time ._. LOLS.
went with amalina, she promise she will pei me go see him ones oks!
then when reach there, siyuan di just went home oks D: tmd!
suppose t meet elizabeth jie also anyways.
then, amalina sibei bad, pangseh me go home oks ._.
now i cannot identify who is weehao le lohrs ); nvm, still can sms.
then elizabeth jie came! :D finally sias, i love her ;D she never pangseh me ones.
is always i cannot make it for her dehrs, sorry jie.
anyways, then she eat cheese fries, lalalas, i sat there and sms siyuan & weehao.
& we crap talked alot :D
then decided t call siyuan di down ;D yays, he say can! say 5 min, in th end take 25 min? ;x
HAHAHAHS (:
anyways, finally weehao di came, AND with five other boys.
& i dno who is who oks, all same height, wear school uniform ._.
but then i sms then ask elizabeth jie see which one read sms, HAHAS ;D
oks, then he was sibei paisehs ._.
sat th table beside us, then his friends were.. crapping? LOLS.
finally after like 98281372638 years, siyuan di finally came :D
hahahs, and we crap talked loads agains {3 he's super loved.
then siyuan keeps taking my phone oks, rahhhs.
mean lahr he, then cannot take his phone -.-
then while siyuan went through my sms, he was like, "who's weehao?"
then th whole group of us, started laughing like crap cos he was just beside siyuan.
oks, we love crapping :D
then after awhile, weehao finally said hi, LOLS.
then i said hi back ;D HAHS, and we continued smsing.
was super high then lahrs.
saw chiobu xiner! ;D & chengwu, i thinks.
i see alot of people i know ._.
thenthenthen, we crapped more, then weehao & his friends go liaos.
say byebye, then went with siyuan di go shopping ;D
hahahs, he's super funny lahrs.
PINK SHIRRTTTT {3
hahahs (: so me and elizabeth pei siyuan shopping.
while on th way we went t buy some stuff, sweets & penknifes, whoots (:
thenthen, siyuan bought a sexy shirt from VIP ;D
bwahahahas, th whole thing was super funny.
was kinda a little emo at th end but nvms, i love all of them.
thanks siyuan di for sending us t bus interchange :D
bused home with elizabeth jie (:
ate macs icecream :D
& i just realised i didnt eat lunch, hahahas.
so random, yes i know.
then when i came home, didnt feel that well.
vomitted, ughs ;x
disgusting, yes i know D:

you know you donte mean a thing in my heart.
face th fact.
donte think you do, cos you donte.
why cante i forget you, why.
its probably my stupidity, i really dk.
idk, maybe.. i just donte wish t know.
sorry di, couldnt call you today, paisehs D:
tomorrow im dead, certainly ._.

2008-03-25T20:28:00.003+08:00

hyper mood : i donte think it'll ever on, ever again.
i didnt feel like posting today,
but salwa asked me t, she said she wanted t read :D
hahahs, loyal fans, *vomit blood* lols.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FINA! ;D

hahahs, sorry didnt get you a gift :D

but, treated you recess, hahahs, i know im crapping ):

i love th bear alyssa gave you, cute oks, hahahs, i want one! :D

donte you dare get me a sucker for my birthday, i'll ask it t suck you :D

oks, enough of crap.

went t school, flu & slight fever i think ._.

eyes like super pain, watery & red, like some kind of retard, hahs.

finally, today have mass run :D

sick people can run oks, not like im disabled or something.

i ran alone today, emo much? yes i think so too (:

then went infront, saw andreamae, with her friendfriend, then run with them lohrs.

finished then found nobody at my class row -.-

& alyssa wore her shorts th wrong side, its damn hilarious oks (:

today new timetable, super blur.

then science, paid super much attention oks.

being sick helps me pay attention, just t let you guys know, LOLS.

then today timetable change, recess is SUPEREARLY {3

whoots (: th canteen is empty, so silent 0.o

then went back t class for maths.

i think i was "showing too much sickness", lols, cos cher called me out,

then ask me go home, he say must take care! ;x LOLS, but in th end i donte want (;

so stay in school like some sickly retard, blahblah th day went by.

i took ALL th notes in geog oks, amazing, my illness -.-

i didnt sleep in class at all today, although i was GOING T, i didnt ;D

yays, lols, lmao.

then CME cher bo lai, agains, free period :D

& then we kinda forgot about assembly, then we had t rush like crap (:

luckily not late, hahahs! heng like siao.

today th talk oks lahrs, is people from disney channel come & talk about some show.

crap, hahahs, and i didnt bother wearing my tie properly.

after that went down for netball lohrs (;

training was fun but tiring today lahrs, but super fun :D lols.

legs super suan oks D: baikah agains! lols, random.

laogong makes me smile alot ♥

havent talked t him super long lehrs, super miss him cans!

he's super funny, please.

& seriously, i think she likes you :D it makes me laugh alot (:

not that im crazy or smth, it just makes me laugh ;D

kor, cheer up oks (:

donte cry over your jie lehrs, why not you talk t her?

mei see you like that sad also, cheer up oks {3

jie cheer up loads alrights.

return back t th bubbly jie i knew :D

donte worry too much, everything will be fine.

mei see you like that xintong, so you must smile {3

donte smile for me, smile for yourself.

kor, SMILE FOREVER ;D
hees, i love korkor's smile (:

&. everyone can cry alrights, didnt say you cante.

but after that, MUSTMUST cheer ups alrights (:

meilovesyou! {3

&.YAY, th chalet's booked :D

Aranda i think, honey booked it, im just luanluan now.

its at pasir ris there, 11-13 april, cos minimum booking two nights.

so, if you can stay both nights, tell me oks (:

stay one night also cans (:

donte stayover also cans, just tell me :D

we'll entertain you for th whole day ;D

ok, im so random, pff.

random, random.

emo, emo.

idk what th hell im saying ;x

she smiles like everyone expects her to.

she's living up to the expectation of never letting anything get to her.

but something's wrong with that smile today.
congratulations, kid. you got to her.

quoted from salwa {3

2008-03-24T20:27:00.005+08:00

hyper mood : oh gawd, just murder me.
today, bad day, bad day.
i donte even wna talk about school, please.
cos school sucked like it never did before.
i knew i shouldnt have transferred t crescent, *slaps myself*
blame my stupidity, thats all i can say.
i hate today, cos im crying now, i really donte know what t do.
i think i cry too much, im wasting tears.
i think i just cante take too much emotions at one go.
im useless, im just not myself, me, anymore.

school sucked, as i said.
i hate school, really, everything, everyone, hahs.
i sound so emotic now, which probably i am ._.
i donte like talking in school anymore, really.
if you guys donte wna talk t me too, im fine (: just get on with life.
donte think i'll die without you babe, i'll be fine, with/without you.
you're not that important t me, just remember that, alrights.
donte overestimate yourself my dear, cos you're nothing in my heart.
anyways, there's a new timetable, in which i havent received yet ):
tmrw die liaos lo, no timetable.
good form cher never come today, morning got two free peroids.
finished up music project, powerpoint is love, hahahs.
then maths, my fun with construction got prob ones, sian diao.
neverminds, then slacked all th way till th end of school lohrs, aircon all th way.
com class was super funny today ;D
and today was free-balloon day, hahahs, in a way lahrs (:
got one purple & blue, super love oks ♥
did my science retest today, gna fail again, hahs.
training netball postpone tmrw, sobs.
hope th seniors did well for tournament today, didnt go t watch ):
sorry, cos of th stupid science retest.

:D
after school is th best.
called eden, remembered that she jio me out (:
then call her, in th end she going kailin house, hahs.
then she ask me go also, then i go lohrs, bonded with kailin ;D
kailin is super cute cans, keep on saying, of course :D hahs.
and she's super jealous of my tablet, hahahs.
crapped & slacked alot at her house, super funny.
& i cante smile properly anymore ); i looked screwed.
maybe i never smile too long lehrs, LOLS ;x
took shadow pics, superlove {3
then eden & kailin had t go back school for band concert, pangseh me.
hahs, then i went home lo, but then suddenly heavy rain ._.
like thunderstorm like thats, hahas, look until quite cool.
but that made me stranded at westmall there, what luck.
then called mama, cannot pick me up, wanted t take taxi, no money.
called papa, waited about fifteen minutes, and got super wet.
then he came, went home.
i l o v e m y k o r k o r ♥ ;
he never fails t cheer me up (:
today he reach home and then tickle me like siao, hahahs.
although im having a flu now, hahahs, he still cheers me up :D
kor, ily ! {3
then got some issues about th chalet, i donte wna talk about it.
short post today, super emo.
oh gawd, moodswings suck ._.
65 people online, i donte wna talk t any ):

you're of no significance t me.
donte think i cante live without you oks, cos i can.
& i will, without th likes of you (:
just t tell you, i can be alone.
unlike you, trying t be th centre of attention.
fuck off bitch, ihy ;x

later part, im editing post ;D
jie, rest loads oks, donte think too much lehrs ):
everything will be oks soon, relax.
take care oks, & donte think too much.
ILY JIE {3
honey, relax (:
donte take critisism too hardly, it hurts.
forget about th words that hurt, they suck (:
self confidence oks!
ILY HONEY {3

sick with a flu, minor fever ._.
& im super confused now,
twirl `
and away we go ;

2008-03-23T17:50:00.002+08:00

hyper mood : super off, bloody sleepy ._.
im super sleepy oks,
cos i woke up super early today, unwillingly of course.
although i took a nap, im still sleepy (:
im a lazy pig ;D
anyways, im suppose t be doing project now, but what th heck ;x

woke this morning at like 5.30am ._.
cos need t go t pay respect t my grandmother & grandfather & greatgrand mother.
my father's side one, so must go like three different places.
quite creepy lahrs, so early morning go "visit people".
dark dark ones, so quiet, just like ghost town.
but i couldnt care less, i was super duper th sleepy oks ):
parents should not deprive their kids from sleep oks, blahblahblah :D
then burnt paper lahrs, money & clothes, lazt t go into details.
luckily by th time we went t th actual graveyard, it was bright in th morning already.
i wonder why im posting about this lahrs, but nevermind.
then after that go eat breakfast, which was like already ten oks.
sleepy & hungry, what worst could happen (:
was smsing weqin boyfriend while eating, and we were talking about all sort of crap oks.
i donte even know how we started th conversation.
hahahs, i tried smsing her at 5.45am, see she awake nots ._.
so anyways, after breakfast then go home, start on project already lohrs.
then halfway, sibei sleepy, then went into dreamland ;x
now must pia do homework & project already.
sian like shit now lahrs ):
boring sehs, someone pei me on msn lahrs D:

Scars- Papa Roach
I tear my heart open,
I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

[Chorus:]
I tear my heart open,
I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

[Chorus]
I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever come around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix

can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

[Chorus x2]

random song lyrics once agains :D
and i know th song's kinda old, but its nice oks (:

我不想再受到伤害了；
我已经很累了，
请你放过我，
让我从新开始。

2008-03-22T16:44:00.004+08:00

hyper mood : off , but im not in a bad mood today :D
didnt really go online much today, hahs.
was out for th first part of th day (:
and yays (:
ashley's blog is back in action, super sexy oks ;D

morning, didnt wna wake up );
but th thought of getting a new pair of sports shoes drove me out of bed.
although i was like blur, walk here, walk there, still dno what t do.
hahahs, im spastic :D
then took quick change then go with my mama go buy sports shoe (:
and many other crap stuff, which i love ;D
went t queenstown/queensway, i dno which one, hahahs blurblock me.
then slacked around, see see look look for shoes.
cos my current sports shoes is like crap oks, i use super long already.
im gonna miss it when it's gone ):
its been with me for very long , through thick & thin.
hahs! i sound super emo over a pair of shoes ;x
anyways, in th end i chose a white, black, hot pink one :D
th others were all kinda crap, so had t take this one lohrs (:
it was $99 ; nike is superlove please ;D
dno whether can use in school, maybe i bring everytime got PE lohrs.
hahahs, and for that, i went t buy a shoe bag (; nike agains.
and i got th sudden inspiration t go buy FBT shorts :D whoots.
went downstairs t buy two, both black.
then after that went t habourfront there, beside vivo go shopping agains.
walk walk around, at first nothing t buy ones ):
sibei sian, went t buy cookies & cream ice cream :D super nice.
then mama went t buy some of her stuff first while i slacked, nothing t do.
suppose t buy shorts dehrs, but couldnt find any that i liked.
then walk walk walk, and walked for dno how long lahrs.
then th habourfront nothing ones, then went over t vivo, walk like crap agains.
went in few shops, didnt like much stuff.
wanted t buy shirts & bags, mama didnt allow ): she said i have too many -.-
then in th end, went t OP and bought one shorts (:
& i actually thought OP was extinct oks, cos everywhere also donte have.
then went t Sushi Tei for lunch ;D
super nice th food (: yummy, but super full uhhs.
then came home lohrs, and then remembered had t do self-training.
so then went down t gym and did 45 minutes of jogging (:
im proud of myself for doing self training :D
bwahahahs, i sound super ego ._. pardon me.

lols, super sleepy now.
im a pig =x
and you see my tag reply is like one person by one person, sorry!
cos when i reply, someone else tag then i never see ;x
everyone seems t be tagging at th same time, LOLS! ;D
im think im gonna change my blogskin pretty soon (:
any inspiration from you guys? :D
i still want a simple skin though ;
& i super miss everyone agains ):
JIO ME OUT ! <3

2008-03-21T22:39:00.002+08:00

hyper mood : off , but im better (:
hahahs short post now, i just felt like posting.
so yeahs, here goes a bunch of unnecessary crap :D

& im not sleepy yet .
talking t gerald kor now, he's super funny cans (;
cos i keep on disagreeing with what he's saying, and he's pissed at me.
hahahs not exactly lahrs, but he's super funny.
we're been quarrelling for pratically, super long already.
and i still donte wna tell him anything.
hahahs (x super funny kor.
he's mean, just t let you guys know (:
but im evil, that's a different story now ;D
kor says im making his life miserable, and i feel super bad.
big time, korkor im so sorry );
oh, but we managed t agree on one thing today ;
we both miss peihwa super much ):
i prefer primary school t secondary school life, seriously.
primary school is like my family, secondary school is like my .. UNFAMILY.
except for some people and all, but yeah, i miss those memories.

& wendy called me like not too long ago too.
she was doing this network linking thing for me, blaming me for not going ):
downright unreasonable & mean, please.
she says i have th power t change th mindset of six people not going.
HAHS (x and she blames me for it.
well, she kinda described t me th play a little, gruesome much ? ;x
anyways, she also damn funny, lols (:
and she scolded me for laughing on th phone ):
sorry lahrs, i will make up t you dehrs :D
somehow, hees.

talked t weehao di on msn ;D
he's super hilarious lahrs, please.
everytime talk t him will laugh like siaosiao ones ;x
he says he's th jio-expert :D
HAHAHS, and most girls aint good enough for him, seriously, who knows.
and he so guai go do maths uhhs. unbelievable ;x
when he came back, he said only have nine more minutes online.
lols, he say must cherish (:
he's super funny cans, LMAO.

不想懂得-张韶涵
当世界不知不觉的变了
有时候我怀念以前的我
作的梦虽然远远的
想像是一种快乐

拥有了同时也失去什么
而眷恋原来会带来软弱
你让我在雾里成熟
心开始曲折

我不想舍得不想懂得
是谁惹谁言不由衷
说谎伤害都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什么

我不想舍得不想懂得
谁说割爱才更深刻
彼此依赖是爱不是负荷
互相照顾就是幸福的

当世界不知不觉的变了
有时候我怀念以前的我
作的梦虽然远远的
想像是一种快乐

拥有了同时也失去什么
而眷恋原来会带来软弱
你让我在雾里成熟
心开始曲折

我不想舍得不想懂得
是谁惹谁言不由衷
说谎伤害都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什么

我不想舍得不想懂得
谁说割爱才更深刻
彼此依赖是爱不是负荷
能握着手就是感动的

我愿意一秒钟放弃全宇宙
只在只有我们紧靠着的小星球

我不想舍得不想懂得
是谁惹谁言不由衷
说谎伤害都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什么

我多不舍得多不懂得
谁说割爱才更深刻
彼此依赖是爱不是负荷
能握着手就是感动的

说谎伤害都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什么

我多不舍得多不懂得
谁说割爱才更深刻
彼此依赖是爱不是负荷
能握着手就是感动的

life's a tiring thing.
it makes one breakdown so easily.

2008-03-21T16:43:00.002+08:00

hyper mood : super off ):
im supposed t be out of th house now oks ,
then my mum had t say no , and now im at home .
bored t death ._.

watched friends like th whole morning , lols .
i just took a break now , and im still bored t death .
i want a new pair of sports shoes D: ( random much ? yeah i know . )
and earpieces , mine spoilt like for donte know how long already .
i want alot of things ):
spoilt brat much ;x

IM A STUPID STUPID MEAN , PROMISE BREAKER ):
im suppose t go todays , last minute cannot ):
sorry everyone , wendy especially , i promised i would D;
i miss laogong alot ); sorry i couldnt go today .
thought i could see him today oks , im super super low mood now .
i miss you , my love x/3
im so missing him right now , hope he's having a great time (:
enjoy yourself with your buddies alrights .
just hope you know imy , alot .
sorry sorry sorry t ashley mei ! D:
jie deserves t die a terrible death today , and forever .
pangseh-ed you , im super sorry , my fault my fault .
hope you're not angry/sad or anythings .
i promise t make it up t you oks ): so super sorry .
forgive me , would you ? Dx
ah , seriously i deserve t be punished big time for today D:

Save You - Simple Plan
Take a breath
I pull myself together
Just another step till
I reach the door
You’ll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there’re so many things that
I want you to know
I won’t give up till it’s over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

When I hear your voice
Its drowning in a whisper
It’s Just skins and bones
There’s nothing left to take
No matter what I do I can’t make you feel better
If only I could find the answer
To help me understand

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there’re so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it’s over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

That if you fall, stumble down
I’ll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I’ll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up cause I’ll be waiting if you fall
Oh you know I’ll be there for you

(Ahahaha)
If only I could find the answer
To take it all away

Sometimes i wish i could save you
And there’re so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
I wish I could save youI want you to know
I wish I could save you

random song lyrics ;x
its my latest addiction (:
boy , i miss you so much .
i miss everyone so much ):
ah crap th hell out of it ;
enough said .

2008-03-20T20:53:00.002+08:00

hyper mood : off ):
it's gonna be off for like forever & ever .
until someone on it , which is not really exactly gonna happen .

but i'll post about today .
cos today is sports carnival , and i love sports (:
was especially awake this morning , hahahs .
every year sports day , i always super awake in th morning dehrs , wonder why .
fetched alyssa & fina t stadium .
when reached everything was multi coloured :D
but purple , fry , is th bomb , th best , th sexy one (;
so anyways , reached there and bloody , it was cold T_T
and there you know , its gonna rain , downpour , boom . LOLS .
so anyways , then reach there then wait for some people then went into stadium .
walked in , saw th pretty balloons ♥
i want 99 red balloons/roses for my birthday :D hahahs , wishful thinking ;x
so yeahs , here comes th rain baybeh (:
and then , th mud and all other crap came along too .
then so as not t dampen th mood , everyone started playing bomb & cheers :D
whees , i love fry (:
cos we rock your socks more than any other houses .
and joan , th captain , was rather high , who knew why .
then some of our house com paint face and all th crap .
i love th purple star they made (: stuffed it in my ponytail , sexy {3
red ain't th sex anymore , purple is ;D
so , anyways cheered our lungs out , scream & sing (:
then when th rain subsided , th one minute of fame started .
and yes , our house got alotalot of people ;D hahs , we rawk like hell .
i think we won , i hope we did :X
so yeah , then track event started .
and we still cheered th crap out of our lungs and heart ♥
track events (: ME , ME , ME & a whole lot of other strong and fast people .
see , butterflies fly ~ hahahahs !
first was 100m lahrs , andrea mae rawked (: whoots .
then was 200m , me .
i was expecting t get last cos everyone that was participating , were from *ahem* ,
track , ohmytian please .
andand , except sofia , but she's fast toos oks .
then horn blow , just chiong like crap :D and in th end , lost ):
got third , boos ;x
but at least got top three , i happy lahrs (: s-m-i-l-e-s .
then need report for 4x1 lehrs .
sibei nervous , agains ;x
cos im th stinking last runner , with all th other fast-ER runners , oh what th manzxzx .
th race seemed t be like super fast lahrs , then my turn lehrs .
donte care , chiongchiongchiong :X
in th end , donte know what th position lehs ! D:
is either i second/third . cos th girl behind me , scary ;x
or maybe cos im noob sehhs ); but anyways , yeahs .
thanks t all who congratulated me & said nice run oks :D i love you guys .
although i know im noob , thanks a whole lot {3
so anyways , then got some gladiator matches , blahblah (:
went t buy bubbletea :D they do sell oks ! my school high class , from sweettalk dehrs (;
HAHAHs (x got peach iceblended , sweet .
then after most finish already , slack loads (:
i love my seniors and everyone loads ;D yay im random .
and i love fry !
♥
then went with alyssa , salwa , namirah , amalina , fina , kengleng , andrea t macs .
siyuan di {3 ahhhhh , i ask him come :D
then he paiseh donte want come , stone at one corner with his friend .
hahahs , then turn out his friend is my friend's friend .
so luan , :X
anyways , saw him ;D happy happy , i love di (:
suppose t treat him , he donte want uhhs ):
then after that siyuan went home , then th rest go my house for project .
crapped , slacked , i donte wna go into details .
that's my day today , i think .
i came back & got sleepy , and moody ;x

th emo talk of th day ? im amusing no one .
oh well , i promised salwa i would post her emo statements (:
she's one of my inspiration ;D
so here goes ,
what hurts more than losing you , is knowing your not fighting to keep me .
( this one rocks my socks :D )
Saying 'I love you', that's easy. Meaning it, that's the hard part .
( its true :D )
and god said let there be beauty...and then i saw you .
( touching touching uhhs (; )
&sometimes it just easier to cry .
( yeah , just let it all out . )
Truth may hurt but your lies kill me .
(andand , your lies may hurt , but th truth kills . )
you where the one who took my smile from my face & brought the tears back .
( that's pretty saddening , yeahs . )
The only thing harder than walking away, is not looking back .
( if i looked back , i would cry . )
I close my eyes , And all I see is you .
I close my eyes , I try to sleep .
I can't forget you , And I'd do anything for you .
( super nice song lyrics . )
Life is like a novel with the end ripped out .
( where's th ending D: )
You said I was a true friend .
And I said will I ever be more?
( is it love ? )
My heart's already broken, so now you needn't bother .
( why break it when you cante fix it )
love: 1 word, 1 meaning, 1 feeling, 4 letters, a thousand reasons to cry & smile.
( iloveyou : 3 words , 8 letters , 1 meaning )
She says she's fine , but shes going insane.
She says she feels good , but she's in a lot of pain.
She says its nothing , but its really a lot.
She says she's okay , but really she's not.
( pretending is all she can do . )
I want to walk away;just to see if you would follow me.
( would you ? )
we don't die from heartbreak , we just wish we did.
( yeah we do . )

wo wei shen me hai ai zhe ni ;
wo wei shen me bu neng fang qi ni ;
wo wei shen me hai fang bu xia ;
wo wei shen me bu neng ba ni wang ji .

2008-03-19T20:55:00.006+08:00

i hate today .
there's nothing much t post today .
today was a bad day .
it was extra bad , i donte like it .
until now , i still donte like it , cos everything's so wrong .
realization , sucks .
really , im tired of life already .
please , i really donte wna continue this anymore .

you big fxck bitch .
no heart , no life , no blood , no feelings .
congratulations of making me lose it today .
i bet you're damn scared now , cos you bit your lips .
what's so scared . me ? losing your friends ?
i donte even think you treated us as your friends , did you .
cos if you did , it must have been all an illusion .
i thought you were nice , really , i did .
everytime you hurt me , i believed that you wouldnt do it again .
i guess we cante be counted friends can we ? i donte think so .
on th first day i met you , you told me you hated me .
first impression i guess .
really , i cante stand someone like you in my life anymore .
th day i make you breakdown and cry , is th day i will no longer hate you .
i donte know whether im just gonna hate you for awhile or something .
but , i really donte know what t do .
you crossed th line ? last straw ? who knows .
donte act dua , cos you're not , really .
scold and shout , you think people really respect you ? no . i donte , at all .
so what if you're taller than me . so what if you're richer than me .
so what if you're smarter than me . so what if you're prettier than me .
i know in every aspect , you're gonna beat me somehow .
im not jealous of you , i just wna tell you , so what .
really , i know im dumber than you .
i know that you scored higher than me in psle .
but im working hard oks .
you assume im a slacker , who doesnt do homework at all .
all i am , in your eyes , is nothing . a moron who sucks and is stupid . right ?
i know i transferred late t school .
i know that , more clearly than you do .
i know how it feels t be an outcast , and you had t emphasize that i was , right .
i cried , i know im weak .
but , really , i regret breaking down , for you & everyone else .
i donte want t waste my tears on you , let alone my blood .
i regret , really , why did i waste it .
i donte even know why im crying , are you even worth it .
when people cry , you laugh , do you have a heart .
they're your team mates .
they do things under your ruthless commands .
they are doing th race , not only for themselves , but for YOU .
donte you see th point .
i cried like fxck when my team lost , but they did well .
when they said , "sorry joan" to me , i cried . really , cos they did it for me , even if it was just a little . they apologized , and they got hurt .
for your team , they're running their frikking lifes out for you .
donte you see it ? cante you see it ? are you blind or smth , really .
im crying like fxck now , i donte care whether you believe it or not .
im just thinking or everything's that happening .
for your team , and mine .
today , they got cuts , bruises , sprains , everything , for you .
and all you did ? laugh your fxcking ass off .
really , can you not feel anything .
they both worked so hard , so hard . so hard .
really , i donte know what's going on now .
life's so tiring , i hate life .
i donte even know why im wasting my tears , for you now .
why .
ihy , alot .

laogong , cheer up oks .
please , donte do rash things .
seeing you like this , breaks my heart apart .
please , donte .. breakdown .
stay strong , i'll always be here for you .
i know you're pissed and all , just cool down oks .
i'll leave you alone for now .
i'll do anything , anything for you now .
just t see a smile from you , i'll do anything .
ily so much .

i wna forget thatmemory forever .
forever and ever and ever .
i cante believe i still can remember , until now .
when i close my eyes , all i see is you .
i donte wna anymore , cos its hurting me .
i know it wasnt an illusion ,
cos it hurts .

i hate today .
190308 , i hate you .
you made me cry .
you made my heart hurt {/3

2008-03-18T20:34:00.005+08:00

我忘不了，我放不下；
我真的不知道 . .

im not in th hyper mood anymore ):
heavy moodswings ,
high and low , i donte know where t go .

due t stm , i cante remember a single thing yesterday D:
i had training though , ilovetraining {3
i love th sun , hahahahs (:
learnt more rules and abit on how t play , although was super blur .
was super super paisehs cans ): im noob .
oh yes , i reached home only at 8+ yesterday cos i bused home with weqin .
boyfriend , i love you {3
she's super nice lahrs , i love her t bits ( & pieces ) .
i owe her super much big time for forever pei-ing me , ;D
she gives me free hugs :D yays .

today was super feeling unwell in th morning .
almost died or something ? well , i wished i did :X
i was super sleepy lahrs , this morning , dazy for like th whole morning .
and was in a super bad mood ;x sue my moodswings , please .
i was kinda lonely whole morning anyways , didnt feel like talking .
or doing anything , for that matter .
no one cares anyways (:
slept abit in english class in th morning , couldnt take it :X
tmrw im gonna go copy all th notes from someone already , i need t study .
im failing everything , i need t study .
i donte wna get kicked out or school , fxck it .
anyways , was quite emo th whole day i think .
stm has caused me t forget most stuff .
i wna pay attention in class , and i do really really hard ):
but somehow , it get doesnt get in my brain , ~~fxckfxckfxck~~ .
i need t study , big time .
found out today that science wasnt that bad ;x
cher's kinda funny , lawls , surprise myself dude .
i did th freaking experiment three four times cos it was super fun :X
childishness , whoots (;
stayed back after school for awhile , i didnt feel like going home .
weqin stayed and pei-ed me (:
she even gave me a pack of jellybeans , gawd , she's th nicest .
sorry seniors and gloria , didnt play netball with you guys .
i didnt have th mood , sorry .
bused home and weqin , crapped :D
we talked random stuff , hahs .
& i realised im addicted t dance songs :X rap and hiphop , LOLS .

(apologises for posts , getting shorter & shorter ..
and shorter :X )

& i found out that you're a bitch , why did it take me so long .
i really donte know who are my friends anymore .
confusion ,
who's what , what's that , where's she , how'd did .
i donte know anything , anymore .
and i donte plan t find out (:
i rather lead a simple life .
its so much quieter ,
than having so much conflictions around .

I'm tired already ,

Leave me alone .

I'm really tired of life already .

2008-03-17T23:46:00.002+08:00

HAHS , IM STILL AWAKE :D
well , i have been doing homework oks (;
im sleepy now ,
blame training and school ;x
I SHALL POST TMRW OKS {3

i superlove and miss ;
EVERYONE .

2008-03-16T20:39:00.003+08:00

posting posting posting now !
cos i just found out something .. hilarious ? not exactly .
hahahs , but anyways , i post first bahrs .

yesterday night ; 150308 :D
hmms went t restaurant for dinner :D
celebrate aunt's birthday , food not bad lahrs .
i somehow hate seafood :X so , didnt eat much , hees .
smsed siyuan & elizabeth , but they both after awhile bo reply me liaos .
bored t death uhhs ~
then went t uncle house cut cake and slack ;D
chocolate cake (; and jelly and alot of other junk , lols .
played with my cousins awhile then played taitee (?) with bro and uncles .
i still donte know how t spell that bloody card game . oh well .
then i won th most , bwahahas (x
then stayover at uncle's house lohrs , cos wanted t watched 12.15am movie dehrs .
in th end , my bro like buaytahan like that , then never watch .
but then we go watch friends , dvd , sibei funny sias .
watch , laugh like crap =P
th best show in th world cans (:
then watch until 12+ then go sleep lohs , but somehow i couldnt sleep .
hahs , then stare ceiling until fall asleep :D
i found out something today (:

today :D
woke up , super blur .
ate breakfast then went t club with cousins and family :D
and then i couldnt send th stuff t salwa and th rest , they got pissed at me .
sorry lahrs , not my fault =x paisehs uhhs .
then play water with cousins and threw a bowl like frisbee in th pool with bro .
hahahs , he found one princess bowl in th water , LOLS .
so anyways , slack liaos , after that go arcade playplay (:
im super fascinated by th music dj , it was damn funny cans !
cos th thingy was like kinda stuck then need use alot of energy .xD
then .. th whole thing is just .. lmao (:
went for lunch , smsed siyuan and samuel loadsloads .
samuel kor , cheer up alrights :D mei will support you dehrs .
siyuan damn funny lahrs (: sms him super fun dehrs .
anyways then went home . slack .
DO HOMEWORK (: HAHAHAHAS .
chatted on msn with like a trillion people , whoots ;D
eden and ruizong taught me "lessons" today (: super cute .
and of cos , laogong {3 he's super missed and loved oks .
he makes my day (:
and i spend alot of time chewing gum today .
cos i got one whole big pack at home ! :D hahahahas , be jealous .

hahahas , my typing has serious issues .
oh wells , im too lazy t do all my homework anyways =x
rahhs , scold then scold bahrs .

& im super random oks .
anything weird thing can just pop out from my mind . HAHS .
random people unite :D *quoted from salwa*
and i love lollipops :D
i find cola and watermelon flavour super nice .
and apple , and lemon toos ! HAHS , im random random , seeseesee (:
argh , brain cells pratically all died today ;D congrats joan .
omg , im so random , im spastic :D
and suddenly i like dices , alot =x
i wonder why ;
who knows , really why im so random :X
and i just remembered , school only has four days next week :D its love .
oh yes one more thing .
my blog really that nice , you must copy and paste EVERYTHING mehs ?
even your wishlist is same as mine , omg .
hahahas , so loser .

did i mention how much i missed you .

i miss you everyday , every moment , every second .

i cante stop thinking of you .

although i still donte know what t do .

2008-03-15T11:13:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEMIN JIE & YINGLING JIE <3
happy joining th thirteen club :D
i'll join you in about a month oks .

im still down in th dumps .
it doesnt go away .
if it was an illusion ,
it wouldnt hurt .
but somehow , it hurts .

2008-03-15T00:03:00.004+08:00

IDK .

WO BU ZHI DAO ):

2008-03-14T22:55:00.006+08:00

hahahs , i keep getting lazier and lazier t post D:
cos its either im bored or smth , or i just donte wna post .
oh well , i shall post about yesterday toos then , if i can remember .
stm ): rahhs .

130308 ; thursday :D
i had th sudden inspiration t play audi like crap today .
morning wake up , play (;
th retardedness of me , i never know why .
and i have official decreased in my skills , rahhs D:
too long bo polay liaos , fingers stiff stiff ones . hahahahas (x
then went t watch tv awhiles then go training already .
took bus with alyssa t school and she didnt bring her waterbottle -.-
hahahs , old lady ass :D how old and forgetful can she get .
so anyways , went t training lohrs .
yays (x got physical training today , with coach and two seniors :D
lorraine and .. ahh i cante remember her name ! ); blame my stm .
i need t train harder than anyone else oks D: im determined .
cos im weaker and i donte have experience ;x
i wna be in th team , so i must train like bloody hard oks .
i will jiayous ones (: whees .
after training pei alyssa go buy bubbletea than went home .
and then chatted with alotalot of people on msn {3 all my loves .
hahas , and i think played audi agains .
couldnt sleep until like one - two plus , smsed like crap (:
exceed , oh boy D:
im left with ZERO smses for like three days .
oh crap , just kill me .

today :D
went t VIVO (:
with samlun , honey , samuel , you , weiyang , samuel's three SJI friends .
met wendy there for awhiles , then she had t go off .
she passed me samuel's present (; so sweet .
hahas , then went shopping for awhile t buy samjie's presents .
and honey went shopping toos :D
i bought i soft dice for myself , i l o v e d i c e s (:
hahahs , then went t watch 10 000 BC , not bad lahr th show .
quite sweet (: and barbaric , LOLS ! its like super longlong ago th settings .
cool uhhs , all th fliming and all ;D
hahahs , wanted t stay longer but then pei sam jie go home .
she had t go for YF , and i didnt wna go with her ):
but i didnt wna go home , so i wandered around and went t buy dinner for my brother .
then reached home at like seven eight plus .
and then i realised i didnt eat for th whole day :X
but i didnt feel hungry , just sick .
and my bro has a really bad sunburn and all :D hahahhaas (x
anyways , then weehao ask me call him talk on th phone (:
he's my laughing therapy {3
then siyuan asked me t call him , so i told weehao sorry :X
then call siyuan , poor thing he so late then finish tuition ;x
hahas , that's about all (:

idk :X
im confused ; idk .
losing my sanity , im lost .
i donte know how t feel .
i donte know what t do , how t solve this .
i donte want this t end this way .
feelings linger here and there , idk where t look for .
my heart's hurting ,
so much .
its happening all over again .
one more time , i cante take it anymore .
i cante take it , no more .
no more , not all over agains .
wo bu zhi dao ):
i donte wna hurt you .
i donte wna hurt you .
i wonte wna hurt you .
i donte deserve your love , right .
i donte even know what im feeling now .
it hurts .
wo zhen de bu zhi dao .
idk ;x

2008-03-12T20:17:00.004+08:00

forgot t post yesterday ;x
rahhs , so i shall now :D

110308 , tuesday :D
ohmytian .
i think im retarded or smth , seriously .
i just hibernated my com for no reason , subconsiously , gawd .
losing my sanity already :D
oh and guess what ,
im only left with TWENTYNINE smses left until 15 march ! D:
fxck it , i use too much in th beginning alreadys ):
and i need a new earpiece , agains .
spoilt already ;x
today nothing much in th morning , slack like crap (:
played audition for like awhile then chat on msn lohrs .
then when want t leave house for training already , rain like crap D:
suay lahrs , then somemore so windy cannot go out .
then in th end left like ten minutes later , almost late oks !
brought my super nice peihwa track jacket cos it was super cold .
hahas , dua heng never late for training !
got people later than me somemore ;
and everyone's jealous of me of my beautiful jacket . hahhas .
so anyways , like half an hour liaos , coach and seniors all never turn up ):
so we decided t do warm up and stretching ourselves .
then coach came , FINALLY ;D .
then she ask us go avt , hais , found out no training ! D;
today brief about rules and watch some games , sibei sian nohrs ;x
then ended early , nothing t do .
pei alyssa go buy bubbletea and called elizabeth jie see she still outside anots :D
alyssa donte take mrt with me , tmdtmd ! stupid :X
elizabeth jie was in westmall ! yays (x so i rushrush go meet her .
hahas , saw her with her friends , joan & mandy i thinks .
they were at th art thingy , childishness :D hahahhas .
but i was jealous of their artworks oks ); rahhs .
hahas , then suddenly decided t call siyuan di , visit him with elizabeth .
so bought him bubbletea then went t his house lohrs .
we were just slacking there ._.
HAHAS , me and elizabeth saw *ahem* something :D
we laughed like crap oks , it was just bloody hilarious .
then elizabeth jie left her foolscap at popular then must leave liaos (:
whees , hahas was damn funny lahrs th whole thing .
then runrunrun back t popular and take back jie's foolscap .
ohohs` she wrote me a note (: so nice right she . hees .
then bused home with her lohrs :D
reached home and suddenly got th inspiration t go watch movie .
so i asked my mum and she said yes , LOLS .
went t watch L save th world {3
omgomgomgomg , its fxcking nice oks ! and damn touching lahrs {3
im in love with L , super hawt and cute oks ! :D
th movie was like two and a half hours , finished like at twelve .
hahas , was super sleepy by then ;x
BUT i still love L , omgomg *faints*
seriously , he's cute (: i-l-o-v-e-h-i-m ;D
th other characters in th saw like th girl & boy , bloody chio and shuai cans !
omg , this is like th best show ever oks ♥
im so in love ;

today :D
TWO MONTHS ♥
you're th only love i ever need .
i had trouble waking up in th morning , stupid .
had t meet alyssa , namirah & amalina at bukitbatok mrt at 8.30 , please .
i want my beauty sleep ! D:
so anyways , i was like struggling t wake up at 7.30 , HAHS .
in th end wake up liaos , was like rushrushrush , but in th end still late .
paisehs , make them wait , sorrys ;x
then mrted t clementi and spammed called salwa cos we were LOST (:
ok fine , we werent , but yes , we anyhow found our way there :D woots .
then everyone was super fascinated by her ADORABLE little sister .
and yes , she remembers me , im so happy ;D
oks , total retarded crap that ainte important ;x
so anyways , was like slacking most of th time there .
ohohs` i made a NEWFRIEND (: on namirah's msn .
and they started prankcalling using , *ahem* , myphone .
suddenly my number becomes so popular , oh wows (:
so yeah , then elizabeth jie call me rushrush me ! D:
then go take mrt lohrs , all th crap .
and amalina has serious balancing issues , HAHS ;D woots !
then reach lehrs , decided t do some stuff with namirah and th rest before meeting them .
in th end , eden also come alreadys :D
kao , then when i go find eden & elizabeth , namirah and amalina say i bad ! ):
then when find them liaos , eden and eli say i bad , what th .
frigging siao lahrs ;x
then , elizabeth , eden , gerald , emil , clinton , bentia , clement and me all went t watch step up 2 th street {3
i LOVEEEEE that show , omg .
th dance moves are so cool lahrs , please ! :D
and th dancers are effing bloody sexy & hawt , whoos (x
m u s t w a t c h {3
hahahhas , then they stole my phone ): stupid rights .
then send song , LOLS .
then eden and elizabeth pangseh me with all th boys -.- tmd .
met them at toilet , then th boys started playing catching ? 0.o
hahahas , damn funny ! xD
then eden eli and me go buy bubbletea then met th boys outside .
and we started writing on th M1 glass wall and everythings ;D
that was bloody funny oks , then th lady come .xD we zao .
SAW WEQIN BOYFRIEND , ILY (:
then go macs :D and i treated everyone -.- for some reason , donte ask me .
then we crapped alot at macs oks , emil was super high , seriously .
then they did a seriously disgusting concoction ;D
nuggets , fries , chillisauce , ice , and some other crap , MIXMIXMIX :D
came out , crap =x
oks , then walkwalk t bus interchange .
and somehow , eden & elizabeth seems t be scared of th rain , HAHS .
lols , then crapped alot agains at bus interchange (:
eden stole my tablet pc , so mean rights ! D:
in th end walk t th stupid bus stop ): rahhs !
gerald and emil took cab t emil's house , rich people , tsktsk (;
then bused home with elizabeth :D after a longggg fight with eden .
hahas , it was hilarious :D
oh well , highed alot today (: yayness .
15 smses more , OH MY TIAN D;
AND YES , IMAGINARY BOYFRIEND CAME BACK TODAY {3
SUPER MISSED HIM ! :D
and im proud of laogong :D

I LOVE TODAY <3

2008-03-11T10:28:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAMUEL KOR {3
you're thirteen today !
now everyone's turning so old , except me [:
i feel y-o-u-n-g , thankyouverymuch , hahahas .

i shall post since im utterly bored t death .
having training later , hope i donte die (:
andrea insists that i wonte do my homework ;
i will prove t her :D
in a few days time , of course , hahahas .
talking t melvin , LOLS .
he says eden's mean and all , oh wells .
happy belated birthday t melvin ! ;D

mixed feelings much , i donte know how t handle it .
its not like i wna care , feelings just automatically handle stuff .
causing me t be emo and all , rahhs ):
honey was high yesterday (: finally she cheers up ♥
i think i prefer not t be high anymore , cos i donte like crashing down just like that .
so i'll stay low like all th time :D
perhaps maybe at desperate times , i shall high once agains .
though its gonna be diffifcult , cos im very zihigh ones (; whees .
i think i care about stuff i donte wna care , too much .
it doesnt even concern me , yet i get so emo about it .
its not like i want t , i just am .
sometimes people tell me th happiest stuff about them ,
i feel so happy for them , really .
but deep down , my heart's heavy and i , feel kinda sad .
i donte know whys , perhaps its just that im crazy or smth ;x
so confused , and i know its my fault .
somehow , everything turns out t be my fault .
it doesnt seem like it , but i know it is .
messed up ,
i donte know what t do anymore .

When you look me in th eyes - Th Jonas Brothers

♥

If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone,
I can't make it on my own.
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again?
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

Every day, I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head high,
And it's all because you're by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

hope you're feeling better , ILY ♥

th most hated goodbye {/3

2008-03-10T18:02:00.005+08:00

sorry's not good enough ,
t erase th hurt and pain engraved in my heart .

get well soon alrights , my dear .
see you like that heartpain ):
take care and get well , ILY ♥

HAHAHHAS , i said i would post rights :D
about last week ? omg , im so late lahrs !
im suppose t post about friday and i totally forgot everythings ):
nevermind lets put it as a memory of th past and it never happened .
hahs , random me (;
i shall post about recent stuff , hehs .

yesterday , 090308 :D
HELLOS WORLD (:
that's such a random greeting but who cares ;
so yes , went t KAP and study with weqin agains (:
im so guai rights , pei my boyfriend ♥ HAHAS .
i reached there like super early lohrs . so lonely .
then weqin came , then we started t do homework .
THEN she's always asking me t go down and buy her stuff .xD hees .
then ruijia came , weqin's super funny senior ;D
ahh , and yes she's super nice , she helped me do my maths :D
so most of th time i was slacking my time away .
and of course , disturbing weqin :D its a joy .
cos she's super gullible and believes like everything you say (; hehs .
oh and yes , i did super loads of things about weqin :D
hahas , i love my randomness .
OH AND YES , stupid ronald macdonald came .
hahahahahas , he's damn funny oks !
he came for like some little kid's birthday party .
its seriously damn hilarious , lmao (:
he was like dancing , singing , shouting and all th crap one retard can do :D
i was like , donte they know people here would like t study ? ;x
ronald macdonalds has t be charged for being an inconsiderate boob .
hahs , loser ;D
so yes , after i left smsed weqin and lorraine replied :D
apparently , they were trying t ask her t eat a combination of .. crap =x
hahahas ! and i think she didnt eat , cos if she did .
i wouldnt be talking t her now . xD she would have died , hahas .

today :D
sibei sian had t go school in th morning oks D:
stupid maths cher , 73 should die (; yayness .
beng gay can go say byebye lohrs , we report you then you know ! :D
so anyways , took th bus and was super sleepy lahrs .
my earpiece one side spoil , suay lohrs -.- then only can hear one side .
hais , my ear deafdeaf ones i thinks ;x
then amanda take same bus as me then go school together lohrs .
when reach class , bloody noisy ;x
everyone was damn despo ask people do what , scally need t do th copying .
copy until can die one lehs , i hate th cher like super much .
and i had t redo oks ! copy another twenty more , donte know what his effing prob .
so boliao , and he got th sci cher t do th bloody same thing oks -'-
we suspect both of them is gaying :D
HAHS , who knows , seriously , both has split personality online ones ;x
its super scary , RAHHHHS (x
then th cher came late and started teaching a whole load of crap .
which i paid attention t while redo-ing corrections oks .
then he hold us back for fxcking one hour oks ! D:
drag then still must do test , stupid lahrs !
and make me miss my science retest -.- i die liao when school reopen .
stupid , school sucks , yayness (;
then had t rush off go meet arlene , settle payment .
in th end she late ;x then i call elizabeth jie and talk t her all th way (;
hahas , we talked for like two hours plus , from there all th way home (:
decided not t go meet up with honey , lazy =x sorrys !
then went t westmall for awhile , slack here slack there .
and then found out gerald kor , clinton di , and bentia was there ;x
didnt really see them .
in th end saw them at bus interchange , take same bus as me .
said hi , didnt talk much cos was still talking t elizabeth jie :D
she's super funny cans (:
then talktalktalk nohrs , then say bye t gerald kor .
hahas then walk home and still talking t elizabeth jie .xD
then after awhile she wanted t sleep , HAHAHAHAS , pigghey (:
oks , no more already .
fullstop's elizabeth's sentence and she says its hers . BLEHS .
th end 's my sentence :D
HAHS .
elizabeth's being punished by me for not going westmall (:
so i didnt go her house .
=P

im super addicted t super much loads of songs {3
and got netball training tmrw (;
woots , maybe can see th coach , she havent come yet ;x
and i wonder how much fun christine's habving in new zealand D:
rahhs , she makes me so jealous sometimes .

stop and stare`
steady hands , just take th wheel .
steady feet , donte bail me now ;
ILOVEMCFLY {3
weqin's got me addicted t it ); sue her please .
oh and yes , jonas brothers are just th love :D super nice .

cos you're a song in my head ;
you're so unforgettable .
hold me tight and never let go ,
a sudden feeling of wanting t hold your hand .
unforgettable kisses {/3
IM RANDOM ,
PLEASE (:

i miss everyone , loads .
im asking elizabeth's imaginary lawyer .
T SUE EVERYONE WHO MAKES ME MISS THEM .
which is ,
pratically everyone i know (;
SUPERGIRL <3

2008-03-09T21:23:00.002+08:00

I GOT MY OWN ROOM :D
thats all i have t say (:
i have been super lazy , yes i know .
i havent posted nicely ):
i shall when i find th time , i promise :D

ohs and yes .
IM DAMN DAMN SORRY EVERYONES !
if you asked me out and im not free ;x
blame me , sue me , punish me , just name it D:
i deserve it ! sorry for neglecting you guys );
although its th holidays im still not free ! so fxcking sorry );
ahhs ! im so mean rights ):
i think i rejected like more than ten invites out ! D:
so sorry ;x i promise i will go out with you all dehrs ;x
terribly sorry ! D;

donte anyhow label people cans .
its really damn irritating when you people do that .
you like it when i label you ?
you're a bitch ; thankyouverymuch .
you donte know how t feel other people's feelings ahrs ?
buaysong then say lahrs , why keep on say people emo .
you then emo lahrs , tmd .
seriously , if you really wna pick fights , go get your parang first then talk ok .
only know how t label then shut th fxck up .
nobody asked for your opinion in case you didnt notice .
i make it obvious for you ok .
shut up (: that's all i need t say .
so yes , nothing nice t say , donte say .
donte go around hurting people , its not nice .
especially when you hurt my honey , bitch .

im frigging pissed at some people , oh gawd man .
they seriously donte get th meaning of ;
leave me alone , &; im not emo .
i think they have some mental disabilities or something .
and so , therefore they cante accept th fact that they cante label people .
they no brain one , yes everyone can tell that .
sorry's not good enough , my dear .

im so gonna be lost tomorrow .

2008-03-07T21:59:00.002+08:00

OK IM HERE T POST MY DEARS (;
but not like anyone reads it , but yeah .
i just want t keep this as alive as possible :D

040308 , tuesday :D
oh gawd , stm .
i cante think of what happened today , sheesh .
fine , i'll try t remember everything my pathetic brain can :D
lets see (:
had comm arts in th morning .
oks , i regretted not bringing my jacket cos it was bloody cold .
and sadly , they cancelled massrun once again ): due t bad weather i suppose .
so yes , went t aircon , and was freezing inside .
suddenly i got th inspiration t pay attention in class so i did ;D
hees , blahblahs .
then had mathematics , oh i totally dislike th bengghey cher .
hahahas , geeone knows what im talking about uhhs (:
his fs's just disgusting , seriously .
ohohs` then had geography .
i forgot what i was doing then , seriously lahrs , my brain cells always die during geography (:
not that th cher's mean or anything , just that its , boring .
oh well , had science and laughed like crap i think ;x
cher's funny , but fs's equally disgusting D: hahas !
suppose t have assembly dehrs , but today have th learning journey sculpture walk thingy .
so missed assembly ! just th day when i brought my tie oks .
hahas , oh well .
skipped lunch , was like rushing here and there .
talked alot t weqin oks , i love her like crap {3
ohohs` yes i was playing with th rubix cube today (: hahahas , rather extraordinary .
weqin and sharleen hugged me like crazy todays :D hahas .
they both super cute ones (:
but sadly , sabrina was kinda feeling down ); poor thing .
cheer up alrights :D
okoks , back t sculpture walk .
it was at th singapore river , hehs .
on th bus was listening t ipod and slacking ;D but stupid earpiece spoilt agains lahrs !
rahhs ! D:
then when reach there we were like hypering and all th crap .
wasnt really listening t th cher uhhs .xD
oh had some macs fries while slacking on th way (: hees .
alot of people were camwhoring , and some people just taking random pics :D
damn funny lahrs .
then we , excluding me , were trying t do th jump effect kinda photo (:
but sadly , we failed cos the camera was too slow D:
but anyways , some people jumped too not high , LOLS .
and i was super zihigh :X
then when go back that time took some pics (:
lalalas , then on th bus was super sleepy lahrs .
ohohs` gave christine music quiz . HEHS .
steady hands , just take th wheel ;
steady feet , donte bail me now .
yes th song rocks my socks BAYBEH {3

050308 , wednesday :D
was supposed t have PE , then in th end went back t class ):
watched video about ChiRunning :D omg , it's not true .
then was damn lethargic todays ):
so yeah , slacked super much like hell uhhs , bwahahas .
then had comm arts agains , and it was bloody cold lahrs , rainrainrain T_T
i keep on forgetting t bring my jacket lahrs .
sibei cold i tell you , buaytahan ones .
somemore comm arts in aircon room agains :D yayness .
then got science which was damn funny lahrs ! oks , th cher's always funny somehow .
hahahas ! :D although i donte really understand what he's saying .xD
then got chinese (: DO CHINESE TEST AGAINS .
this time i managed t finish (: hope donte fail =x
nothing t write but must write alot of stuff ones :D hees .
then had CME for awhile , which was like damn hypered at that time .
so cher keep asking me questions .xD damn funny .
oks then after that got sports heats agains cos it was postponed t today mahrs .
then was like calling jieying like crazy on th bus .
cos i hoped that she was still in school but her phone offed luhhs ._.
so anyways , went t river valley and KABOOM , it rained agains .
what th hell lahrs , rain for like donte know how longs .
rain rain rain .
then i saw zhuoran , jolene .
hahas , funny lohrs (:
then jieying finally came out ! hahahas , i was so happy t see her oks .
she looked cute in her uniform hahas .
then i saw weiyang toos (:
then rain like crap so postpone and cancel i thinks D:
so oh well , bused home with jieying and we talked super much alot of crap (:
hahahas , really missed her loads ! {3
then i lost zhihan D: she's suppose t go with macs with me lahrs .
so i decided t go macs and find her , AND I DID ! :D
hahahas , with pranilla there toos (: oks we laughed like siao oks .
we called alot of people , for fun .xD
im too lazy t illustrate (: hees , but yeah had loads of fun .
RAHHHHHS ,
` im useless ):

060308 , thursday :D
had science which was like quite oks i guess .
then had maths ! :D cher was kinda in a bad mood i suppose i didnt really wna bother .
then went t aircon room agains for comm arts , COLD LAHRS .
had t do summary and i was like despo t get th right amount of words lahrs (:
and yes , finally i did :D yayness .
but i think i did badly though , i was like anyhow do ;)
higher chinese , do zuowen ! oks , i donte like zuowen oks , damn sian ones .
like write until no ending ones .xD but oh well .
then slacked super much in class lahrs , then forgot i had t meet weqin for lunch ):
sorry ahrs !
from classroom then i rushed t hall for PBL , hahas .
and i suddenly i decided t listen uhhs , donte be shocked .
i even took down notes , LOLS , one in a lifetime things do happen .
ahahahahas ! :D
then had netball training , FINALLY .
first had t do PT , oh gawd almost died cans ;x
it wasnt that bad lahrs , but quite painful ): hahahahas .
then had t run laps and practice th ball throws plus some exercise .
oks , i guess we complain too much ); boo us .
oh and then played tag , oks our group lost , sadly );
its like fourty pumpings oks , rahhs .
then we SOMEMORE had t do suicides cos seniors said we werent good .
so yeahs , do bahrs .
ok , was bloody tired and hungry after that .
hahas , then we ended late so training was like about four hour plus .
wows , cool :D
thanks weqin boyfriend for waiting for me ! {3
she's super nice cans .
wait for me so long ;x
so in th end we went t cheers then i treat her :D
ohohs` and gave her a lift home toos .
THE END .

lols , th last sentence was so , ugh .
hahahas ! im lazy t go on and do today's on ;x paisehs .
i shall so it tommorow alrights (: cos its like 1120pm nows .
kinda sleepy , watching some movie , called th brave one .
oks , its kidna vulgar but who cares .
hahahahas !
okoks , nights people (:
awws , i miss everyone alot today oks !
MY HEART'S HEAVY ):
well , th hols have finally arrived ;
about time (:

2008-03-07T19:53:00.000+08:00

i know i havent been posting for like ;
9284197132 years D:
i've been a very bad blogger , and thats why my blog's dead .
rahhs ! xD
i promise i will post today about everything i missed out over th days :D
although it'll be boring , and maybe short .
cos i have stm (:

2008-03-03T20:47:00.002+08:00

i didnt wna post today .
LOLS , cos i felt lazy ;x but yeah , here i am .
perhaps by magic bahrs .xD

my sexy tablet is addictive <3
i used it like for th whole day today cans (:
so i had t use like two batteries today ); i lazy run up t charge , hahas .
i wasted alot of batteries cos i kept doing wallpaper .
its damn addictive oks !
my friends think im siao , they think its ugly , but nevermind lahrs .
i like can alreadys (:
BUT , i donte use my tablet for fun only oks ! im super guai ones .
i use it t STUDY AND TAKE NOTES , unbelievable rights ? believe it .xD
so yes , i studied for geography like damn hard cans !
but i still think i failed for th test today , byebye my dear geog , i just cante plain remember anything ;x
so there goes all my bloody brain cells D;
i sound like a spoilt brat , lols , hahhas !
school was oks lahrs today , i love monday cos alot of slack time .
morning was loaded wid thousands of homework , then got music .
aircon {3 and alot of nice music stuff .
then this guy on th video blow th thing until his face pink (; damn funny .
then was com class , th most lovely subject in th world .
HAHS , xD
i was once agains doing wallpaper , did one for christine ! :D
thanks mindy for helping me do one super audi one ones (;
and yesyes ! i finally did my supergirl one !
I EVEN DREW HER , im so happy wid it , although it looks uglehhs .
so yeah i donte care , its called C-R-E-A-T-I-V-I-T-Y ;D
oh whatever (;
then had t rush for geog test .
i donte wna talk about it , but hell it was chaotic ;x
then had t RUSH AGAINS t sports heat :D
took bus t river valley ;D wanted t see peeps there but cannot find .
then wanted t run today ones , then RAIN T_T
sian lahrs .
but anyways , thanks fifi senior for lending me shirt (;
she's netball captain , counsellor , sec4 , most courteous girl :D
th perfect student , LOLS .
so anyways , hypered wid seniors and all then took bus home wid namirah .
then went t macs , saw zhihan mama and friend .
ate macs ;D hahahahas .
then bused home (;
ohohs` saw xue er :D

talking t all my loved ones now ;D
super loves , my dears (;
my imaginary boyfriend is MATURE , hahas !
hohohos ;x

2008-03-02T18:14:00.003+08:00

i remembered what i wanted t post already about yesterday :D
i watch CJ7 , iloveitiloveitiloveitiloveit .
its super cute and damn nice lahrs {3
i watched it at my grandma house , pirated dvd from macau uhhs (:
hahas ! :D put it small so its not so obvious , but what th heck .
so yes , im suppose t go watch movie today but had t study ):
and nothing can get into my head right now ! ugh .
i just hate it when i wna study and nothing gets in .xD

this morning ten plus went online and weqin ask me go KAP and study wid her .
hahahas , we both have test , geography , oh gawwd .
yes , i brought my sexy tablet wid weqin {3
hehs , so went oud of house at like eleven plus and her daddy came t fetch me .
her daddy is super funny (; well , HAHS .
i shant post what he said in case weqin comes here and read .xD
then she'll kill me in school :D
oks , back t studying story . HAHS .
so yeah , i called alyssa t come t , she said she only could come after church .
so me and wq went first t slack .
then she saw my wallpaper and i went t do one for her :D
hahas , i wrote super much loads of crap cos i had pratically no inspiration .
so i wrote loads of hawt stuff ;D go see her tablet if you have time .
well , she wouldnt let me draw her "bestfriends" SO YEAHS . pff ;x
then studied abit and went t buy drink , and foood .
hees , weqin treat ;D
then alyssa came . hahs , didnt expect her t wear that but what th hell .
then studied lohrs (:
treated alyssa t ice cream , while i went t buy myself a mcflurry {3
its like super addictive cans .
so anyways , study like hell then slack agains .
blame th tablet pc for being so tempting D:
HAHAS , then did another wallpaper {3 superlove .
i think im gonna try do one supergirl one , lols .
cos i love th word supergirl ? HAHS , im retarded .
so yes , im gonna end this stupid post .
cos i have nothing else t say .
pff ;x

oh wait , i do .
my stupid toenail just came oud , LOLS .
oks , that was disgusting .
but i had t add something t end this post (:
fine , i'll put it smaller :D

2008-03-01T17:44:00.002+08:00

IM POSTING .
hahs , on th first march :D
i wanted t post something but sadly , i forgot ):
oh well , im posting on my super sexy tablet pc now {3
gaww im damn addicted t my tablet lahrs (:
mine is sexier than weqin's , HAHAS .

i wna watch alotalot of movies now lahrs ! :D
but no one watch wid me uhhs ):
watch alone sibei lonely .xD
i rather watch wid someone , so someone jio me ouds and watch hohrs .
hees , i'll super love you :D
and right now , i have no idead why im super addicted t th word , supergirl .
hahas , im damn retarded lahrs :D
but anyways , doodling on my tablet is super fun .
i did a few wallpapers already {3
and im gonna learn photoshop , soon , one fine day ! D:
although , yes im a super slow learner and i cante get th thingys in my head .
bwahahas , oh well .
now , i have three cases wid ashley in court ! :D
and yes , im sure i'll win against ashley sherlock holmes .
i forgot her full name apparently .xD its super long , but i know there's bunny in it (:
i want more wordy t-shirts :D hahas , i think i wna design my own .
bwahahas , and i shall open a fashion line . ( yes , i know its impossible . )

i think my blog's getting a little too wordy .
maybe i'll do a picture post soon :D i have loads of pics .
my phone memory is full uhhs ); blehs .

im damn addicted t th lyrics of songs now .
i donte know why :D
steady hands` just take th wheel .
ahahas , i love stop & stare .
its super addictive and yes , i put it in my phone .
HAHS , i donte know why im talking about all these crap :X
i think my blogskin's getting boring .
hints and signs of telling me that i should change soon .
and for which , yes im lazy D:
cos i wna do my own skin mahhrs .
now , wid sexy tablet and photoshop , nothing is impossible .
oks , i sound so educational now , hahahas .
yes , im crapping .

2008-02-29T23:26:00.003+08:00

okoks , i have been a bad blogger :D
hahas , donte blame me , im just plain lazy t post lahrs .
now i post uhhs (;
due t my serious case of stm , i wonte rmb anything :D
HAHAS , im so addicted t th song stop and stare {3

260208 -}
TUESDAY :D
today was th day i will get my sexy tablet pc (;
so th whole day everyone was damn excited . hahas !
morning had some literature lohrs .
i was super guai and took down notes ! hahas , i think .
but no aircon lahrs );
cher say only cos of common test then will bring us down uhhs .
hahas , but i still think she's super th nice .
then have maths lohrs , cher loads of wid alotalot of homework lahrs !
stupid ;x somemore more hand up on thursday .
hahas , then every question he give us , we say , "HUH?!"
and he somehow keeps laughing when he gives us homework , saddist much ?
hahas , but he's nice sometimes also . lols .
geography also got give homework lohrs ):
today was like "LOADS TH POOR CHILDREAN WID HOMEWORK" day .
hahahahas (x i cante take th work loads , ugh .
then got science , th one subject i dislike like alotalotalot .
well , nothing went into my head though .
everytime in science , i'll be kinda like daydreaming away .
th cher's freaky , although some people like him , lols .
SHOCKER .
but some people just are weird :D okoks , shant be so bad lahrs .
assembly ! this week i got bring tie hohrs .
im so happy lahrs , no need go borrow so mafun ):
and my ankle today still hurts like hell lohrs .
my form cher ask me whad happen .xD
cos im limping all th way around school , up & down .
D: pain !
but i didnt have time t think about pain , today got house competition !
went for some briefing and alst minute training ! :D
i believe in fry {3 win or lose , we're one united team .
so yeahs , trained like hell for like half an hour , and i screamed like a maniac like that .
like soldier army captain like that , hahas .
i told them if we win , i'll treat them ;D hope it helped .
then competition start lehrs ! ;x
damn pressurized lahrs , prayed damn hard we wouldnt fall , hope we win :X
but , in th end still fall ); both times somemore !
second time so close ! D: in th end , we lost uhhs .
so sad until i want cry lehs ! but nevermind lahrs , we did our best :D
im still proud of everyone , hope we continue t work hard and jiayous fry !
then damn tired & sweaty , went t collect tablet pc {3
AHHH SO SEXY TABLET LAHRS ! :D
although i so suay , last one t get , hahas ! nevermind , get can liaos .
thanks namirah for waiting wid me !
was hypering wid fina and some people while waiting like doodoo heads :D
hahas , damn funny lahrs .
then th people doing th com thingys were like staring at us lahrs ! ;x
hahas , then gave namirah a left home (;
boy , she said she was pressurised , scared a bear will eat her up !
hahahahas , she even smsed me in th car cos she was so afraid ! :D
she's damn cute lahrs .
went home , and i totally forgot whad happened due t stm ;x hahas .
but i know i was busy meddling wid my tablet , hahahas ! xD
super sexy , silky and damn coool (;

270208 -}
LEFT MY SEXY TABLET AT HOME T CHARGE );
AND MY ANKLE STILL HURT ?! D: STUPID !
oks , i lovee wednesday .
cos there's PE ! :D and this week still wid my immobilized ankle , i can still play .
cos .. i didnt tell cher , HAHAS , shh donte tell .
hahahahas , we played ruggy ball {3 super nice lahrs .
it would be nicer if i could run without th pain (; but its oks .
still play as per normal .
a stupid sprain wonte stop me :D i sound like some supergirl , HAHAHAS .
anyways , then was playing and limping all around th field .
well , i tried my best not t limp (: actually i ran like normal .
hahas , then everyone was mixing up all th courts , luanluan liaos .
then while playing sharmelee accidentally go into my court and push me down ;x
hahas , i felt on my back , OWHHHHS );
neverminds lahrs , wonte die lohrs , i got up and continued playing :D
damn fun oks , pe , its unresistable (;
cher said i had good playing skills or smth , LOLS .
xD i feel honoured . *smiles like a complete retard (:*
then had com arts ! no aircon agains lahrs , somemore after pe .
slacked alot during class lahrs .xD
but i super hardworking and took down ALL th notes even though donte need , for salwa .
was smsing her in class cos she didnt come t school cos she sprained her ankle also .
hahahas , but she's oks i guess (;
so i was smsing and taking down notes , multitasking ;D hahas .
one period of science , HENG UHHS .
science can never get into my brain .xD
then got chinese (: hees , i kinda love chinese .
cos th cher's super duper nice , although she was kinda in a bad mood today .
so i decided t be guai and not fool around .xD
did my notes but still laughed alot though , lols .
then got moral ed , cher didnt come up !
so th whole class was like fooling around loads lahrs , free lehs .
those who brought th tablet was using and th rest was slacking .
hahas , me ? i was READING half th time , gawwd , that's bloody rare . xD
oh well , hahas .
then like five minutes before bell ring , cher go call th class say he's coming .
we were all like packing our bags anyways .
then he came and talked t us awhile , blahblahblahs .
then everyone rushed down , i donte know for whats .
and today i didnt have t stay back , and i was super bored D:
i bused home alone ); sadly .
then decided t take all th way t commonwealth then change bus cos i didnt wna walk .xD
tried asking eden if she was still in school t lunch wid me .
she had BANDD , hahas .
so i took bus back and saw andrea on th bus .
went t kap wid her and ate fries , while chatting and observing people , HAHAS .
decided t go back t peihwa ! :D t see track juniors niahhs .
then when we go liaos , th guard donte let us in !
must be stupid principal , say only can visit when got occasion ! D:
oh pff , so mean ;x
so anyways , then we went t seven eleven t wait and slacl .
bought gummies blahblah , and i saw duachiobu xiner ! hahas ! :D
then th juniors come oud liao , talk t them and blahblahblahs (:
wanted t wait for siyuan di , but too late lehrs ); sorrys !
then bused back home , say MDM POON at seven eleven , lols !
she dyed her hair . pff ;x
anyways , went back home and highed wid ashley on msn (:
we're always high on msn {3 hahas .
SHE'S TH SOPHISTICATED ONE ;D

280208 -}
STUPID ANKLE STILL HURTS D:
AND IM STARTING T GET LAZY T WRITE , HAHAS (:
science test ):
im so gonna fail lahrs . sobs !
but science has always been my super bad subject , must study hard already :X
suddenly i feel th "inspiration" , HAHAHAS .
then got maths , sian again lahrs .
this time he loaded us wid twice th amount of homework , oh gawd ):
well , he laughed like hell lahrs .
we whined alot .xD
but nevermind , he owe us alot of gotchas hohrs ! ;D hehehes .
then got com arts {3 AIRCON FINALLY .
i brought my sexy tablet today ! :D
make weqin jealous , hahahas .
copied literature notes in com ;) but batt very fast run oud lahrs .
lucky got charger in school , hahas .
then everyone was like damn fascinated by th tablet (:
but its damn damn heavy lahrs , carry until can die .xD but its worth it ! :D
then got chinese , do tingxie .
it was easy (: i hope i can pass , hahahahas ! :D
then got pbl ;D noise pollution th most from our group , YAYS ! (x
oks , i know this is short but wdh :D
then after that got netball training ! FINALLY .
we did some steps drills and stuff (:
i wna get tan yays :D
and hell stupid , th monday training cancel );

TODAY -}
LEAP DAY OF TH LEAP YEAR :D
THIS IS GONNA BE FAST COS IM TIRED .
lalas , th day goes by .
studies as per usual .
hahahahahas , im lazy t go on .
TH REST OF TH SEC ONES GOT THEIR TABLETS ALREADY .
congrats t all .
now only left th sec twos , hahas ! :D
oh well , they're jealous of us .
i lend one of my senior my tablet (: hahas she's super nice .
stayed back after school t do some project discussion ;D
then went wid namirah , atiqah , salwa & amalina t ljs .
hahas , ate some fries & fish fingers .
we're all uncivilised people . xD hahahahahas .
then namirah and amalina went off first .
then atiqah used my com and did some BEAUTIFULL stuff , drawings (:
then called ashley see where is she .
rahhs , lazy t go on ;x she's lost somewhere .
then went t bus stop and talked t salwa awhile then bus came .
SAW EDEN JIE ! :D
hahas , then we were both super shocked . xD
so we both bused home together and crapped alot on th bus .
then ashley called t say meet us at school around there , sso we say kap :D
so i dragged eden along , cos she also wanted t try my sexy tablet (;
so okaye lohrs .
and she designed a SUPER nice thingy for me ! :D
ahahas , iloveher .
then ashley finally after ;
9127482346914 years came ! :D
but eden had t go off .
so we crapped alot once agains ;) ILOVEASHLEY .
then took pics of her and played wid her phone .
she also designed something super cute .xD
watashiwa ! :D i always high wid ashleyy {3
she's th love ! ;D
BUT ,
she stole my wheel ):

okoks , finally im done (:
and im too lazy t go on .
rahhs , 1245am lerhs ):
took damn long t write cos was watching tv :D
hahs .
SPASTIC (:

2008-02-29T22:47:00.004+08:00

OPENING OF BLOG AGAINS :D
ON TH LEAP DAY OF TH LEAP YEAR ! {3
due t popular demand .xD
hahas ! yes , i have relinked .
bonbons are loved (:
offer me bonbons ;
and no one gets hurt ;x
hahahas ! happy cos many people made my day :D
and i shall update loads alrights !
i make sure you people are updated ;D
iloveyouguys .
♥

2008-02-25T20:28:00.004+08:00

I SPRAINED MY ANKLE ALRIQHTS D:
rahhs , i cante participate in sports tmrw lahrs !
so suay ): im damn fcukinq sad now cans , i wna cry ! D:
fcuk fcuk fcuk , im accident prone ); i blame myself .
rahhs i donte have time t post lonqlonq .
so i'll post unimportant stuff now , and later th lonqer ones (:
IF I HAVE TIME .
and di is super hiqh now , lols .
im suppose t study now , wdf ): i'll try t post later .
& i maybe qettinq a hamster , LOLS (:
hahas , a furry cute thinqy for my birthday ;D
cheer up everyones , ily {3
and bloody hell , im emo T_T
tablet pc tmrw :D ;
JEALOUS :X ?

2008-02-24T21:48:00.002+08:00

i hypered alot .
wid everyone .
then i cooled off .
i went back t my emo self .
i couldnt help it .
im such a dumbdumb fcuk .
i talked t jie alot , we shared our issues .
i miss her oh so much .
i told her somethinq no one else knows .
she thinks im stronq , beinq able t qo throuqh all that .
i think im weak , cos i cry .
i think im weak , cos i bleed .
i think im weak , cos im useless .
cos i cante help even if i wanted t .
i wished i could tell you everythinq .
its been so lonq , i doubt you'll remember .
but its okaye , its better for one t be hurt than two .
you're th reason i started th bleed .
and i donte know why i cante forqet you .
i want t , but i cante .
feelinqs ? all mixed up .
i donte know what t do anymore .
i'll just blindly follow th hurt that haunts me .
i'll just hide everythinq from you .
cos i know you wonte care .
not that i want you t .
cos i want t hate you wid all my quts , but i cante brinq myself t .
i donte know who am i .
what am i .
im lost .

honey , donte break down .
you're makinq me cry .
i'll make you believe in love once more .
please , donte do this t yourself .
its hurtinq me .

im emo .

i donte know whad t do anymore .

i want t wander about in life until i find a meaninq .

i cante trust anymore .

its hard .

it makes me cry .

trust brinqs me down , breaks me down .

melt my heart , burn it alive .

leave me behind wid th rest .

trust , i hate you .

i hate trust .

its such a stronq feelinq it hurts .

2008-02-24T00:02:00.003+08:00

SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WHAD T DO .
{/3

my heart's been torn apart too many times .

i donte want it t happen aqain .

why do people lie .

why do they make you cry .

2008-02-23T22:26:00.010+08:00

RAHHHHS {3
im burnt by th sun :D yays ! i wna qet tan , lols .
today qot th peihwa qatherinq thinqy (:
didnt qet t see much people thouqh D: rawrs .
only qot see , harriel`cheryl`yufei`qeraldyeow`darren`kuoxuan`marvin`shuinhern`wendy`
julie & some others i dhunoes and forqot :X
i have stm , stm , stm ! sad case , sue me .

i reached juronq mrt station at about like twelve (: im on time , whees .
ohohs` i took th same mrt train as darren , th one from faith6 .
when he saw me , he looked like he saw a qhost liddat ._. he's super mean cans .
oh well , who wants t talk t him (: HAHS .
so yeah , then take t juronq then i was blur , dhunoe where t qo o.0
im spastic :D lols .
then saw hewen there , rahhhs , he's super mean toos D:
oh well , i donte care him ! :D bwahahas , i feel evil today .
then i called joanna she say qo down t th popular there , then i met her lohrs .
some people were already there uhhs .
then siyuan di call me ! :D ahahas , we talked for like supersupersuper lonq !
and he didnt come pei me D: RAHHS . he said he qo somewhere else D:
super sad alriqhts , hahas , but nevermind lahrs .
at least he spent time talkinq t me for super lonq :D
cos we had t wait for people damn lonq lahrs , late ! :X
then th older jiejies were like makinq fun of me talkinq for too lonq (: damn funny .
i stuck oud my tonque at them :X my childishness , so sue me :D
then hewen came down lahrs , and he thouqht i talkinq t my bf -.-
i say siyuan then he was like , siyuan your bf ?! HAHAS , asshole :D
passed him th phone awhile , lols , i wondered whad happened .
then waited for harriel mei t come then we qo tqt .
but one of th jiejie asked me t do dhunoe whad survey form , about disney , hahas .
they're all super friendly and nice (:
eden jie called me toos ! and yes , they qlared at me everytime i used my hp :X
then after that , bused t westcoastpark (:
boy , it was effinq sunny and all . hees :D ILOVETHSUNNN {3
then we like talked for awhiles , then played some qame .
rawrs , i dhunoe whad t do ._. im blur as usual .
ran around without my slippers on th hot and spiky qrass , rahhs :D
then had inline skatinq {3 ITS TH LOVE .
qosh , i havent skated for really lonq and th feelinq really rawks .
im so qonna buy skates , soon i hope .
hahas , most people didnt know how t skate , so i went t skate wid julie .
she's super nice (: rahhs .
ohohs` and hewen skates slower than how a tortoise walks ._. HAHAHAS .
then after me & julie went for one round around th park already , hewen havent even finished half -.- fine , im mean . blame me :X
then we cauqht up t him , ah crap , how slow can he qet !
this is where th fun is funny , im a super crapper ! :D
me and julie qo hold hewen then pull him damn fast , BWAHAHAS (x
then after that we let qo , and then he fell .
rahhs , both of us helped him up and ran away , it was damn funny lahrs .
hewen said i was mean .xD but he's a meaner asshole ;D
oh wells , then whad was next .
OH YAHRS , then th water ran oud :X
then me and julie skate and brouqht baq a whole bloody icebox filled wid water .
it was heavy :X two of us skate , damn fun lahrs ! :D
then we had bbq (: ilovethschillibloodynicestinqray cans .
:D on th whole it was really nice lahrs , althouqh i didnt eat much :X
bloody thirsty , no more drinks D:
so a few of us went t macdonalds ;D
*oh qod , someone just bloody called me -.-
prank call very fun hohr . i shall not say your name (:
they damn funny and fake :D
oh well , they just asked me a question i refuse t answer .*
back t th thinqy , anyways .
ate ice cream & curly fries , slacked alot lahhhhhrs .
then mrt-ed back home wid hewen , kwoxuan , and some jiejie i thinks :X
hewen is super mean cans , mean assss .
WHATEVER LAHHHRS .
wanted t wait for siyuan didi but had t qo home D: stupid .
bused home after that lohrs .
rahhhhhs , i think i enjoyed today , LOLS .
i love th time now ; 11.11 pm (:

honey , please donte feel that way .
i know im a useless bitch for not beinq able t feel better :X
i know i suck .
im sorry , honey .
please cheer up , i'll do anythinq for you t cheer up !
i'll buy you a whole box of mint mentos t make you hiqh aqains :X
please , you're not alone .
ily {3

was that real ?

i donte know whad t believe anymore .

but im sorry for whatever it is .

cos i know im a dumbdumbfcuk D:

i cante answer you cos i know how it feels like t be lied t .

i felt so betrayed , i cante face that feelinq once more .

i still havent qotten th previous feelinq and you had t come and tell me .

its not your fault , but why .

i donte know if that was a lie .

but whatever you said made me feel that feelinq once aqains .

th hurt , th pain , th lies .

it broke my heart apart .

you donte know how it feels like .

i really donte know whad t do .

will you tell me whad t do .

th word forever hates me , it always does .

th feelinqs makes love so painful .

it makes me feel like there's no meaninq .

i donte understand , i want t , so bad .

i just keep thinkinq of th past and im afraid it would happen aqain .

i know how it feels like , i've been throuqh it .

how can th word trust appear in my heart aqains .

its breakinq me down ,

its meltinq my heart .

2008-02-22T22:29:00.002+08:00

today im super tired ! D:
went oud th whole day , just came back not lonq aqo .
poor joy honey may not be home yet uhhs . sorrys :X
anyways , today was super fun ? not exactly . lols (:

went t school as per normal uhhs .
AND YES , i didnt finish my d&t homework lahrs ): i tried lohrs .
so i decided t tell cher i didnt brinq , LOLS .
yes , he thouqh i didnt do my homework , which was actually true lahrs :X
BUT , hahas , here comes th super nice part .
fina , alyssa , andrea & namirah cover for me uhhs ! :D
i was like , oh shit , i think just tell teacher i didnt brinq uhhs .
then they four were like "SHE GOT DO OKAYES ! yesterday on msn she was doinq ! really really ! she say was busyinq doinq ehhs ! " :D
yes , i smiled at them like a total retard cos th cher said they were my automatic lawyers :X
i didnt expect them t but yeahs , i love you quys {3
hahas then i cant cut a stupid straiqht line wid th stupid machine lahrs ! its damn hard alriqhts .
but yeah , i filed it until straiqht (:
then recess , we were all fiqhtinq at th queue of th rotiprata store :X
cos every friday will have lonq queue dehrs , cos only friday have ! :D
and they didnt wna buy for us lahrs , but in th end they did (; hees .

then went back for chinese lesson , finish up th compo uhhs .
i wrote LONG okaye ! cos i decided t be quai :D
but yeah , i'll score low due t my lack of SUPERGOOD words ): lols .
so whad , i donte care .
then hweepenq's favvvvv cher came (;
and yes , we're still suanninq her , cos we just cant qet over it , effinq hilarious (:
BUT stupid lahr he , qive so much homework ! :X
then qeoqraphy , and yes , i was super sleeeepy , i slept .
cher also know , she never scold ! :D just ask someone wake me up , LOLS .
she asked if i was still alive ;D hahahahas .
henq never tio scolded lahrs :X
AND I FOUND OUD ONE REALLY STUPID THING TODAY .
sumedha & jiayi actually like sci cher , qosh man .
i hate him :X cos he's chickennnnn . HAHAS .
he teach damn borinq uhhs , i cante understand those two :X
i suspect .. LOLS !

then went for lunch , alyssa tried t kill me ! D: damn her .
went t ask fry people t qo traininq , shouted like hell aqains .
but i quess it was worth it , cos , they can run already (: well , most of them .
im so proud of them =D
and yes , i hope we can win :X JIAYOUS ! {3
went t qo playplay wid bronte , keller & pankhurst people also :X hahas .
they all shout SO soft uhhs {:
i one person can shout louder than them , bwahahas (x RAHHHS .
then honey spam call me uhhs ! she skipped quides ! D:
lols ! then she call me & jio me ouds (: she fake sick .
well , she has quides tmrw anyway , doesnt make difference , tinqtinq day :X ?
LOLS , its just damn funny .xD
then she kinda qot lost :X anyways , WE WENT OUD !
and we didnt even have t wait till end of month :D yays , i love her .
honey , ily {3
ohohs` then we went t buy bubbletea first then mrt-ed t juronq .
then we saw HER , then honey shouted like hell loud , OMG SO UGLY !
oks , i was lauqhinq like siao cans ! :D
hees . we went t jec t take neoprints ! :D finally !
althouqh i looked totally retarded in every picture alriqhts ): naturally .
i saw junyimei theres ! nauqhty nauqhty , i said i didnt know her :X
hahahas (x fun lahrs .
i forqot th time :X whoops .
suppose t qo t sam's church for some movie niqht thinq uhhs .
oks , i draqqed honey there wid me , my bad ! ;x
then they called me like a billion times , say faster :X
and my baq was super heavy lahrs ! cos of all th homework D:
shoulder ache uhhs ):
then when reached there , had slacked alot , honey was complaininq :X
had some sinqinq , and watched this show .
rawrs , honey was tearinq -.- she yawned too much uhhs .
th show was .. rahhs ? LOLS , i donte know how t say lahrs ! :X
then went for dinner at market there .
ate laksa (: I WAS SUPER HUNGRY LAHRS , cos it was already like nine ? 0.o
hees (: so yeahs , today was fun :D
thanks joan for sendinq me back ! :D loveeee .
and my eyelids are closinq now , but i donte feel like sleepinq D:

di , tell me how it feels (:

i wna know :D

lawls , im insanely retarded .

2008-02-21T19:34:00.002+08:00

GO SINGAPORE! :D
FIRST EVER YOUTH OLYMIPIC GAMES HOSTED BY SINGAPORE !
hahs , we're so honoured (:
lols , im supportinq sinqapore i quess :D
and yes , we're NUMBERONE , we have history record now !
that's whad th principal said this morninq :X
hahas , its just damn cool uhhs .
we won moscow (: yeahyeahyeah ~ WE'RE TH BEST .
over hyper now i quess :X
hees .

2008-02-21T17:56:00.002+08:00

im sleepy D: RAWR .
salwa blames me for makinq th word rawr qo in her head , lols .
they donte like th word rawr , but i do :D
so yeah , im stickinq t my rawr , but whatever it aint important .
this is so random :X

so anyways , school was not fun today ? lols .
first period science lahrs , i super sleepy and moody today .
i made andrea do th experiment :X
then i just stare dazily at th teacher , qod i hate him alot cans .
who cares , no one likes him anyway , he has t repeat stuff over&over aqain like we dumb dehrs .
and he covers non important stuff more than anythinq else :X
wahahas , i just love suanninq him .
then qot maths lahrs :X we love suanninq hweepenq everyday .
she knows why , we know why , but you donte need t know why :D
so anyways , i was kinda blur on how t use th calculator .xD blurblur .
then recess today damn scary :X
no one buyinq food dehrs , th canteen damn quiet , all th store no queue .
HAHS , cos all th common test start today , everyone decided t qo starve and study somewhere :X woah sehhs uhhs .
actually i was studyinq too :X SURPRISELY LAHRS .
cos qot literature test D: and yes , i think i failed it .
didnt have enouqh time t write finish lahrs ! sobsobsobs !
but anyways , at least i tried :D
then went back for chinese do compo T_T
sianed like hell lahrs :X
i didnt really care thouqh (:
then went for lunch , ate kimbely's SUPERSUPER cookies :D ilovethem .
then went for pbl and drama uhhs .
drama damn fun (: christine's qroup damn funny .
hahas , nothinq much today lahrs actually .
bused home tqt wid alyssa and i slept T_T super sleepy cans .
then i nothinq t do lehrs .
i'll post later i quess :X maybes .

emo sucks (:
thats why i suck .

2008-02-20T21:36:00.005+08:00

FUCK I HATE MYSELF .

HOORAYS , YOU PEOPLE HAVE JUST

MADE ME LOSE MY FCUKING SELF .

SLUTS , GO TO HELL
please .
im pissed cos i cant find my penknifes .
i should just qo kill my life oud .
smoke ? he says its better than blood .
but i know no one cares (:

2008-02-19T21:32:00.002+08:00

hypered alot in school today , especially in drama class <3
qo t th borinq school stuff first lahrs :X

enqlish this morninq in super aircon :D
then i had t write on th stupid board for my qroup , hahas .
writinq on th board is fun uhhs !
althouqh i didnt pay attention throuqhoud th whole lesson :X
was playinq wid th chair , qo up and down , lols !
qotta copy th notes from dhunoe who lehrs .
crapped alot durinq recess :X
then qot maths , qot back maths test ! :D
wahahas , just qot A1 lahrs , nothinq really t be proud of :X
but at least i didnt fail (:
& yes , we were makinq fun of hweepenq :X
asked her t qo t cher and "ask questions" , we suspect somethinq . *hint*
so we were lauqhinq like siao at th back , then cher ask me whad so funny .
everyone just kept lauqhinq and lauqhinq .
and he never knew why :D
then qeoq cher come in , yayness .
cos i always bully th cher in class dehrs , and today she qot injured toes :X
said th elephant sat on her ! who believes her :X
then asked her alot of crapped questions , waste time .
i reqret cos next was fcukinq science :X
th cher just sucks .
and today , he sucked less , cos i was smsinq all th way (:
who cares about whad he says :X
ohohs` then damn funny when class almost endinq :D
we had t rush t th hall if not will qet demerit .
then one of our reps pass down paper say when you hear th watch beep , raise hand , qrab tie and qo =x
so at exactly 12.42 , th watch beep :X
everyone raised their hands like retards , leavinq th cher totally blurred :D
so yeah , we all hate him (:
then i rushed t rent tie :X my tie lost uhhs ! D: hees .
today th talk is very "superman" qive th talk dehrs .
th sinqapore quy who break loads of records and climbed mt everest ! :X
i wnna climb :X and die .
hohohos ! ;x

then qot drama class <3
hahas (: too bad only four days nia D: but its still fun .
i had t put and scream today loads .
yes , i think i lost my voice :X
bwahahas (x but th whole drama class was super fun lahrs .
we now have a clique (:
th sway clique , donte ask , its just plain cool .
and we even have a dance t qo wid it :D
I'LL SHOW IT T YOU , one fine day .xD
im th proud lame ass who did th stupid dance first -.-
so i donte care (:

bused home wid andrea , alyssa , weqin :D
saw clinton on th bus uhhs :X
and say shawn see at th bus stop . hahas .
randominq .
wid laoqonq lesdarlinq di :X

2008-02-18T22:24:00.002+08:00

i have lost th mood t bloq D:
oh dear ,

but i know that usinq th tablet pc in class is loved :D
usinq com in class {3
that's really th love ;
but i still love you more ;D

2008-02-17T20:46:00.002+08:00

i think im a superduper dumbdumbfcuk ;x
which is true , i am one .
yes , im super emo .
i quess my hiqhness lasted for awhile yeahs .
i keep fcukinq losinq my penknifes ! D:
after i find it , then i misplace it aqain and aqain , what th hell .
and yes , i know im dumb , donte remind me .

all my posts look rather emo yeahs .
cos i think i am T-T
but i wonte die due t some sort of depression state , not t worry .
but i hope i did thouqh ;x
oh well , thatman just said he would chop off my leqs one day .
fcuk him -'- i'll chop his off first ;x
& in case they're new readers around , thatman has no relation t me ( i wished ) .

joy honey and laoqonq makes my day everyday :D
so does everyone else {3
you people are th love .

di ;
donte upset lehrs cans , jie see you liddat very sad .
you cant force her yeahs , let thinqs qo by slowly .
donte qo emo cos of her alriqhts ><
jie very worried for you .
i scared you qo do stupid stuff , please donte .
if you ever do , i promise i'll see red lines alot .
so , please ..
jie beqs you .
& jie loves you .

我真的不知道该相信什么..

你一次又一次地说了一样的话..

你真的是否再说你心中的话吗?

我真的无法控制我自己的心情.

在一转眼的时间, 整个世界好像变得模糊糊的;

好像我做错的路.

我不知道 ...

我真的不知道 ...

2008-02-17T14:28:00.002+08:00

been really slackish yeahs .
wanted t post like niqht but was too tired .
and yes , im fcukinq lazy t uploads all th pics i took ;x
maybe one fine day you'll see over a hundred pics on my bloq .
cos i'll refuse t upload them until then .xD
& obviously , im blabberinq crap nows .

yesterday , went t my qrandma house as usual .
then celebrated my cousin's birthday :D
well , he qot his dinosaur cake and a hell load of power ranqers toys 0.o
that's his favourite , donte label him alriqhts .
he's only five , th qrowinq staqe of life , whad do you expect uhhs .
and they qot me all childish yesterday , like i know why .
they made me do stupid stuff ;x
well , they're my cousins , and im beinq super nice by playinq wid them , lols .
ahahs , my another cousin was jealous that his birthday is damn late in th year .
actually , th last in all th cousins , bwahahas (x
every birthday he complain until can cry dehrs , oh well .
who ask him born so late .xD
HAHS , and yes my birthday cominq .
i have a really lonq wishlist in my bloq cans . *hint hint* ;D
then fooled around loads and went home at about twelve plus bahrs .
wanted t sleep dehrs ;x
but decided qo watch tv lohrs , then qot th 突然发财 that show , so watch lohrs .
all alone T-T
so decided t qo online and chat ;D thouqht nobody online .
but , laoqonq and di online ! {3 super loved people .
talked t laoqonq for awhiles then he had t qo off lerhs , i super miss him cans !
ily imy ♥
then talked t di also .
he made me talk t this super hot chiobu pink ! :D
she's my lesdarlinq , wahahas (x
i wna meet her soon wid di ! hees , see when they all free bahrs .

whees , i think im happier now .
ohohs` people important news t take note of !
please make yourself totally free & available on two dates :D
23 february & 12 april .
i posted it before but yeah , just in case you ppl donte qet it . spastic much .xD
uhm 23 feb is for all peihwa qraduates !
there's reunion alriqhts , please come .
althouqh its not orqanized by me , its by syfc :D wheets .
so yeah , just come, there'll be fun , qames & yummy food .
bbq uhhs ! :D
details :
23rd feb (saturday) , 1pm - 5pm
meet at juronq east mrt station at 12pm ( i thinks ;x )
west coast park (:
even if you cant stay for th whole time , just try t come alriqhts ;x
even if its just for awhile , i wna see you all ;D
me & honey's bdae celebration unfinished details ;x :
12th april ! ( our exact date uhhs ! saturday :D )
stayover at chalet (:
one niqht only (D:) until 13th april - sunday .
if you cant stay over , you still can come ;D
will be slackinq loads in th beach around there i quess .
havent exactly decided on th chalet and such , but yeah .
we'll be eatinq bbq food :D and yes , please brinq alonq like your fav food , so it suits your likinq .
but if you cant find time t buy , tell me/honey , we'll try t help .
we're havinq kinda some financial difficulties , perhaps ;x
so if you're feelinq really nice , sponser us some stuff :D
yes , EVERYONE IS INVITED (x wheets .
ohohs` yes brinq alonq fun qames if you would like t play .
we'll try t find oud if there's internet or whatever [:
brinq extra set(s) of clothinq and all your necessities :D
we should be qoinq t play at escape / www , or where you quys would like t qo .
hees , hope this thinqy 's a success :D
PS: boys who are qoinq , mostly you should only know me and peihwa qirls .
there're be loads of chiobus there , donte worry , you can stare until eye drop oud ;x
cos me & honey both form qirls school , expect a qirl raid .
donte by shy , they donte bite :D
PSS: qirls , donte scare th boys .
especially *ahem* na *couqhcouqh* lalas .
majority are qirls so yeah , minimal boys ;x
so if we cant invite , probably there wonte be any , LOLS .
pray hard th boys aint scared or qirl raids , HAHS .

& yes , bouqht jielinq's chocolate cake already :D
wonderinq where t put it tmrw .
CHRISTINE , make th birthday thinqy faster ;x
so we donte have t last minute next time anymore . hahs .
oh well oh well , im dead tmrw ;x
PRAY I DONTE DIE SO SOON ><

2008-02-16T14:23:00.003+08:00

one super short post .
cos aqains , im moody D;
dumbdumb fcuks like me qet moodswinqs .

just when i wna be a qood qirl and qo study ,
stupid school website is down -'-
wtf lahrs , i wna study lahrs ! ;x
i dhunoes why i suddenly feel like study -.-
my bro's friends are here t study .
lols , boy raid much ? AHAHS , sacarsm .
sheesh , im damn retarded now cans .

ohohs` one more thinq .
there's qonna be a peihwa reunion bbq on th 23rd of feb ! :D
west coast park , 1pm - 5pm .
i think meetinq at juronq east mrt station at 12pm .
wear sports attire ;x
try t come all peihwa people cans .
thanks {3

me & honey should be celebratinq our bdae tqt ;D
so yeah , we need t raise money .
rent a chalet and let you quys sleepover ;D
help us fufil our birthday wish .
we'll love you t bits <3

2008-02-15T23:50:00.002+08:00

i just made a bloq wid honey ;D
support us and taq alriqhts {3
http://x-twohearts.blogspot.com

oh yeahs , i promised i post about todays ;x
today total defence day ! ;D
then when qo parade qround , qot alot of scary people there .xD
stand extra lonq today uhhs .
bloody hell , they ~~cancel~~ massrun aqains ! D;
sad luhhs , i think im th only one who likes massrun ;x
then had d&t , and fcukinq hell i still hate th stupid cher );
he's damn annoyinq lahrs !
then recess D; omq , i hate today's recess cans .
cos of some stupid total defence day thinq , they say must food ration ;
so they say cannot eat durinq recess , only can eat th disqustinq biscuit they qive and stupid new water ;x disqustinq cans ! D:
i didnt drink it at all , qave aways ;x
then qo back class for maths dehrs ;D
then qot stupidstupid FIREDRILL ! D;
then must sit at field , so hot lahrs ! everyone was sweatinq like siao ;x
then qo back for qeoq ;x i was effinq sleepy due t th sun alriqhts .
i slept for th whole qeoqraphy :D
BWAHAHAHAHAS , ;x
then chinese i decided t be extra quai uhhs ! :D
i copied all th notes PLUS extra notes ! hahahahas .xD
then stupid maths cher made us stay back and do test D;
when we're all effinq hunqry alreadys .
YAYS , th test was easy :D

went t macs wid namirah`christine`shiyinq`andrea`salwa`fina {3
hahas , we lauqhed like siao uhhs !
randomness ; HEES .
im lazy t elaborate more uhhs , cut short ;x

12.18 am , i still cant stop thinkinq .
i donte wnna sleep just yet .

2008-02-15T20:54:00.005+08:00

i think i'll be postinq alot of posts today .
cos i donte really have th mood .
im sorry , but i promise i will post one about today .
just not now .

talkinq t honey on msn .
she's much loved , and talkinq t her makes me think alot about th past .
but its not her fault .
and i just realised i havent eaten dinner , and i donte plan t .
anyways , honey was talkinq t me loads today .
she cheers me up , alot .
cos riqht now , my mood is really .. bad .
i admit im emo , but i cant help it , moodswinqs comes once in awhile i quess .
th people in my school probably cant take it , i donte blame them .
but its qonna be hard t do that all th time , that's when fake smiles really do th job .
concealinq all th hurt is th best i can do riqht now , im sorry .

that memory , i donte know why i just cant brinq myself t forqet it .
i want t so much .
but everytime somethinq once in awhile will remind me of you , then it all comes back .
all th pain , hurt , tears , blood , everythinqs .
you're worth it , but i just donte qet what's happeninq now .
you made so many promises , and i believed in all of them .
i quess that was th biqqest mistake ever .
i donte hate you , i cant brinq myself t .
all th memories , you just forqot them like that .
it would be alriqht if you just did but , even me ?
its okaye if you didnt remember anythinq , but i hope at least you would at least ,
at th least , acknowledqe my exsistence .
is that really that touqh for you ?
maybe it is , but i really feel deeply hurt .
to you , i may now mean nothinq at all , if i die , you would just say qoodbye ?
or maybe even ask , who is she ?
i know whatever i do now , its not qonna do anythinq t help riqht .
you were th last person t erase my mind off at that time .
i quess i was th first person you erased .
maybe its just my speculations , is this all a dream ? my own imaqination ?
it just t me , breaks one down badly .
you find yourself so lost at times , and when i think of you , i realise i donte exsist in your mind anymore , maybe i never did .
maybe if you didnt qive me that hope , i wouldnt hope so hiqh .
but , maybe this is all my fault .
my own imaqination , my own thouqht , my own self .
perhaps you were dyinq t forqet me .
i just donte understand , i want t , but no one's tellinq me how .
is this part of life , movinq on ? without even one last qoodbye .
i really donte know what's qoinq on in your mind .
maybe you want me oud of your life .
i just wnna know what you really want .
if you really want me oud of your life , just tell me .
i'll disappear , but at least i know that its your feelinqs .
so i donte feel so confused thinkinq what's on your mind .
leavinq me like that just makes me think .
confused memories , so sweet it makes you cry .
honey says life's like that .
its a fact i qotta face somehow , riqht .
i just want you t know how much i missed those days .
i quess i just donte have th couraqe .
all i want riqht now ,
is for you t know what im feelinq .
but i quess that will never happen riqht .
cos you donte even know i exsist .
mixed feelinqs are all cominq back , and i donte like it .
i want all of this t qo all away , and never come back .
im tryinq so hard for that t happen , but too many thinqs remind me .
one thinq i reqret is not forqettinq th memory just as you told me t .
" lets put that behind th past , shall we ? "
i said yes , i know i did .
just that , i cant forqet it .
perhaps you can , perhaps you already have cos you probably hate me by now .
i know im maybe thinkinq too much , but its all th mixed feelinqs .
emo or whatever , yeah this seems all fake yeahs .
i bet even when you yourself read this post , you wonte even know its referrinq t you .
cos you have completely forqotten me .
you have never came t my bloq , i know .
even thouqh i see you qoinq t ever other person's one .
you only talk t me by askinq me for help and stuff .
never liked we did before , never .
i know you still do wid other people , they tell me .
they ask me , i wonder why .
it was just a couple of days ; has it really have t chanqe this much ?
friends just donte stay as forever i quess .
i'll never forqet you ; four stupid words which qive you false hope .
you should have just said three words .
fuck off bitch or much better , i hate you .
cos i cant brinq myself t say that , maybe you can .
i really donte know what t do .

"I'm not the type to get my heart broken,
I'm not the type to get upset and cry,
Cause I never leave my heart open,
Never hurts me to say goodbye.
Relationships don't get deep to me,
Never got the whole in love thing,
And someone can say they love me truely,
But at the time it didn't mean a thing.

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round,
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown,
I'm losing grip, what's happening,
I stray from love, this is how I feel.

This time was different,
Felt like, I was just a victim,
And it cut me like a knife,
When you walked out of my life,
Now i'm, in this condition,
And i've, got all the symptoms,
Of a girl with a broken heart,
But no matter what you'll never see me cry.

Did it happen when we first kissed,
Cause it's hurting me to let it go.
Maybe cause we spent so much time,
And I know that it's no more.
I shoulda never let you hold me baby,
Maybe why i'm sad to see us apart.
I didn't give to you on purpose,
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart;"

会有那么一天吗？

我真的不知道.

可能这全是一个幻想,

可能我想了太多了.

这种幻觉太痛苦了..

2008-02-15T19:43:00.006+08:00

I FUCKING HATE YOU BITCH .

I FUCKING HATE YOU BASTARD .

I DONTE WANT YOU TWO ,

T BE IN MY LIFE ANYMORE .

JUST LET ME GO ALREADY .

I HATE YOU TWO FUCKING LOADS .

JUST FUCK OFF AND DIE ALREADY .

and quess whad ?
everyone aqrees :D

2008-02-14T21:10:00.006+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY ! {3
t all those who have thatspecialsomeone in your heart , yays for you .
t all those still findinq that special person , jiayous ! :D
hahs , im super hyper nows alriqhts !

talkinq t loads of people on msn nows , so i may wnna cut short th post .
hahas , im a lazy ass ;x
anyways , today school was finally hyper and superduper nice ! ;D
thanks t all those sweethearts who qave me presents , huqs , balloons , notes , chocolates , everythinqs !
all my presents rawk like fcuk cans . damn super nice lahrs !
i seriously love you quys super much alriqhts ! smiles :D
althouqh everyone was in th love mood , still qot ~~fcukinq~~ lessons D:
boos , but quite special lahrs th school , cos my school totally kinda celebrates valentine (;
yays , im so totally hyper alriqhts !
ohohs` when came t school they were playinq funny love sonqs , hahas .
then qo hall also qot announce all th stuff and craps ;x
then some of my classmate's anqel came up t class t qive them superduper presents !
i wan cheryl's super lonq and plushie qreensnake cans ! D;
hahs , and qot alotalot of other soft toys toos luhhs ! damn fcukinq cute !
im jealous , but i qot my own presents too anyways ! ;D hahas .
then in th morninq we were qivinq oud presents , lalalas .
i qave oud hearts {3 hahahas , im happy !
then qot lessons as per normal , but all th lesson damn effinq noisy and crap (:
ohohs` durinq science euqenia came t my class and qave me heart PLUSHIE ! {3
omqomq , i love her t bits alriqhts !
then recess , qot someone valentine baby uhhs ;x lucky ! ;D
then qo back class form cher never come ! no need study ! ;D yays .
bwahahas (x then we continued slackinq and went down t buy balloons for class and stuff .
hees , th balloons ex nohrs , but kinda nice lahrs (: float away then too bad ;x
alot of people dehrs , float away then too bad ! ;D
then chinese uhhs T-T i think i hyper too much thens no enerqy for chinese ;x
so i slept , whees (x cher like donte care me uhhs , i beyond hope .
hahas , then alot of us still playinq wid th stuff we qot ;D
my maths cher say we all siaosiao dehrs , childish & immature people like me ;D
ohohs` then qot lunch luhhs , then qot pbl D:
finally , i found my anqel :D , super hawt and sexy ;x hahahahs .
she qave me a supersupersuper nice thinq alriqhts ! omq i almost cried ;D
hahas (x i qave her stuff and a balloon toos ! :D i super love her too .
hees , pbl was .. i didnt actually hear anythinq for th one hour plus .
HAHS , it was suppose t be important facts we're suppose t listen t , and i donte wnna .xD
my super quai leader even copied notes ! hahs , andrea was once aqains dozinq off .
hahs , th chers talk until damn funny , just hear abit and slack away .
stone and do nothinqs ;x
and yes , i named alyssa's bear , valentines :D

then qot our first netball traininq , trained by seniors , coach wid th others , tournament .xD
then warm up do ten laps , whee finished first , HAHS , im really super hyper .
was makinq fun of ximian aka pinky , she's seriously damn hilarious .
then learn all th basic throws and all th crap uhhs .
nothinq much really , just qettinq warmed up ;D
but traininq ended at 6.45 luhhs , that made me sleepy ;x
traininq's from 2.30 - 6.45 uhhs , HAHS , but i donte feel exactly that tired i quess ;x
NETBALL SECONES WERE FOUNDED ON VALENTINES DAY , 14 FEB!
captain says so ! ;D we're special , wheees (x
then went t foyer saw zhihanmama and qrace :D
hyperinq as wells ! ;D
hahas, then they hitched a ride from me then qo home luhhs ! D:

oh boy , this was th bestvalentinesever .
i love this year's valentines , BIQBIQ memory !
i m h y p e r , h e l l y e a h : D
and thens now hyperinq wid joyhoney , ashdarhmei, kesvalentine, LAOGONG and super many others ! ;D YAYS .
donte worry laoqonq , i still love you more :D
i quess valentine day this year works a charm !
omq , i just love this year so far (;
and yes , im fcukinq celebratinq my bdae this year (: HELL FCUKINQ YEAHS .
oh okayes , hyper just is love.

♥valentinelove;
i love you more than ever .

i still have one more secret .

and im not ready t let it oud ;x

but i find it so hard t keep it inside , it brinqs back memories .

so sweet , it makes me cry .

2008-02-13T17:25:00.006+08:00

TOMMOROW'S VALENTINE !
and i have netball traininq D:

finally , after super many days , im happy today !
was hyper th whole day today in school alriqhts ! ;D
cos today i siaosiao luhhs , oreo cheesecake makes my day !
hahs , hyper-inq is super fun ! ;D
talkinq t lisamei , joylaopo , shawnkorh .
hahas , hyperinq wid them ;D wheees .

we had pe today ! that made me really happy ;D i love pe . lols .
then had t run alot , and play loadsloads of modified captain's ball .xD
teacher donte qive us water break D; but its still damn nice ;D
today in school suppose t present somethinq but our qroup didnt ;x
hahs , must do tomorrow i thinks . sian D:
then recess today qot two people birthday sinqsinq until so loud . damn nice .
hahs , on my birthday must sinq louder hohrs !
ohohs` and i asked ximian help me buy recess , bully senior ! ;x hahas .
then had science , th worst subject in th world , and th cher sucks too .
boos ;x luckily only half an hour ! ;D hahahas .
then qot chinese , omq qot test D: and yes , once aqains i didnt revise ;x
this time is confirm fail dehrs !
cos i left few paqes black , HAHS ;x
then qot cme T-T mrbitechewnibble , hahahahahas , hyperhyper mood ! ;D
then he make me move table -- stupid .
hees , but i always shout alot in his class dehrs ! (x
especially today , cos so damn hyper !

then i qo host traininq for fry today ;D heees .
only like ten people come lohrs ! D; and even th coach didnt come .
then i must coach them , what th ~~fcuk~~ lohrs ! D;
then liddat then no more lohrs .
ohohs` went t westmall wid christine , shiyinq , amalina ;D
buy valentines day presents for anqels and everyone (: bwahahas .
actually wanted t qo t imm dehrs , lazy =x hahas .
th mrt brinqs us everywhere anyways , just depends where . LOLS .
then qo home T-T super sleepy apparently .
ohohs` i saw jiji ;D wid a qirl , a senior from peihwa and his school i quess ;x
he like waved t me , i was "who?" HAHS , blurblur 0.o
and i also saw kenny :D my korkor th friend .
omq i cant believe he still recoqnize me ! its like four years already . LOLS .
hehs , i just noticed all my posts are qettinq shorter and shorter .
but yeahs , i cant help it ;x
wheeeees .

♥ ily laoqonq , laopos , valentine , korh , jie , di , mei & haopenqyous ;D
you're all super loved by me .
i donte know whad i'll be without you quys {3

2008-02-12T19:35:00.000+08:00

ONE MONTH ♥
i still love you more than ever .

im super sleepy alriqhts D:
like i know why lohrs, i came home watch like two naruto episodes and went t sleep .
sheesh, i was like donte sleep and i still slept !
toniqht cannot sleep le luhhs !
nevermind i quai and do homework , LOLS .
and yeah , my phone was rinqinq non stop and i didnt bother t actually care ;x
so it was like , rinq rinq rinq and th dead joan didnt wnna care .
okayes , that was so random .

school today was .. okaye ? i quess so .
just that i suffered serious moodswinqs and i didnt qet hyper at all D:
actually i barely talked ;x oh boy .
and then our maths cher was like , why our class today so quiet 0.o
he say he not used to it ;x lols !
today i didnt like hand in all my homework . hahahs , super slack lohrs !
i just passed my qeoqraphy test ! ;D
actually i failed by half a mark , then i qo arque wid cher then qot back half mark .
despo t pass luhhs , but common test must work hard lahrs !
later im so qonna do all my homework and muq ! mustmustmust .
and our class was late for assembly aqains , then kinda tio punishment by dm lohrs .
not really lahrs , but yahrs .
had t qo back t class then qo back t hall aqains lehs . we were all like lauqhinq .
but we late aqains will tio class demerit alriqhts . so class chairman damn stress ;x
but dm talk damn funny luhhs ! ;D
today she qive th assembly talk about common test lahrs .
she's seriously damn funny ! when she scoldinq also funny . LOLS .
then had t stay back for peerleadinq .
they qave us sweets {3 ainess cans !
im super freaked oud now by qhost stories D;
hear too much lehrs ! pa pa pa ;x
so yeah , now must not think about it anymores .

ohohs` today is exactly two month away from my birthday !
yay ;D
eden owes me that super biq lilo and stitch plushie . bwahahas .
& yes im stupidly unavailable on valentines D:
HAHS , alyssa didnt` know until i told her and she was like devastated ;x
no valentines for people who have ccas };

joy is super efficent yeahs .
she actually did th itenery alreadys ;x
im so totally impressed yo .
and yes , she jio me ouds on friday ! whees ;D
we're so qonna qo neoprintinq and buyinq little miss tees !
SHE HAS ALOT CANS .
and yes , im super jealous of her ;x
boohoos , but we're qonna buy one toqether same dehrs ! ;D
hahas , th totally fascination wid me and shirts , lawls .

now i'll be quai and qo study lohrs !
;x sudden inspiration t study , oh dear .
forty seven people online T-T
i've qot t resist and not chat ! D:
♥

2008-02-11T21:55:00.000+08:00

WHEEEES(x
im muchmuch more happier nows !
cos many people make me happy todays {3
kimberlylaopo, joydeardear, myrealkorkor, and you.
hahas, they make me lauqh until qot tears ! ;D
saw kim's and dana's bloq ! omqomq, th pics make me lauqh like siao !

i just realised i cant qo oud on valentines D:
cos i qot netball traininq, AHHHS ! ;x
qot people jio me ouds, sorrys ! cannot qo luhhs ;x
i may have a chance of qoinq ouds luhhs.
im a dumbdumb fcuk D:
i cant miss traininq . sadly ;x
joy jio me ouds ! ;D whees, i love her {3
she asked me ouds on valentines too, but i cant make it T-T
she friday she jio me ouds, we qo take neos ! maybe wid her twin joy and other people toos !
hohohos! ;x
and yes, i realised that me and joy have alot in common !
perhaps this year we're celebratinq our bdae toqether cos same bdae .
wheees (x
we're both damn hyper now .xD

now my bro watchinq one stupid indian video .
fcukinq funny luhhs !
i watch before alreadys , but now watch aqains lauqhinq like siao !
whees !
hahas , he show me another one , omq , im lauqhinq loads now alriqhts !
stomach pain already =x
im a badbad qirl nohrs , never do homework at all today .
hees . heck lahrs ;D
ah dammit , need t qo lehrs !
my stomach still hurts ;x
HAHS, lauqhinq therapy loves !

2008-02-11T11:33:00.000+08:00

super no mood aqains today lohrs.
damn moody D:
im back home early today cos of th o level thinqy ;D
qood lohrs, i was super no mood t hyper in school today.
somemore this morninq in school must do actinq for th play aqains.
woah super no mood lohrs.
then finally today qot our nametaqs (:
our 'cher finally qot bored and decided t qo collect for us, lols.
she wait so lonq then finally after th whole class shout then she qo D: so bad lohrs.
but yeah, my name looks fuqly any-oh-how D:
then also qot maths today.
cher returned us our mock test we did lohrs.
HAHS, i scored hiqher than andrea (x wheees, i qot A1 alriqhts.
althouqh i donte exactly pay attention in class dehrs.
always fool around wid andrea at th back ;D
then recess lohrs, almost all th canteen food store all close lehs D:
siansian.
eeyerhs, i jealous one of th sec four class lohrs.
they today in canteen do th chinese new year th thinq, th shenqyu (?).
today also th WHO birthday, hahahahas =x
luckily her birthday not one day later, if not damn suaysuay luhhs.
then qot short period of music then qo home lehrs!
wanted t qo visit stmarqs and peihwa dehrs! (;
then th fcukinqbastard come pick me up from school D: i also never tell him i qot half day lahrs.
must be thatbitch tell him dehrs D:
kaokaokaokaokao ! ;x

three more days t valentine! {3
hahas(: i love red roses! *hint hint*
hahahahahahas(x jokinq nias.
i envy those primary and sec school who have prom niqht lohrs.
must be damn fun, qraduation party toos! ;D
alyssa school have lehs! super boos ;x
anyone wnna qo ouds on valentine? xD im bored i quess.
wheees (x
suddenly i felt like stayinq at home on valentine.
hahas, maybe nia, maybe i qo loiter everywhere and slack bahrs ;x

whees(x
i qo watch naruto lehrs! boredbored.
mayber later i'll do bloqskin bahrs, help people T_T
sian !
hohohos ;x

2008-02-10T13:37:00.000+08:00

sibei dulan nows.
bo mood nohrs, cos my mood was ruined this morninq.
D: by some stupid people obviously.

this morninq thatman qo wake me up lahrs -'- tmd.
sunday leh, asshole.
then thatwoman come kpkb, ask me take oud my earsticks.
tmd, put four earsticks in one hole alot meh? qo die lahrs.
whole morninq ask me do this, do that.
damn fcuk sia.
they qo oud for whole day better, donte need t hear their ~~fcukinq~~ voice.
sibei buaysonq nows luhhs.
someone, please make my day alriqhts :D

super donte wnna do homework lehrs.
but little bit nia, just rush at niqht then can lehrs.
whole day i listen music nohrs, no mood for anythinqs ;x
maybe later i qo watch naruto lehrs, so thatman and thatwoman wonte disturb me.
my korkor also nothinq do, play dota whole day not bored de lohrs.
i wonder how he does that.
no mood no mood no mood! D:

this is just one super random topic alriqhts.
cos i suddenly thouqh of it ;x
what's wid quys/boys wearinq skinnies? 0.o
qirls super normal lahrs, some look super chio in them.
but quys? what th hell lahrs.
nothinq better t wear then start wearinq qirls clothes ahrs? ;x
seriously, althouqh it says unisex, you donte have t like wear it mahrs.
that day me and eden took mrt, saw this quy wearinq SUPER OUTSTANDINQ QREEN skinnies.
eeyerhs? i mean just one look can totally turn you off lahrs.
is this a fashion of somethinq?
boy wearinq skinnies make them look qay. lols.
hahs, i just can stop thinkinq why boys must wear them lohrs.
its like one day th whole world of boys became half-qirl.
HAHS. D:

ohohs` and loads of qirls are wearinq th little miss shirts.
its a fad now i quess.xD
cos when i went t escape, almost every qirl was wearinq it.
includinq me ;x
oh qosh, lawls.

uqh, my stupid web counter aint workinq well.
D: sometimes it works, sometimes it doesnt.
boos ;x
andandand` eeyerhs, i just found oud that ahmenq th oranqutan died D:
omq lahrs, i know im slow but OMG lahrs.
D; sad lahrs!